Dedicated to: @hizorixzo & @beytannn (hays di 'ko kayo ma-tag)

N@1nd1nt1h@n n1y0 k0 b3h h@h@h@

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His

I feel like an animal depraved of meat. An addict.

Not to mention that I've been pissed off lately. Naiintindihan ko namang hindi nila pwedeng malaman ang tungkol sa amin, alam ko dahil delikado ang buhay niya sa Papa ko pero tangina naman! Nagseselos ako!

It's like I know she's mine but I can't feel it. At least when we're in public since I always make sure I claim all of her when it's just the two of us.

I feel like I'm the only one who's proud of our relationship.

Palagi kong pinagmamayabang sa kanilang maganda ang girlfriend ko, mas maangas siya sa kanila, mas gwapo siya sa kanila, na mas lamang siya sa lahat ng taong nakilala ko pero siya? Wala akong narinig tungkol sa akin!

Okay, maybe I'm being too petty.

Pero nakakatampo! I feel so proud while she seemed... ashamed. Alam kong bobo ako, tatanga-tanga pero kung ang problema niya ay hitsura, hindi dapat siya nahihiya!

Kung ikinakahiya niya talaga ako... I can try to learn a lot of things. I can read books! Maybe I'll read a lot of books that will make me genius. Even though I hate knowledge more than anything, I can try... for her.

Matanda naman na ako 'di ba? Hindi na siguro ako mabubugbog kung mahuli man akong nagbabasa. Kaya ko nang protektahan ang sarili ko laban sa demonyo kong ina-inahan.

Right?

Even though it still traumatized me to the point of giving up. But still... I can do it for her if she really wanted me to.

Ci slumped against me, burying her face on my chest as she pant. I wiped the sweat off her forehead while she continue to chase for her breath. Bumaba ang tingin ko sa nakabukas niyang polo, her front was exposed and full of sweat. I grabbed a towel inside my drawer and wiped the sweat off.

I accidentally or intentionally ruined her chest bandage. It looks suffocating and painful so maybe it's best for her not to wear it? Bibigyan ko nalang siya ng saplot na matatabunan ang dibdib niya nang hindi ganito kasikip.

"I'm still sensitive." She whispered when my towel reached her mound. I was just wiping her breast innocently.

"I know." I accidentally, maybe intentionally brushed my fingers on her nipples. She whispered a moan.

Her moan turned me on. In fact, I'm getting hard again. The only thing that's stopping me from pouncing on her again is the look of tiredness on her face. Pinuyat ko siya kagabi kaya siguradong pagod siya ngayon. I sighed and let go of my dickhead brain.

Nang masigurong wala na siyang pawis ay unti-unti ko nang binutones pabalik ang polo niya. She buried her face in the crook of my neck while I let my hands move up and down her back, lulling her to sleep.

I'm a little guilty. I was too harsh on her ealier that she ended up exhausted against me. Hindi niya naman kasalanan iyon. I was just too damn petty.

There was just something about not owning her in public that piss me off. She's mine, I'm hers. I always make sure everyone knows that I'm owned by my girlfriend but she... was mum about that fact.

Anong gusto mong mangyari? Malaman ng lahat? Pati ng tatay mo?

I shut my eyes tight when memories assaulted me. The pleas, cries, beg. Umiling ako at hinigpitan ang kapit kay Ci. I won't make the same mistake twice. As much as possible, I'll protect her.

I was naive back then. Harmless. I didn't know the expense of my betrayal and it cause me her.

So why... why do I feel guilty? It was like my rotted brain kept on saying I don't deserve this. I don't deserve to be happy. I don't deserve Ci.

"Erikson?"

Binuksan ko ang mata ko at nagtama ang mata namin. She looked worried and that's when I realize I was sweating and panting.

"Nakaidlip ka?" Tanong ko at ibinaba ang kamay sa baywang niya.

She narrowed her eyes at me. I grin. She sighed and shook her head.

"Gusto kong matulog pero wala akong matulugan."

"You can sleep here." I motioned my body.

