Helena's POV:

It's been two days since I last saw him. He said he had to visit his grandma and that he'd be back on time for our little trip.

However he called to ask if I'm alright, yesterday. He's so sweet. That Romeo and Juliet night I realized that maybe back in high school we weren't together but that doesn't mean we can't be now.

Of course, I'm thinking about it, about him too much. I mean c'mon Helena. You've been acting like he is the best man alive. He is in my eyes. He's perfect. He is kind, sweet, understanding and many more things.

The other day on the theatre, we had to get close for a scene and by close I mean I had to remove his t-shirt and touch his abs and he had to remove mine and touch my waist but thankfully that was it. I was feeling really embarrassed. I mean it wasn't something but still. Like c'mon, we are going to do these infront of people. Live.

So when I grabbed his t-shirt, unsure and looking down, he looked at me and whispered:
<<Well that night I don't think you were embarrassed about what you were doing. >> He was smirking again.
<<I was drunk!>> I complained and he only hummed in response.

It's been four days since I last saw Lea and I already missed her. But we will meet today because when I tried telling her about the acting challenge, she screamed at the phone saying
<<YOU AND V TOGETHER FOR TEN DAYS ? SLEEPING TOGETHER? ACTING TOGETHER....>> and then said
<<SHIT, THAT'S SOME NEWS HEL, YOU HAVE TO TELL ME MORE BECAUSE I KNOW THERE'S MORE. MEET ME.>>

And well, then I asked about her Jack.
They. Are. Still. Together. Somehow. Of course I have to meet her after this.

I do not know but I feel like her and Jack will be together for some time if not for a lifetime. I just feel like it. I hope so, too because she seemed so happy and excited and embarrassed- which she never is- when she was telling me about him.

Oh, well looks like I've only got an hour till we meet.

I took a shower, wore a light blue long dress that I didn't remember having in my wardrobe and started heading to the station forty minutes before the time we are supposed to meet so that I would not have to run, this way minimizing my chances of getting late. Because I'm not a fast runner.

I don't even run. Maybe some Saturday morning if I have nothing else to do because it seems pretty fun but other than that I don't. I mean I don't have so much free time, it's not that I don't want to. Yeah, sure.

I'm finally there. We are meeting at a park which is kind of close to my house. I've got here on time. Well, good job, Helena.

<<HEY>> A sweating Lea stands at the other side of the park.

She runs to me.

Well, her car is still damaged. They need some tools they don't have to repair it and it might take a month.

<<I took the bus but it stopped like a mile away from here and it would take me years to come if I wouldn't start running. It took me two hours to come here with a bus. Plus, the bus was late twenty minutes! ANYWAYS, HEL, I'LL STOP TALKING NOW.>> She chuckled and I did too. She pulled me in an embrace.

<<I've missed you>>

<<Missed too, Hel. >>

<<Yeah, yeah okay. WHAT HAS HAPPENED WITH JACK?>>

<<WHAT HAS HAPPENED WITH V?>>

We both asked in excitement, amusement and schock.

<<YOU GO FIRST>> I told Lea before she could.

<<WELL, ACTUALLY, HE IS NICE AND WE'VE BEEN TOGETHER FOR SOME DAYS AND I'M NOT BORED OF HIM LIKE I USUALLY AM WITH OTHERS AND HE IS NOT EITHER. THE OTHER DAY HE SAID THAT I'M PRETTY WHEN I FELT LIKE I WASN'T LOOKING GOOD AND HE SAID THAT IT WAS NOT JUST A ONE NIGHT STAND AND THAT'S FUCKING SILLY BECAUSE I NEVER CARE FOR ANY OF THESE BUT I CAN'T HELP THINKING ABOUT HIM.>>

Oh. Oh, Lea. You do love him.

<<That's awesome, Lea. I think you should try. I know it might seem scary and you might be unsure but he sounds like a good man. Of course, I'll have to meet him someday. Hope it'll happen before your marriage.>>

<<HEL!>>

<<I MEAN IT. C'MON YOU ARE HAPPY, YOU LIKE HIM. YOU CAN'T TELL ME YOU DON'T. THE WAY YOU TALK ABOUT HIM, IT'S HOW I FEEL ABOUT V, OKAY.>> Ooops, that slipped.

She turned to look at me amazed.

<<HEL WOW! YOU ALWAYS SAY I LOVE JACK BUT YOU LOVE V SO MUCH.>>

<<I do no->>

<<Oh you do. C'mon okay. JOKES ASIDE BUT I THINK WE MIGHT BE FALLING, GIRL. FALLING HARD. I HOPE THIS WON'T GET FUCKED UP BECAUSE I CAN'T HELP BUT WORRY. I KNOW WE BOTH CARE ABOUT THEM.>>

<<Yeah, I get it. I worry about it, too. That's why I don't call him, that's why I don't act more. I feel like it's moving fast and I don't know. Feels scary.>>

<<BUT GOOD>>

<<Hell yeah.>>

I had to admit it. I do like him. I think I love him and I do think I should not because he deserves better but me loving or liking him doesn't mean he does too.

