The next few days were agonizing. Mom finally gave us her lecture. We told everyone about the new mission and they still weren't too happy about our last one so to have a new one so soon no one was thrilled. I could still feel the death glares as we walked anywhere in this base. I mean I know they're still pissed at us, but it's starting to make me wish we really did die on that mission. I mean then we wouldn't have to deal with being hated by literally everyone here. I'm sure half of the people here would've been happier if we were gone.

"Don't think like that," Levi mumbled, wrapping his arms around my waist. "I know it's hard dealing with the aftermath of all of this but don't think like that."

"Sorry, it's just hard. It almost feels like we did die that day with how they are treating us. I mean before we left everything was fine. When we came back everyone hates us." I let out a sigh and looked towards where we both hid the stack of letters. It makes me rethink some of the nice things I wrote to them. Little did I know shortly after writing them they would hate our guts for coming back alive.

"They don't hate us," Levi sighed, pulling me into his lap making me look into his eyes. "They were just scared of losing us."

"Well, they didn't lose us, and it's been days now and they are still treating us horribly. I've tried to make it up to them, but any time I try and talk to some people they just walk away before I can get a word out."

He didn't say anything, he just pulled my head close to his chest and ran his finger through my hair.

"I hope we're not interrupting something," Jean said, barging in not caring if he was.

That's the one thing I'm grateful for. Jean can usually hold one hell of a grudge but after like two days he was back to normal and wasn't treating us like shit. Even when he was mad at us he still insisted on following us around and talking to us. It made me feel like he really would have missed us if we did die.

"Can you stop going so dark with your thought," Levi whispered as Jean plopped down on the bed next to him.

"What's wrong?" he asked me, "normally by now you would have told me to fuck off or at least give me a nasty look." I didn't have the energy to answer him. I just kept my face buried in Levi's chest. "Are you pissed at me?"

"Not at you," Levi corrected, "just one of those off days, don't take it personally."

I mean he's right Jean shouldn't take it personally, I did the same thing to Levi earlier. The only reason he knew anything was going on is because he's always looking at my thoughts. He knew right away that today was just a bad day. I mean it doesn't help that Hassam's mission is in just a few hours and I can barely talk to half of the people going on the mission because they won't even look at me without glaring at me down.

Mikasa especially wasn't too happy to hear that I went on a suicide mission. Even though Pixis took the blame for it I could tell she knew it was my idea to start. I would have preferred it if she just yelled at me and got it over with like mom did, but instead, she's just giving me the cold shoulder.

Sasha isn't very happy with me either, she'll at least talk to me but I can tell she's a little more stand-offish and I'll catch her giving me the side-eye and a few glares here and there.

Erwin definitely wasn't happy with me. He wasn't showing it, but I could tell by how any time I did try and talk to him he would be in a rush to end the conversation. Everyone is avoiding me like I have the plague or something and I'm sick of it. Maybe I should have died on the mission. I doubt they would have even cared.

"Ouch," I rubbed the back of my head and glared up at Levi, "did you just flick me?"

"You needed some sense knocked into you," he rolled his eyes. "Of course they would care. Just because they are mad and being a little petty doesn't mean they don't care about you."

"Is that what this is about?" Jean asked, "everyone being dicks still? I can yell at them to knock it off. If they don't listen I could always blast some sense into them," he said holding up a hand with a fireball to demonstrate what he meant. His other hand was quick to rub at my back gently. He scooted closer to the both of us to try and see my face. I think he thought I was crying.

"Forcing them to stop being mad isn't going to solve anything," I mumbled leaning my head over slightly to rest on Jean's shoulder. He could clearly see now that I wasn't crying, and it felt nice to have someone other than Levi show that they care. My boyfriend, my best friend, man I couldn't have asked for a better support system. Speaking of where is Marco? I'll have to ask Jean in a minute, he didn't follow him in like normal.

"Yeah, but if it's making you depressed and causing you to have bad thoughts," he said probably piecing that part together by how Levi reacted, " then they need to know to cut that shit out. They probably think they are doing it to get a message across or some dumb shit, but not everyone is a mind reader."

"Message received loud and clear," I mumbled.

