"Can we talk?"

Jungkook deeply breathed through the phone hoping the other would agree since they haven't talk to each other after the party and it's already been a week.

The long silence made him more anxious as he sighed once more.

"Please?"

He continued and after a moment, he heard a sigh, followed by an answer.

"Okay. I'm at home."

"I'll be there in an hour."

He replied and turned his phone off after their goodbyes. He felt relieved but nervous at the same time as he took few deep breaths trying to calm himself down before starting his car.

"Jeon Jungkook, get a grip of yourself."

~•~•~••~•~•~

"Kookie stop!"

I shouted trying to get him off of me with all the strength left in my body but he's too strong!

"I won't let go."

He said with a smirk plastered on his face and it made me nervous.

"Kook-ah!! Wait! Wait! I'm sorry! P-please stop!"

I said, desperation evident in my face and hinted in my voice but he still mercilessly proceeded with his evil plan.

"I...I please! I can't b-breathe..Kookie stop! Stop tickling me!"

I shouted and as if on cue, the door slammed open and we were met with eyes filled with disgust and anger.

"Jungkook, Taehyung come down stairs. We want to have a word with you two."

Jungkook's mother said and immediately left. I don't know what happened but she looks mad right now. They knew me well since I've been visiting their house for four years already.

Jungkook's parents are nice and normally, they would just let us be in Jungkook's room without any suspicion.

I gave Jungkook, who was still hovering above me, a worried look before getting out of his grip as I pushed him to sit up.

"Kookie, she looks mad...I'm worried."

He cupped my face and looked at me straight in the eyes.

"Baby, it's okay. Don't worry, okay?"

I nodded and smiled at him which he returned with his cute bunny smile.

We went down stairs and we saw his parents on the couch with a straight, serious face and they didn't even spare us a glance until we sat in front of them.

We could feel the thick air surrounding the living room as the awkward silence went on until Mr. Jeon released a deep sigh and finally looked at us, more like glared at us.

"Jungkook, I heard."

He started with his low stern voice as I immediately turned my head to Jungkook with a questioning look.

"I heard you rejected Lisa and told her that you wouldn't marry her no matter what."

My eyes widen in surprise. Lisa? The most popular girl in our school? What about her and marriage? Are they gonna get married?!

"Yes. I rejected her. I told you that I'm against fix marriage."

Jungkook straightforwardly answered back without hesitation which made his father's eyebrow twitch in irritation.

"No. You're the heir of Jeon family and whether you like it or not, you will marry her. Now be a good boy and talk to her. Take back what you said before it's too late."

His father said trying to stay as calm as possible while Jungkook looked determined on sticking with his decision.

"I can't. I'm sorry but I won't marry someone just for a business partnership. I will only marry the one I love."

He sternly replied and that made my heart skip a beat.

"And who do you love huh!? That filthy guy!?"

His dad suddenly bursts and stood up while pointing at me which made us shock.

Yes, we've been dating for almost four years but only our closest friends knew and although we've been keeping it a secret, it's okay and we're happy since we didn't want to put our relationship in a very complicated and risky state.

He is rich and he bears the name of one of the most famous family in the upper class world and I know he doesn't want to put me in danger because of his complex family background.

But how? How did they found out?

We've been perfectly keeping it a secret for the past years. How did they know?

"Lisa told me that you're dating him."

His mother spoke while glaring at me while she puts down her cup of tea.

"Listen, I let you inside this house and be my son's friend since you also go in the same school."

She sarcastically chuckled as she rolled her eyes while crossing her arms.

"I'm so stupid to think that maybe you also came from a wealthy family just because you also go to that school...and, Jungkook chose you as his friend. I thought he'd only choose people of his level...but I guess I'm wrong."

She said in a calm tone but her words pierced right through me, making me feel small as I hanged my head low because of shame that was slowly swallowing my whole being.

Is loving him....really a great sin?

"We've done a background check on you Kim Taehyung which I regret not doing the moment you stepped into this house."

Mr. Jeon sat down and grabbed a document on the table as I kept my head hanged low, trying to avoid their disgusted looks. Then I felt Jungkook's hand reached mine. His hand gave warmth to my sweaty, cold and trembeling one and it made me calm down.

"You have an older brother and your parents divorced 4 years ago which left you with your useless father who couldn't even get a proper job while your brother works here and there, doing all the jobs he could and a scholar student just so he could attend university. And look at this! Your mom even worked as a prostitute at-"

"Enough!"

Jungkook suddenly yelled and stood up as his shoulders goes up and down while he releases shaky breaths in anger but he didn't let go of my hand.

"I love him and I don't see any problem with that."

He declared as he tightened the grip on my hand. It made me flattered and my heart beats louder and faster with the sudden emotions clashing inside me.

