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Y/N P. O. V

It's been 1 year now. 1 year since Dan moved away and I'll be turning 18 this year which freaks me out. I'll finally be counted as an adult. I also have 150+ subscribers now which is the only reason I'm happy about myself.  Also, Dan is nearing 100,000 subscribers which excites me.

Jem moved one month after we had that conversation. We skyped and all that and it turns out that she was enjoying Brighton.

But anyways, Dan and I have talked over the phone and he seemed a bit...different. His voice sounded more stressed day by day, which worries me. He denied my video calls, telling me he wasn't in the mood to chat or any other excuse. I knew I had to fix this.

*few months ago*

The buzzing sound of the phone continued but Dan wasn't picking up. Either he was busy, or he was ignoring me. I'm saying this because of how he's changed over a period of time.

I call him an hour later, successful on getting him to pick his phone up.

"Dan? Why weren't you answering my call?" I ask, trying to remain calm even though I was bursting with disappointment

"Sorry Y/N....was recording a video" his voice sounded careless like he didn't give a damn about me.

"C'mon Dan. Are you ignoring your girlfriend?" I want to be honest with him.

"What? Y/N?! Why did you think so?" his tone changed from carelessness to anger.

"You've changed over the time." I say before Dan hung up. He really started to annoy me. It's hard for me to do anything, thinking about Dan not being okay. It really stresses me out and I don't know why.

I try to distract myself by thinking about what university I should go to and what job to take but that only made it worse. I've never been this stressed in my life before. Thinking about boyfriend, who's probably ignoring you, and making life plans when you don't have an interest in anything.

I have thought of taking ___ because that is the only subject I find engrossing and that I can understand.

I have applied for the same college as Dan and I'm hoping to get admission there. Lizzie said she might join me as well and I felt a sense of relief when she talked to me about it.

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It's now my time to decide what to do with my life. I need to ready myself with the challenges that await me.

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Shitty and short chapter.

My classmate passed away today morning and I can't believe that this is reality. I broke down when our teacher told us.

He used to annoy me but we still had a bond and now I feel like I missed out on hanging out with him.