!!!!!SMUT WARNING!!!!!
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Helena's POV:

The sunlight greets my eyes, waking me up. I look next to me. Valenthio is sleeping next to me.

I get up. What happened. No, no, no. Yesterday wasn't a dream? Shit, we did it, didn't we? Fuck, Lea was right.

I look down. I'm only wearing a t-shirt. His t-shirt. No underwear. Shit , I do remember yesterday.

Fuck, the way he touched me. The way his tongue licked my, my uh thing? Fuck. He'd make me cum within seconds. And that rule of him? That I had to say out loud that I was gonna cum? God, I'm so embarrassed. What am I going to do? How can we even act together after this?

I didn't notice Valenthio waking up and standing behind me untill I felt his hand on my neck and his breath on my ear. He was standing beside me.

<<What are you thinking, sweetheart?>>

I feel my cheeks burn.

And then I look at the mirror infront of me. HE'S FUCKING NAKED. Standing behind me. I'm naked TOO. His thing is touching my shirt.

Shocked, I panic and turn to go.

<<Mmm embarrassed, are we. Well, you weren't so embarrassed yesterday, screaming with pleasure, cuming all over the bed, love.>>

He grabs my waist with his hands, lifts me up effortlessly and places me sitting on his lap, on the bed.

<<C'mon love. Don't act like you don't remember. Maybe I'll have to remind you.>>

No way. I can't do this. Not sober. Damn, I should go.

I try to push his hands off me.

<<Well since you want it, I'll remind you>>

One of his hand closes over my waist, securing me against him, making it impossible to get off. His other hand caresses my thigh and soon enough goes under the shirt, massaging my clit.

Fuck, he can't do this now. He can't see me now. Fuck, I feel weak. It feels so good. I'm so sensitive from last night, trembling whenever his fingers touch me.

Infront of us stood the mirror and I didn't dare look.

As if Valenthio could read my thoughts, he whispered in my ear

<<Look at the mirror or else I'll punish you.>>

Punish me? Shit, I was kind of scared. Damn, he's acting like some fiction character of the books I read.

I look at the mirror. My pussy is showing and his veiny hand is touching it. My body is shaking and his head is on my arm, smirking, probably enjoining the view.

He runs his finger in my pussy just to show me how wet I am. Fuck, that's so embarrassing. I turn to look down.

He stops.

<<No looking down, love. Don't be embarrassed. Now, lick it.>> He says showing his finger that's we.

And I do it. I don't know why. Gosh, why'd I like this.

<<Good girl.>> Good girl? Oh gosh.

He puts his finger inside me.

His eyes looking in mine from the mirror,looking nowhere else but me.

I bite my tongue, not sure if I can keep silent otherwise. His finger is big and the pleasure is too good. Fuck.

<<Let me hear you.>> He says fastening the pace.

I let myself a bit. I feel a little self-conscious and uncomfortable moaning but soon enough the pleasure is too much to think about anything else.

<<So sweet, I could listen to your moans all day. Can't wait to hear you when my cock's inside you>> he was smirking at me and I was close.

He took his finger out.

Fuck.

<<I hate you>>

<<Hey, be patient love. >>

He brings his hands on my shirt to undress me.

Suddenly I feel a bit scared and insecure.

He uses his hand to make me look at him, not from the mirror.

<<You. Are. Beautiful. Okay? Pure beauty and I'd never lie.>> That was so sweet. If it's even true.

He takes my shirt off.

I'm looking at the mirror. I'm like a tomato. My pussy is still burning with need and I feel a little disappointed that he won't continue.

<<Tell me what you want.>>

No. I can't.

<<Nothing>> I smile up at him.

He smirks.

<<Alright, let's stop then>>

<<No!>>

<<Tell me, Hele. Tell me.>>

<<I uh- I, I want um>>

My heart's beating so fast and I just, I don't know but I

<<No need to panic, love. Just asking what you want so I can give it to you.>> I take a deep breath and try to talk.

<< I um - want, to um- cum>>

His smirks widens.