"I can if only nothing is poking me hard." She glared at me, I laughed.

"Okay, I'll order a bed." I wiped the sweats on her forehead.

"Dito?" Gulat niyang tanong.

"Oo." May espasyo naman dahil malaki ang office ko. I've been making love (she likes to call it fucking) to her lately in my office. And every after the session, she's exhausted.

A knock from outside made her jolt. Napatayo siya at pinunasan ang sariliring pawis. She huffed and arranged her disheveled state while I sit there, observing her cute flushing.

"Boss? Lunch na, kakain na si Ci." Always been Mavrik. Siya ang palaging kumakatok sa tuwing tumatagal si Ci sa opisina ko para ipaalalang kailangang kumain ni Ci.

"Gutom ka na?" Tanong ko kay Ci.

She was still flushed, probably from the after-sex session but she looked clean. Tumango siya kaya hinila ko ang kamay para makaupo siya sa kandungan ko. She slumped on my lap.

"Erikson!" Mahinang reklamo niya sabay sulyap sa pintuan.

"Boss?"

"Busy pa kami, Mavrik." Iritado kong sabi kaya nanlaki ang mata ni Ci. I pinched her cheeks, she looked so cute.

"A-Anong ginagawa niyo?"

"May pinag-uusapan lang." Si Ci, kalmado ang boses kahit namumutla na. I smirked at her.

"Okay. Sumunod ka nalang Ci?"

"Oka-"

"Ako na ang sasama sa kaniya sa pagkain. Mauna na kayo." Sinamaan ko ng tingin ang pintuan at hinigpitan ang hawak kay Ci. Ci is mine!

"S-Sige, boss."

"Huwag mong awayin si Mavrik."

Bumalik ang tingin ko kay Ci na nakatitig lang sa mukha ko.

"Hindi ko siya inaway." I pinched her cheeks, she glared at me.

"Stop it!"

"Anong gusto mong kainin?" Kinuha ko ang kamay niya at tinabunan ito sa kamay ko. She has small and cute hands.

Thinking of it, she's a small person despite her tall height (if I compare her to girl's majority height). Mas mataas siya sa ibang babae pero dahil mataas ako ay nagmukha siyang maliit. The last time I check, my height was 6'9, by looking at her, she's probably 6'0 or 5'9? Kasing height niya si Mavrik, si Angelo at Jericho naman ay ilang pulgada ang taas sa kaniya. Kaya hindi ko napansin ang kaibahan niya sa mga lalakeng kasama ko dahil kaya niyang makipagsabayan sa kanila.

Now that she's sitting on my lap, looking at me with her still disheveled state and parted lips, she looked nothing as a man- at least that kind of masculine man. She's really beautiful, that kind of beauty you won't get tired staring at.

"Burger..." She squinted her eyes as if thinking of the right word. "Stik?"

Nawala ang ngiti sa labi ko kasabay ng kalabog ng puso ko. I froze in my place as my lips parted out of shock.

No...

That can't be...

Right?

"Ah! Burger steak pala. I pronounced it wrong." She chuckled and avoided her eyes.

Tinitigan ko siya. I tried my best to peer into her soul, into her mind, for some reason... I felt something weird. Something... I cannot point out.

"Ginugutom na ako."

Doon ako natauhan. Ginutom ko si Ci! I held her waist and grabbrd the telephone. I dialed Angelo's number while she wait.

"Boss?"

"Bumili ka ng dalawang burger steak. 'Tsaka-" Binalingan ko si Ci. "Ano pang gusto mo?" Mahinahon kong tanong.

Nanlaki ang mata ni Ci kaya kumunot ang noo ko. Tumikhim si Angelo sa kabilang linya.

"Kausap mo girlfriend mo, boss?" Kalmado niyang tanong kaya nalito ako.

"Paano mo nalaman?"

Hinampas ni Ci ang braso ko kaya napatalon ako. It hurts! Binalingan ko siya at masama na ang tingin niya sa akin. Anong ginawa ko! Wala akong ginawang masama!