"Problem!? Of course that is a problem! God Jungkook!! He came from a very poor family, for fuck's sake! And a guy on top of that!!"

I flinched in every raise of Mr. Jeon's voice but what he just said...it's all true. It's so true that I couldn't even say a word to defend my own family even when they are being unjustly insulted in front of me.

"And how dare you both lie to us like this! You kept secrets for years! You think it's okay for us when you've treated us like we're fools!? All these years! ALL THESE YEARS! GOD! I should've known!"

His mother added and now without trying to sound like a well-mannered, elegant woman that she usually is.

"Telling you the truth four years ago would just result to what is happening now! It wouldn't change anything! Mom, dad, I love him and that will never change."

He proclaimed before quickly dragging me away.

He was walking too fast in silence as I tried my best not to trip.

Judging from the direction, I think I know where he wants to go.

We're heading to our favorite place. It's  just a church ruin behind the nearby park but it's where we always promise something to each other.

It was where he said he'd marry me in a beautiful church, in front of our dearest friends and family and since then, it became my most precious place.

"Tae, baby?"

He said and I noticed that we're already here.

"I'm sorry...I-I'm really so-"

I cut him off with a kiss. After a moment, I felt him slowly relaxing as he wrapped his arms around my waist while his eyes closed.

"No matter what, I will never give you up."

"I know...and I'll never leave you, Jungkook. It's a promise."

Yes, it's a promise....a promise that I regrettably broke.

"Why? Tell me why!!?"

He kept on banging the door while shamelessly pleading.

"Please....open the door...just..."

His knocks became softer as I heard him sobbing.

"Just please...please talk to me."

He had been doing this for days. Why won't he just give up!

"Hey...Why?"

Sorry...I really wanted to open the door and hug you, I wanted to kiss you, I wanted to tell you that I already miss you so much, I want you to hear my I love yous' repeatedly, I want to tell you that I am hurting too.

But I can't...all I can do is stay in the corner and cry...I'm really sorry.

"You said you were scared that I'd leave you someday.....look who's leaving."

I'm still scared...I don't want to leave you but I don't know what to do anymore.

"Please...open this door..please."

I can't...I'm sorry...

I'm really sorry but I have to choose my family over you.

Please...I hope you understand that I have to do this for my father and brother.

I can't bear to see them suffer anymore just because of my selfishness. I can't let your parents take away my dad's passion and my brother's opportunity to achieve his ambitions. I'm sorry.

"Tae, if you still love me, please meet me there. I will wait for you. Even if it takes forever, I'll wait for you. I love you so much."

I knew I had to go. I regretted not telling you why, I regretted not opening the door and not hugging you and showering you with kisses.

Regrets slowly fills me up everyday until I couldn't take it anymore.

So I ran...I ran as fast as I could. I ran through the cold snow. It's so cold and dark and it made me think that maybe you already left but my legs kept on running.

I hope I'm not late. I hope you're still there. Please be there.

I pant as I turn to every direction trying to find any trace of you through my hazy vision because of the snow....but I found nothing.

I almost gave up until I saw a figure not so far away walking towards the road and I knew it was you.

I ran as fast as I could but I guess I wasn't fast enough and my shout wasn't loud enough as I saw your body fell limp on the ground with blood gushing out, painting the cold white snow with warm red blood.

I didn't gave up as I quickly brought you in the hospital but I was soon kicked out as your parents ignored my desperate pleads.

After months, the hyungs told me you were awake. Then I heard you had an amnesia. I wanted to visit you but I couldn't. The hospital guards won't allow me since your parents instructed them to.

After some time, I thought of the most stupid decision I ever made.

I don’t know how I will survive without the boy who makes me giggle, smile, laugh and melt from inside like gooey chocolate but I have to do this.

The best thing is that I have never loved anyone the way I had loved you. The worst thing is that I will miss you in a way that I have never missed anyone and the hardest part of saying goodbye, is that I don’t want to say it at all.

So,

If I made a different choice, would you still be on my side?

Ding Dong!

Ding Dong!

Ding Dong!

The door bell echoed in the large house and Taehyung slowly woke up from his usual nightmare as he lazily got out of his bed which he rarely did since he got home from that time.

Jungkook repeatedly pressed the door bell waiting for a person who would open the door as he nervously wait outside while organizing his thoughts.

Taehyung opened the door and the other saw his miserable state. His red puffed eyes, pale skin, chapped lips, messy hair, disheveled clothes, the blank look on his face and the lifelessness in his eyes. This made the other pull him into a tight hug and they stayed like that for a few minutes without saying anything.

"B-Bogum hyung."

The world may disapprove
But my world is only you
And if we're sinners then it feels like heaven to me.
Sinners|Lauren Aquilina