Only that it took me a LOT of frustration,, hand crpms and 3 and a half hours instead of like one.

FUCKING HELL I'M MAD, THE CHAPTER DELETED RIGHT BEFORE I COULD SAVE IT CAUSE WATTPAD IS A DICK AND NOW I HAVE TO REWRITE IT.

Anywho, dad let me touch his stuff; and by stuff, I mean iPad; and by touch, I mean use; and by use, I mean he downloaded Medibang for me and let me draw for 3 and a half hours!

Honestly, this is the clostest I've ever felt to him this whole year. I'm so happy.

So in the end, I spent 3 and a half hour of quality time with my family.
And by with my family, I mean I was sitting on the couch next to them, listeing to music and drawing while they watched CSI.

WHOOP WHOOP!

I drew with my fingers cause dad didn't fin his pen-thingy...
And now my hands feel like I just wrote a 6 page long german essay cause DAMN, do they hurt right now ;A;

Oh right! You surely wanna see WHAT I drew!! (I know the waist is too thin but don't let it bother you, I only noticed during shading and I wasn't in the mood to change it anymore)

If you didn't wanna see it then... excuse me but why are you even here? :/

Sorry, my humor is dying right now XD
You'd think it'd be my aching, still kinda half-open wounds (I totally didn't rip them open. nah, uh-uh) are what bothers me, but NOOOO it's my fucking SHOULDER.
Sorry, I'm pretty bothersome when I get a shot and then the next day, it starts itching and aching and whatnot even though it was just a tiny little shot and I CAN'T EVEN FUCKING SLEEP ON MY DAMN SIDE ANYMORE, IT SUCKSSSSSSS.

... see? bothersome XD

Anyway, I'll now try to distract myself from my shoulder either by either prying open the cuts from yesterday or by drawing.
Depending on how my hands feel in about ten mintues which is supposedly where I can't stand my shoulder anymore.

I'm in decisive (is that how you write it?) about going to sleep tho... I dunno, it's already half past midnight... :/

(Please don't read futher if you're gonna judge me...)

Just cause I'm a tad concerned about the coloration of this, please tell me if this is cause of the pencil or just cause of my skin (or something else maybe?):

(It's from yesterday night but I'm not really fond of showing you how my arm has changed over that span of time. Besides, that part still pretty much looks the same, so it doens't really matter that it's a day old ^^)

Like, only the thick one in the middle. IRL, it has somewhat of a grey tint (only lightly) but it still concerns me cause... pencils are evil and stuff :/

I know you can't really see it in the pic, it's also not too visible irl, but it's there, trust me.

Btw, if it helps anything, it feels like a bruise when I press on it but it's numb all around there... like, I seiously don't feel anything around it, only right on it. So that's a thing now, I guess? :/

So yeah, please no comments on this if they're not trying to tell me why it has this grey-ish tint, okay? Thanks... cause right now I really don't need people telling me that I should stop that :)

I love you all, I really do. And I know you care. You really do a lot or else you would've called me an attention whore long ago like some of my classmates (even though I hide most of them the best I can... :/). I'm thankful you don't see me as such. So that's why you really don't have to worry about me. I'm just kinda fed up by my classmastes so if all they see in me is a punching bag and an attention whore, fine, I won't even try to be decent with it anymore. pshhh, who needs them anyway.

Sorry for this post... I'll cute this out once I got a satisfying answer, promise! I just don't trust google with this XD