"Wala akong nakitang pumasok sa opisina mo." Aniya kaya roon ko napagtanto ang pagkakamali.

"Ah..." Napalunok ako at sumulyap kay Ci na tumayo na at halatang nataranta.

"Hindi naman siguro si Garcia iyang kausap mo, hindi ba? Masyadong malambing ang tono mo."

I laughed nervously. "Kausap ko sa telepono ang girlfriend ko."

Natahimik siya sa kabilang linya. Ci paced back and forth and I know this isn't the right time but she's really cute, I want to pinch her cheeks.

"Ah gano'n ba boss? Iyon lang ba ang kailangan mo?"

"Oo." Sabi ko bago ibinaba ang telepono.

"Mag-ingat ka!" Sermon niya nang maibaba na ang telepono.

"Hindi ko napan-"

"Kaya nga dapat mag-ingat ka! Masyado ka nang halata! Pasalamat ka bobo silang lahat." She glared at me, I sulk.

"Sorry." I whispered. Bakit kasi tatanga-tanga ako?

Nag-iwas siya ng tingin. "Lalabas na ako bago pa ako maabutan dito ni Angelo." Aniya at umambang aalis pero hinawakan ko ang kamay niya para mapigilan.

"Dito ka lang."

"Pagdududahan ako ni Angelo kapag nakita niyang ako ang kasama mo."

"Pwede namang nandiyan ka habang kausap ko sa telepono ang girlfriend ko, ah?"

Her eyes widened and a hint of anger glint on her eyes as if that thought enraged her. I bit my lower lip to stifle my smile. So she's low-key possessive?

"Ako ang girlfriend mo." Kalmado ang tono niyang saad.

Huwag kang ngumiti. Huwag kang ngumiti. Huwag kang-

A smile formed on my lips, she avoided her eyes. I chuckled and pulled her close to me, she let me sit her on my lap. I wrapped my hands around her midsection and kissed the crook of her neck.

"Of course you are." I smiled against her neck and smelled her leather scent. It was a manly scent but for some reason, her body scent mingled with it, giving me an addicting scent. I think I'm obsess.

Hindi siya nagsalita. She was quiet and even tilted her head to give me access. I bit the flesh not so harshly, she jolt that I smiled.

"Do you want anything except for foods?"

"Dress?"

A smile formed onto my lips. Inalis ko ang mukha sa leeg niya at tinitigan siya. Nag-iwas siya ng tingin at namula.

"Para kanino mo susuutin?" Taas ko ng kilay sa kaniya.

Umirap siya. "Para sa salamin?"

Humalakhak ako. "Gusto kong makita. Maganda ka na nga sa panlalaki, ano pa laya kapag pambabae na ang suot mo?"

Mas lalo siyang namula. "Bolero." Bulong niya sa kawalan kaya natawa ako.

"Hin-"

Malakas na kumalabog ang pinto kaya kaagad na napatayo si Ci. Her eyes widened and her face went pale. Kumunot ang noo ko nang tiningnan ang pintuan. Mabuti nalang at nakasarado ito nang subukan itong buksan ng kung sinong nasa labas. Ci must've noticed that the door was locked, she heaved a sigh of relief and went there, opening the door.

Angelo went in with furrowed brows. May dala na siyang plastic ng pina-order ko sa kaniya. Nagtama ang mata namin at nabasa ko ang pagdududa roon. Sumulyap siya sa Ci bago ibinalik ang tingin sa akin.

"Nandito na, boss." Inilapag niya sa lamesa ang binili.

Tumango ako. "Pwede ka nang lumabas."

Hindi siya gumalaw. "Saan ang girlfriend mo?" Seryosong tanong niya.

My eyes passed through him as I subtly glanced at Ci. Her knuckled were white and I could feel her body stiffening.

"Hindi ba't sinabi ko sa 'yong kausap ko siya sa telepono?" Bumalik ang tingin ko kay Angelo.

His eyes were red alert. He looked like he didn't buy my excuse. I sighed.