"I am a mind reader and I still can't figure out what they are trying to do," Levi rolled his eyes.

"I know, I mean I thought I was being harsh for the two days I was mad at you guys, but they are going overboard with it now. It's been 5 days, they need to move on. They are acting like children with how they are handling it. If they have a problem then they need to act like an adult and talk it out with you."

I just shook my head and closed my eyes. It was pointless arguing with him. I mean I know for a fact that most of them aren't the type to sit down and talk out their issues. Just telling them to do so isn't going to help anything, it's just going to make them even more irritated with us for whatever reason.

"Where's Marco?" Levi asked changing the subject for me. I'm assuming he asked the question just for my sake cause he could probably tell by Jean's thoughts where Marco was.

"He's reffing some sparring matches at the moment."

"Actually now that you mention it I should go check on him," he said and Levi instantly grabbed his arm.

"Sit your ass back down." I looked between the two looking for an explanation. Levi sounded awfully aggressive just a second ago. What was I missing?

"Going and yelling at people is just going to make things worse."

"Damn mind reader," Jean mumbled.

"Look I know you just want to help, but do that by being here for Eren not trying to yell at everyone. That's going to hurt more than help."

"Fine, fine," he sighed laying back on the bed. He looked at me and patted the bed next to him.

I moved over and laid down cuddling up to Jean. Levi got behind me and wrapped his arms around me. I couldn't tell at first if he was, but now I'm sure of it. He's pushing that calming feeling on me. He wants me out of my head and away from those stressful depressing thoughts so he's subtly pushing a calm relaxing feeling over me. "Sneaky bastard."

"Hey it worked," Levi mumbled.

"It did, but that doesn't change the fact that you're a sneaky bastard."

"Imma just pretend like I know what you two are talking about," Jean said, nodding along.

"Nothing important, Eren just realized I was pushing an emotion on him to get him outta his head," Levi said, giving a quick explanation.

"Ah, makes sense."

When I woke up this morning I had no energy to get out of bed. I was sure I would be stuck here all day, it's a happy surprise to be joined by both Jean and Levi. All we are missing is Marco. I was so exhausted, but couldn't for the life of me go to sleep. Every time I closed my eyes I just kept getting bombarded by thoughts again. Even with Levi pushing that emotion on me a little more it wasn't working, the thoughts were still bleeding through.

I spent the next hour trying to get in a more comfortable position. I had started out with my head on Jean's chest and Levi pressed against my back. When that stopped being comfortable I turned over and laid my head on Levi's chest and sure enough Jean cuddled up against my back. I just kept flip-flopping between the two. Every time I got comfortable right as I settled down enough for sleep the stupid thoughts would come back and then all of the sudden I was no longer comfortable.

"You really are having some issues," jean said after about the fifth time of me laying my head on his chest. He just ran some calming fingers through my hair to help.

"Mhm," I hummed too tired at this point to even form words. By the time I'm actually able to fall asleep, it will be time to wake up and be on standby for Hassam's mission.

I didn't even notice another hour had passed until Marco came in to join us after reffing the sparring matches. "You guys are still awake?" he asked, surprised.

"Sadly," Levi said, nodding his head at me gesturing to Marco. "Someone's having some issues."

"Awe, anything I can do?" he asked and I felt as Levi sat up. "Actually, I think there is something," he said before getting up and going over to talk to him. I didn't hear what he was saying, but they both came over a minute later. My eyes were so unfocused and strained that I could barely make out what was happening.

I felt Jean get up and was very confused for a moment. Why did everyone leave the bed?"

Levi had crawled into the center of the bed and helped me lay down so that my head was in his lap. I couldn't help but wrap my arms around his waist as I settled into his lap getting comfortable. I felt a hand on my forehead and at first, I thought it was Levi until I felt my skin start to cool a little. Marco? What were they doing?

I felt another hand on my back. A moment later sure enough it was getting cooler. I felt my body start to cool down. I didn't even realize I was overheating until now.

"Better?" Levi asked and I could barely nod as my eyes started to close. I was barely conscious when I felt Jean and Marco lay down on either side of me. One side cool to the touch the other was just slightly warmer than normal body temperature. "Good-." I was asleep before Levi could even finish telling me goodnight.