Reuploaded because I made some minor changes but it was entirely take it down then repost
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(A/n: this was just a little idea that I came up with. But basically the basis of this oneshot is that Monty got tired of keeping the secret that he destroyed Glamrock Bonnie from Freddy for the time they've been dating and decided to come clean)

~ Glamrock Freddy's POV ~

Monty and I have been dating for about a year now in fact I swear Gregory sees us both as dads now which is nice to know. However lately I've noticed that Monty hasn't been acting like himself.

I don't know why this is happening, but it's really causing me to worry about him. It makes me wonder if perhaps things have been way to stressful on him lately. Like am I the one causing him to be this way? Does he need
more rest than just a week? And am I somehow overworking his system? Whatever it is, it's quite strange to see Monty like this.

In fact as I've been observing him these past few weeks it only makes his actions weirder. The reason why is because I've noticed that Monty has actually been acting like his normal self around the guests and children but then as soon as the day is over he leaves as quickly as he can then for some reason tends to avoid me until next opening day.

These actions are making me afraid that I may have upset him somehow, but I don't recall ever doing anything to him. I've been acting the same way this entire year. Maybe it's not me and he's just not feeling well but chooses to hide it.

I know this because he's done that before considering it's his personality type. Honestly he's really good at hiding it too. I didn't figure out he wasn't exactly feeling the best until a few days after the fact Monty wasn't feeling good.

But because of these questions I thought about, I've decided that after today's final performance ends and we finally have down time for a week I'll go see what's been pestering my boyfriend and causing him to act the way he's been acting. That is depending how I may be feeling because opening days do tend take a lot out of me.

- Time Skip -

Honestly today felt so much longer than normal and I don't know why. Maybe it's because I'm anxious to find out about what's been bothering Monty.

Then again I do also feel more exhausted than I normally am even though I'm at full charge, so maybe that has something to do with the day feeling so much longer than normal. Yet because of feeling like that it made me worry about myself as I don't want to collapse on stage again. Luckily I didn't.

Finally after what felt like never ending hours on end the day comes to a close and the guests start emptying out of the Pizzaplex.

Then just as expected once the stage lift comes to a stop bringing us all down to parts and service Monty immediately gets off the lift and leaves in a hurry.

So with that I was about to hurry after him but decided to take care of Gregory first. After I did that I head over to Monty's green room to see if I can get an answer on why he's been the way he's been. What happened next was something I wasn't expecting

~ Montgomery Gator's POV ~

I've been avoiding Fred a lot lately and the reason why is because lately my guilt for destroying Bonnie against my own will under the control of Afton and Vanny has come back. I feel sick for doing such a thing and going against my programming.

I was filled with rage and jealousy of Bonnie yes but that still wouldn't have resulted in me doing what I did. I can't do that, I can't physically harm one of our own kind but I did because of being hacked and it feels disgusting.

To be honest I strongly believe it's bothering me so much because I know Fred use to be in a relationship with Bonnie before, and they were happy...

...But I ruined that I ruined their happiness. So because of that lately all I can see is Freddy dating Bonnie even though I've been dating Freddy for a year now and it really hurts to know he loved Bonnie before he ever thought of even loving a scaly rage filled beast like me.

I have been hiding the truth about what truly happed to that damn cottontail from Fred for years. Now I finally feel as if it's about to burst I feel like I can't keep it bottled up anymore without feeling sick to my stomach. I had to tell him but I can't muster up the courage to.

I can't tell Fred because I fear seeing his reaction. Like I'm afraid he'll be hurt for the rest of his time and won't ever be able to even bare looking at me anymore. In fact it could even result in me being kicked form the band and having my boyfriend I love so dearly break up with me. I don't want that... I can't lose him...

As I was thinking about that I hear a knock on my door, it was Fred. This resulted in me snapping at him considering I felt so hurt for no reason at all

Glamrock Freddy: "Monty, it is me can I come in?"

Monty: "LEAVE ME ALONE FRED!!!"

Glamrock Freddy: "Are you alright"

Monty: "IM FINE! JUST GO AWAY"

Glamrock Freddy: "Something is bothering you I can tell"

Monty: "NO THERE'S NOT!! AH JUST WANNA BE LEFT ALONE!! DON'T YA HAVE A KID TO TAKE CARE OF ANYWAY!!"

I had by now started choking back tears which wasn't necessarily working. That's when I hear my door open then shut

Glamrock Freddy: "Monty..."

Monty; "G-GO AWAY!!"