"Ihahatid ko ba?"

My jaw clenched. "Hindi mo na kailangang makialam, Angelo."

Kinuyom niya ang kamao. "Kung pupunta siya rito, aantayin ko."

"Hindi na kailangan."

His jaw clenched. "Sigurado ka bang may babae ka talaga?"

I stood and looked at him coldly. "Anong gusto mong ipagmukha?"

Nag-iwas siya ng tingin. "Kaya aanta-"

Kumalabog ang pinto kaya parehas kaming napabaling sa pintuan. Ana went in with clear strides. Ci's eyes widened and she tensed. My fist clenched as I looked at her coldly.

"Ako ang girlfriend niya." She announced.

Angelo was obviously taken off-guard. My eyes stray to Ci behind Ana and I could see how her muscles relaxed, she seemed relieved by Ana's sudden announcement. My jaw ticked as I looked at Angelo coldly. He seemed shock by the news.

"I-Ikaw?" This is the first time I heard Angelo stutter.

"Ako. Now if you'll excuse me, I need to have a talk with my boyfriend."

Angelo remained on his place, still shock by the news. Ana glared at him, he blinked and gulped. Nang mag-iwas siya ng tingin sa babae ay roon bumalik ang postura niya. Sumulyao siya kay Ci at senenyasan siyang lumabas kasama niya. Ci nodded without glancing my way despite my effort to communicate with my eyes. Hindi niya ako sinulyapan! I want to call her name but I stopped myself before Angelo became more suspicious.

Pagkasarado ng pinto ay kaagad akong hinarap ni Ana. She crossed her arms over her chest and looked at me with full of malice. I propped on my sit and sighed.

"I knew you'll blackmail someday. Go straight to the point." I said coldly.

"Marry me."

Natigilan ako sa sinabi niya. It caught me off-guard for a second but then I find that idea funny. I laughed without humor.

"I won't marry you." I said with a mocked smile.

"Wala akong pakealam kung may relasyon kayo ng lalakeng 'yon. Marry me and you can have your affair with him. I'll do the same. We'll just use each other." She shrugged.

I scoffed. "What makes you think I'll agree with your terms?"

A smirk formed into her lips. "Gusto mo bang maulit ang pagkakamali mo dati?"

Hinampas ko ang lamesa at napatayo. Rage seeped through my brain as fury boils in my head. I want to strangle her. She has no right to mention that fucking event. She has no fucking right.

"Careful, miss. I might shoot you straight to the brain." My voice was too calm for my own liking it was as if it was waiting for the right time to erupt.

Her body tensed and I saw the fear flashing on her eyes but she didn't back down.

"Kung ayaw mong mangyari ang nangyari dati, pumayag ka. That way you'll be able to hide him from your father's wrath. We could continue our own affair without problems."

"Shut the fuck up."

"Or I'll tell Henry now about your secret relationship? Hmm... I bet he won't only shoot him to death, he'll also tortu-"

"Subukan mo." I smiled without humor. "By then, you need to ready yourself for the red dots behind your head because I'll fucking shoot you with my sniper."

Her smile faltered a little but she remained poised. "My death will point to you."

I laughed mockingly. "What makes you think I'll continue to live? I'll fucking die after I have my revenge. That way, I'll chase you to hell."

Because I don't think I'll be able to survive another death. I'll make sure I'll die with Ci. I won't live without her. I won't make the same mistake of living my life again after my loved one's death.

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P.s hii sa mga nagco-comment na gusto magjoin sa gc huhu, pasensya hindi ko pa kayo na-add, hindi ko pa na-o-open messenger ko (⩺_⩹)

Pwede niyo 'ko i-chat sa messenger ko (fb: Celestial Aurora) kung gusto niyo hehe. Nahiya ako mag-first move sa inyo 😔👉👈

Actually, may na-traumatize na ako sa gc kasi nagsend ako ng picture ng kambal 'tsaka ni Adam as a joke so pag-isipan niyong mabuti kung gusto niyo talagang sumali sa gc 😆