There is a funny taste in my mouth,
Ribbons seem to tie themselves up in
KnOtS,
And my words are caged animals
That you won't let sing.
In between
WA   LLS
Under the same roof,
My mind is screaming,
"GET OUT!"
Feet glued to the ground,
Hands clasped together,
Trying to hold myself,
When no one else can.
I AM PETRIFIED.
Scared of you,
And scared of my own shadow.
Memories, clawing their way
Up my throat,
Attacking my mouth
Making me vomit
Walls are closing in on me,
Your stare makes me freeze,
Like a deer in headlights.
I want to run,
I want to hide.
I can not shake off the feeling of disgust as you watch me.
The class is buzzing,
Computers clicking,
Teachers talking,
But no one can see.
A few tables between us,
But in the same room.
I'm trying to keep calm,
Cutting back the tears,
Swallowing my vomit,
Remembering the ones I love.
You're trying to make
Me freak out,
You know I know
You're there.
And you're making it
Very clear that you destroyed me,
And you will make me remember that.
I try to ignore your piercing stare,
Cover my body with my arms,
And curl up in a ball,
Trying to hide,
Trying to disappear,
But I'm still here
And so are you.