He doesn't listen and ends up coming closer then pulling me into a hug sitting and holding me on the only couch part that wasn't flipped and strewn about in my entirely destroyed green room. Yet I still tried to get Freddy to leave

Monty: "GO AWAY! GO THE F-FUCK AWAY"

Glamrock Freddy: "Shh, it is ok. I am here"

I just kept repeating the same words over and over until they got softer and softer to the point where I just couldn't even say them anymore. Now I could only do nothing but choke and sob against Freddy's chest while he attempts at calming me. One of the things he was doing was stroking my mohawk which was at least working a little but not much

Glamrock Freddy: "Monty, are you ok"

I don't say anything and just buried my face into him more

Glamrock Freddy: "Monty, you know you can tell me anything I am here for you superstar"

Monty: "Ah don't wanna talk abou' it."

Glamrock Freddy: "Understandable, will you tell me when you are feeling more comfortable"

Monty: .......

Glamrock Freddy: *sighs* "Fine, I will not force you. I have just been worried about you because of the way you have been acting."

Monty: ....

Glamrock Freddy: "I have noticed that you have not been acting like yourself. You have be been avoiding me a lot lately. Then every time I try getting close to you, you have been pushing me away. I am afraid I may have somehow hurt you or upset you but I do not recall doing anything to you"

Monty: "Fred ya didn't do anythin' to upset me. I've just been... tired and... out of it"

Glamrock Freddy: "Am I stressing you out? Perhaps overworking you? If so I am truly sorry I do not mean it. Just tell me and I will let you rest."

Monty: "No it ain't you at all"

Glamrock Freddy: "Perhaps you may be getting sick then, I mean you do feel a little warm and we have been seeing a lot of younger guests lately so I would not be surprised if you were coming down with something"

Monty; "Fred, Ah ain't gettin' sick either."

Glamrock Freddy: "Are you sure? Because you are known to hide it. You are really good at hiding it too"

Monty: "I'm positive Ah ain't gettin' sick, trust me Ag know when Ah am considerin' my battery tends to rapidly drain then recharge really fuckin' slow. This normally results in me feelin' sluggish and extremely exhausted most of the time even if I'm at full charge then it completely hits me and Ah get sick. But Ah haven't had that meanin' Ah ain't gettin' sick"

Glamrock Freddy: "If you are not getting sick, then what is making you act the way you are"

Monty: .......

Glamrock Freddy: *sighs* "You still do not want to tell me do you"

Monty: .......

Glamrock Freddy: "Alright, then please just rest. I will not go anywhere, I promise"

Monty: "Thanks teddy bear. Ah just need someone around to be completely honest"

Glamrock Freddy: "That is why I am here Monty. You are also welcome superstar. Just talk to me when you are feeling ready."

Monty: "Maybe Ah will"

Glamrock Freddy: "Take all the time you need Monty."

With that I give a huff then start to relax while he held me.

- Time Skip -

A few hours had now gone by and we had actually decided to put my couch together. So we had somewhere to rest. In fact I'm pretty sure Freddy had already fallen asleep based on his soft slow rising and slow falling of his chest while breathing.

And well to be completely honest I was also pretty exhausted but I still couldn't sleep because of the thoughts I had in my head. I wanted to tell Freddy desperately but I just couldn't and it was starting to drive me a little crazy making me think to myself "Just tell him already!" but I couldn't. So instead I just decided to get up and leave my green room to take a little walk which would possibly help clear my thoughts.

As I left my green room I noticed all the other rooms had their curtains shut meaning I was probably the only one still awake. I checked the time to see it reading 3:30am so yeah they were all asleep which I was kinda expecting.

While I was out I had actually ended up walking to the nearest bathroom to splash some water on my face which only ended up making me argue with myself in the reflection of the mirror. But as I argued with myself I tried to keep my temper at bay so I wouldn't end up smashing the glass and possibly alerting the others.

(FYI: In the part below Monty will probably sound a lot like Roxy and truth be told that is the way my au version of Monty is he's kinda like her in certain ways you'll see what I mean)

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"What the fuck Monty just tell Freddy already! Tell him what's botherin' ya! Tell him the truth! He wants to help ya! Just let him already!....Ya actually need him as support now more than ever but ya ain't usin' it. Instead ya just push him away...Why? This isn't you and ya know that! Ya ain't a fuckin' coward!"

"Ah know Ah ain't! but... what if ya tell him and he doesn't see ya as the same person he once loved anymore. Or worse what if he breaks up with ya after findin' out the truth. Do you wanna lose yer boyfriend... Thas what Ah thought..."