<< Good job >> He puts his fingers inside of me and I scream in pleasure.

<<Love that sound.>> That only made me more wet.

I'm close, so close. Too close.

His pace fastens even more.

<<Keep your eyes open while you're cuming, or you won't cum at all. Look at the mirror and cum now!>> He slightly raised his voice and I let it out, groaning.

I was looking at his fingers playing with my wet pussy while I was uncontrollably cuming.My eyes rolled and pleasure was the only thing I was feeling.

He turned me to face him and kissed me passionately.

He lays me down.

He is rubbing my clit again and I don't know if I can handle it. I'm too sensitive.

<<So sensitive, fuck. Wait to see what my cock is going to do to you.>>

And then after just about some seconds, he inserts my body and I cry out in pleasure. God.

When did he even put in the condom? He did put one but I was too lost in my own thoughts. Thankfully he did. I was scared for a sec.

<<Look at me.>>

<<I'm close>> my voice low and breathless.

<<Cum now!>> He demanded and massaged my pussy till I was screaming his name, begging to stop as the pleasure was too much to bare.

He didn't stop, though. He took my hand in his so that I'd stay in place and looked at me while I was orgasming. After I came I run off him as I couldn't risk another orgasm.

Too much.

He finished just as I left his body with a groan and soon enough was chuckling.

<<Too much too handle, right?>>

Why was I blushing again. Gosh, I hated it. I run to the bathroom.

I cleaned myself.

I was about to go out again but how should I act. What should I do?

Did something change between us? Does he even like me? I mean why waste his time on me otherwise. But also he could just do it for the sex.

Damn, I just don't know. I wish he loved me. But I am unlovable. I'm a bitch. No one should love me. He should definitely not love me. Of course he doesn't what do you think, Helena? He just wanted to fuck you. You both had a good time, now that's enough. I just wish I was better. I wish he could love me. But no, Helena! He should not. You're fucking crazy. He's got the looks, the character, everything. What have you got.

<<Helena? You okay? You've been in there for some time>> He sounded concerned. Oh, love. You don't deserve someone like me, not even for sex. You can do so much better, V. Why me.

Tears were rolling down my face as I was sitting at the bathtub, dressed with the yesterday's dress.

My breath quickened and I was feeling a bit anxious? No, stop. You're acting like a victim Helena.

The door opened leaving me no time to wipe my tears off.

His eyes softened.

He stood Infront of me.

<<What happened, Helena? Tell me, please. Why are you upset? Did I hurt you?>>

I was trying to focus on breathing in and out, slowly.

<<N-n, no.>>

He picked me up and placed me on the bed.

He stood infront of me.

<<Hey, hey. Calm down. Look at me. Breathe with me, okay? Let's count to ten breaths>>

Another panic attack infront of him. Great, you're so pathetic, Helena.

I saw his chest move, I put my hand on his heart to feel in the moment, to focus on something and he smiled a bit.

<<I- I'm so s- sorry>> i have almost calmed down completely after some minutes.

<<Why? Hey, what happened back there? What are you thinking about.>> He looked concerned. He can't be. He shouldn't. Why would he.

I don't want to tell him. It's weird and I don't wanna bother him with my thoughts.

<<It's okay, you don't have to listen to my bullshit all the time.>> I laughed.

He made me look at him, his hand on my chin.

<<I want to listen, Hele. I want to know what made my love sad. It's not bullshit.>>

A tear rolled down and he kissed it away.

<<You just didn't have to lose your time with me. You're too good. I just feel bad. I was definitely not good last night or, um- today >>

He shook his head.

<<You were perfect. I loved it, Helena. I promise. Helena I care about you. I did since high school>> he hugs me, his warmth comforting.

A/N

How are you loves? Hope you're doing great and if not , please hold on. You matter. You're amazing and beautiful. You are.
Hope it wasn't too cringey guyss.
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Also I'm thinking of a plot for a new book but it's just a thought for now. I haven't even ended this so yeah :)