Maybe he does, though. He did say he cares about me. I want to believe him but I just don't get why he'd like me. It has nothing to do with him. He's just too good for someone like me. But if he does likes me, then maybe we could try.

It is a bit early to think like that. But I mean we did kiss after that night too. So it wasn't about fucking me I think.

I just don't want to get hurt because I believe that if we had a relationship and he loved me and I did too, I just feel like the end would be too sad. Breaking up with him would be hard and I don't want to risk it.

But maybe it's worth it.

<<YOU KNOW WHAT. WE ARE OVERTHINKING IT. FUCK IT. LET'S TRY. TO LOVE THEM. EVEN IF WE GET HURT I THINK WE WOULDN'T REGRET IT. MAYBE WE WOULDN'T WANT IT TO END, BUT THAT'S LIFE AND IF WE DON'T TRY WE WILL NEVER KNOW. WHAT IT'D BE LIKE. BEING IN LOVE AT 24. IT'S THE FIRST TIME I'LL DO THIS BECAUSE OTHER TIMES WE USUALLY STOP THE MORNING. I THOUGHT I LIKED THAT. SEX. I DO LIKE IT, I LOVE IT. BUT I DIDN'T LIKE THEM LEAVING AFTERWARDS AND I DIDN'T KNOW TILL I MET JACK. FOR YOU, IT'LL BE YOUR FIRST TIME YOU'LL ACTUALLY BE TOGETHER. I MEAN HE OBVIOUSLY LIKES YOU AND YOU DO TOO. YOU'VE KNOWN EACH OTHER IF NOT LOVED EACH OTHER, SINCE HIGHSCHOOL. YOU HAVE TO GET TOGETHER NOW BECAUSE WHY NOT. >>

And then I remembered. Lea didn't know about what happened the night of V's performance and I didn't know what happened to her that night, either. Shit, how do I tell her.

<<You know Lea. I've actually forgotten to tell you that um- that night at the club or whatever that was um - we kind of got clos->>

<<YOU'RE NOT A VIRGIN ANYMORE?!?!? >>

She was looking at me like I've just told her the world's biggest secret.

<<HEY, DON'T SHOUT!>> I put my hand over her mouth to stop her from saying more.

<<YOU DIDN'T ANSWER.>>

<<Y- Yea->>

<<HEKENA THAT'S GREAT. SHIT, I'M PROUD OF YOU. WAS HE GOOD TO YOU? IF HE WASN'T I SWEAR I'LL ->>

<<He was>> I said embarrassed.

<<Yeah, he always seemed like the dominant type of man, Hel. THAT'S NICE. SO YOU'RE ALREADY TOGETHER!?>>

<<Shut up. Kind of yeah. I mean he might just wanted to fuck me and I'm scared to really move forward with him>>

<<No, Hel. He likes you. I know it's scary. But let's give it a chance. Let's risk it. Both of us. That's what life is for anyway.>>

<<ALRIGHT! BUT YOU DIDN'T TELL ME, WHAT DID YOU DO THAT NIGHT?>>

<<Jack came to pick me up and we had a nice night. I can go into details -

<<I'm good!>> I said, the confidence of that woman in such things is amusing me.

<<But he was so sweet. He made me dinner afterwards! And we talked.>>

<<Aw, Lea. Sweet? Aw. >> I still loved to tease her and see her embarrassed.

<< Yeah, like you don't think like that of V.>> She smirked.

<<SO YOU'LL GO TO HOLIDAYS TOGETHER? YOU AND V? STAY IN THE SAME HOTEL AND THE SAME ROOM AND SANE BED?>>

<<Okay, I don't know that much. But it's not holidays! It is for an acting challenge!>>

<<YEAH FOR TEN DAYS IN BOSTON! THAT STILL SOUNDS GOOD TO ME>>

<<Well, it sounds good to me too.>> I smiled and she smiled back. We were sitting at some wooden chairs the park had in the middle of it. Just two young women talking about men watching the leaves fall of the trees. I loved Autumn.

<<I'm just scared. Jella lived there. You know when the whole thing with my birthday hap->>

<<STOP. No, you won't let that bitch decide if you're going to go somewhere you want to go. I don't think she's living there anymore, anyways. But if she does, there's no way you'll see her and if you do just call me and give her your phone. We'll have a nice talk.>> She winked at me. She was a good friend indeed.

Speaking of birthdays though I did remember that in two days it was Lea's birthday. Thankfully, me and Valenthio were going to leave in three days. Just early in the morning. He actually thought we'd have to leave earlier but turns out he was wrong and I'm so glad because otherwise I wouldn't have the chance to hold Lea a party. Gosh, I have to invite Jack! I'll ask Lis for his phone number!

<<Thanks, Lea>>

<<I love you Hel.>>

<<Aww. I love you too.>>

<<More than V?>>/ <<And what about Jack?>> We both said at the same time and burst out laughing.

We were just some best friends talking for men in the middle of a park in Italy.