*sighs* "Ah swear that cottontail was way better than me... it seems like he always was.... he was always so fuckin' perfect at everythin'. He was never fuckin' blamed for anythin' and when he was he was immediately forgiven unlike me... thas why yer jealous of him..."

"Ya know Bonnie was loved by everyone... ya know he was loved by every damn kid and adult alike.... he was a favorite.... He was loved by.... by even Freddy as more than just a friend...."

"Yer a monster for what ya did to him... no one forgives ya nor loves ya because of that.... You ain't Bonnie and you'll never be him or as good as him... and everyone knows that....includin' you... Now you're stuck in a never endin' loop of constantly regrettin' what you did to him...." *tears up*

"No! Stop it Monty! It ain't yer fault! You were controlled! Hacked by somethin' ya couldn't help! She was to strong! Ya did not do it on purpose! She used yer own fuckin' emotions against ya and manipulated ya with them! She was the one who caused ya this fuckin' pain! So go back there and tell Freddy the goddamn truth! Yer stronger than this! Ya ain't a fuckin coward so stop actin' like one!"
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With that I leave the bathroom and head back to my green room nervous but also determined. Once I got there I opened the door as carefully as I could as to not wake Freddy. But the metal doors being the way they are made a loud noise anyway which made me hold my breath.

Of course the sound woke up Freddy. He was a light sleeper. That's when he sits up and adjusts his hat back on his head while he sleepily speaks to me

Glamrock Freddy: "Monty?"

Monty: *sighs* "Yeah it's me..."

Glamrock Freddy: "Why did you leave the room superstar? Are you feeling ok?"

Monty: "I'm fine teddy bear Ah just...couldn't sleep..."

Glamrock Freddy: "What is the matter?"

After that I just continue walking into the room and over to the couch my boyfriend was sitting on. I then decided to sit on his lap facing him then rested my head on his shoulder with a huff while he now held me around the waist.

Monty: "Ah have to much fuckin' shit on my mind is the matter"

Glamrock Freddy: "Is everything alright?"

Monty: "Honestly, not really. Ah kinda just need ya as support right now"

Glamrock Freddy: "Alright. Do you want to talk about it? I am always here for you. If you need to vent out I will always listen and never judge"

Monty: "Thanks teddy bear.... And ya know what...yeah Ah think Ah need to talk"

Glamrock Freddy: "You are welcome superstar. I just want to help you."

Monty: "Ah know ya do"

Glamrock Freddy: "Exactly. Now, go on and tell me whatever is on your mind causing you such trouble."

Monty: "Well Freddy, I've been keepin' a secret from ya for years...and now it's finally startin' to eat away at me. Ah can't keep it from ya anymore"

Glamrock Freddy: "I thought we told each other everything!"

Monty: ......

Glamrock Freddy: *sighs* "Look Monty, I am not mad just disappointed in you. I am happy you have finally decided to tell me though"

Monty: "I've just been scared to tell ya because of fearin' yer reaction. I'm afraid that if Ah tell ya this...ya might not see me as the same. I'm afraid of you breakin' up with me after I tell ya"

Glamrock Freddy: "Monty, I would never break up with you, even if you do something horribly unforgivable I would still love you for you and that will never change no matter what."

Monty: "Thanks teddy bear"

Glamrock Freddy: "You are welcome superstar. Now please tell me"

Monty: *huffs* "It's a long story"

Glamrock Freddy: "I am willing to listen"

Monty: *sighs* "Alright, just please don't be mad"

Glamrock Freddy: "I can never get mad at you, but when I do I get over it very quickly"

Monty: "Ah know, but please Ah don't want ya gettin' mad."

Glamrock Freddy: "I will not. I am here to help you"

Monty: "Alright. The thing that has been on my mind is Bonnie."

Glamrock Freddy: "Oh? How so?"

Monty: "Well ya know how Bonnie had mysteriously gone missin' then was deemed as decommissioned by staff..."

Glamrock Freddy: "Yes..."

Monty: "I was the reason for his disappearance..."

Glamrock Freddy: ....

Monty: "Glamrock Bonnie was never decommissioned by staff... he was decommissioned by me..."

Glamrock Freddy: "M-Monty...wh-why"

Monty: "IT WAS NOT ON PURPOSE OK!! AH NEVER WANTED TO DO IT!! AH WAS NOT MYSELF Ah WAS CONTROLLED!! MANIPULATED!!"

Glamrock Freddy: "Monty..."

Monty: "I-I can explain"

Glamrock Freddy: "P-Please do"

Monty: *huffs and regains self* "Remember when Gregory got lost in the Pizzaplex that night which caused yer system to crash durin' stage performance because of his unknown profile."

Glamrock Freddy: "Yes..."

Monty: "Well that night wasn't the first time Ah had a run in experience with Vanny in which caused me to be hacked"

Glamrock Freddy: "What do you mean"

Monty: *sighs* "As ya know since Ah just told ya I was the one who destroyed Bonnie. Ah had done it out of my own rage and jealousy, but...Ah...A-Ah didn't do it by choice and here's that story"

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Ah destroyed Bonnie because Vanny had wanted to repair Afton but she needed rabbit parts in order to do so. However bein' the way Vanny is she didn't wanna do the dirty work which is funny because Ah know she can kill kids any time she gets the chance. So I'm surprised she rather not destroy an animatronic. However Ah realized the reason why and that's because Ah knew she wasn't strong enough to destroy an animatronic herself anyway and she knew that too.

And well that's when she used me, hacked me even.

This is because Vanny had always noticed my hatred and jealousy towards that perfect fuckin' cottontail as well as my mass strength. So because of that she got the idea and used my strength, hatred, and jealousy to her advantage and manipulated me with it by influencin' me enough about it until Ah finally reached my breakin' point. That's when Ah fell under her hack and decommissioned Bonnie once and for all...

...Honestly Ah thought the decommissionin' of Bonnie would relieve me from my anger and pain. However, Ah was completely wrong. It only relieved me for a little while until Ah saw how heartbroken you and just everyone was after they heard abou' Bonnie goin' missin' you hurt me the most teddy bear. Ah hated seein' ya so depressed it ain't you.

However on top of that which was not much longer.... guests had noticed Bonnie's disappearance when Ah became the new bass player in replace of him. And well that's when all hell broke loose....

Guests started to hate me and blame me for Bonnie's disappearance even though it was somethin' that Ah couldn't help and only did because of manipulation. They had started to always compare me to that fuckin' rabbit but not in a good way...

Ah began over hearin' guests say things like "He's the worst Bonnie replacement ever!" or "I bet he was the one who destroyed Bonnie for his own amusement!" Or even "He's nothing but a selfish cold-blooded heartless beast" Then as the weeks went on Ah started over hearin' even more people sayin' hurtful things like that behind my back as well.

Honestly hearin' all these negative comments abou' me made me feel a pain I've never felt before. Ah began to feel a sense of depression as their comments continued to constantly hurt me. It made me feel unloved and not special. Ah honestly felt like the whole world hated me and didn't want me here. This only made me get more and more agitated as it continued.

Now because of that I'm even more of the anger issued gator than Ah ever was before all because Ah was manipulated into destroyin' Bonnie against my own will by Vanny herself."

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Glamrock Freddy: .......

Monty: "Look Fred, I know I completely sound like Roxy right now but I ain't her. Like yes I do have some insecurity issues at times meanin' I don't always feel as if I'm good enough. I feel as if Bonnie was better than me. Heh now that I say that I guess I am more like Roxy than I thought. Yet I still don't have a low self esteem like she does even if I can get mental breakdowns. Except as you and everyone else know instead of cryin' I just flat out rage and destroy shit instead but I do cry it just ain't often."

Glamrock Freddy: "But you do"

Monty: "Ah didn't say Ah don't Ah said Ah just don't do it often. Ya just tend to see the soft side of me more often than others..."

Glamrock Freddy: ....

Monty: "But now that ya know the truth abou' me and what truly happened to Bonnie do what ya want Ah will accept it. Ah know the truth hurts....it hurts me too. Honestly it makes me feel disgustin' and guilty even though it wasn't necessarily my fault. But that still doesn't cover the fact that Ah went against our programmin' and destroyed a friend...

...Now Ah suffer with that guilt of knowin' what Ah did which only makes my anger issues worse because I'm mad at myself and Ah don't know how to process it. So because of that it just makes me lash out at random. Ah really just want all my pain to stop even if Ah do hate that perfect fuckin' rabbit. So please do yer worse to me...Ah deserve it..."

A/n:
And I'm ending it there I was planning on writing more but it was getting to long so you're going to have to wait for part 2 to see what Freddy's response to this is hehe so slight cliffhanger😉
At least you found out more about my version of Monty and why he is the way he is. But yeah that's pretty much it for this oneshot so I hope you enjoyed it. This oneshot was approximately 3726 words in all by the end of it so until next time...
"Stay Awesome, Stay Safe, Have A Great Day Wherever You May Be And Remember I Love I've You All And I Will See You Guys Escalater Peace Out My Pups" ;3