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at 12:45 pm on a tuesday, yoongi was at the amusement park with his older brother, kim seokjin. they were both waiting in line for a ride when yoongi got a phone call.

the number was unknown but yoongi still picked up. yoongi didn't think it was something important so he didn't take it serious.

"y-yoongi?" the voice from across the phone whimpered. once yoongi heard his voice, he panicked.

"taehyung? what happened? why are you calling?"

"yoongi, you need to come to the hospital," taehyung paused. "hoseok needs you."

yoongi didn't know what to say. he bid taehyung goodbye after telling him that he was going.

"where are you going?" asked seokjin, concerned. he followed yoongi as he was walking out of the amusement park.

"it's about hoseok. he's at the hospital again," yoongi left the gate and started running away from his brother until seokjin grabbed his wrist.

"i can drive you there," seokjin took out his keys and unlocked his car. yoongi smiled and entered the vehicle as quick as possible. the whole ride consisted of worry in yoongi's part.

once yoongi entered the hospital, he asked the assistant for hoseok's room number. once he got it, he went in the elevator. everything was like déjà vu to him. everything was repeating.

yoongi entered the room and hoseok had an oxygen mask on his mouth. the heart monitor had slow beats. his mother was on the bed edge crying. taehyung was on the other side but he got up once he saw yoongi enter the room. yoongi's face was red and his eyes were getting glossy.

yoongi made his way to taehyung's side of the bed while still looking at the sleeping boy. it was time.

the time had come to say goodbye. no one wanted to say it but it had to be done. there was no going back or forward. nothing good would come out with just leaving problems by itself. nothing can be fixed that way.

"hello again hobi," yoongi softly said. the room was silent except for the beating that was meant to be hoseok's heart beat. yoongi didn't cry yet but the streams of tears almost came.

"i hate to see you here again," yoongi gulped. "i remember when we first met. you were in your little green shorts. you made sure your hair was perfect. you're still so cute, hobi," yoongi took a hold of hoseok's cold hand.

if the heart monitor stopped for even a second, the mother would freak out and have break down. she went through so much that she grew so attached to the boy on the bed.

the mother had her face covered as she was hunched over the edge. she had her elbows protecting her head as she sobbed. taehyung was on a chair that was there for him as he waited for the dreadful moment.

yoongi's snuffles came, his nose started to run when he starred at hoseok's sleeping face. "it's okay, hobi."

"just stay asleep. don't worry about us," yoongi smiled sadly. "we don't want you to be in pain anymore."

yoongi used his sweater paws to wipe away his snot. but he stayed positive. "well, time is here."

"i'm sorry this is where things end, hobi. i wish you could be awake to say something before you go. but i know it might be hard for you so don't push yourself," yoongi smiled, looking down at hoseok.

"your mother is here for you. your brother is here as well. i'm here. what more can you ask for?" yoongi lightly laughed.

there was a sudden knock at the door, taehyung and yoongi turned their neck to look who it was. the mother didn't move at all.

once the door opened, two little boys and two males walked in. it was jimin, jeongguk, namjoon, and seokjin. they all knew what was happening so they gave each other their space.

jimin and jeongguk ran to yoongi's side of the bed and looked at hoseok with sad eyes. the grown adults sat next to taehyung to make sure he's not alone.

"wake up, hobi," jimin whined with tears running down his face.

"yeah, wake up," jeongguk said after.

"shhh guys. he's sleeping," yoongi silenced the boys. yoongi seemed calm about the situation which made the younger boys confused.

"he's getting ready to go home with the other angels," yoongi softly brushed hoseok's hair. "death isn't a bad thing, guys. it's just part of living."

the heart monitor was flashing a color. but it was still beeping, barely.

all the doctors knew that there was nothing to help the boy any more. they did their best to keep him alive but nothing seemed to work. they warned the family, which they accepted the hard truth.

yoongi couldn't handle it anymore and let his tears fall down. yoongi looked at the wall to avoid the little kids looking at him. yoongi held onto hoseok's cold hand tightly, afraid to let go.

"i-it's okay, hobi. it's gonna be alright," yoongi told himself. "it's best if you go now, hobi. i-i can't get my hopes to high. i-i'm only disappointing myself."

"don't worry, yoongi. he's saying goodbye. he's thanking you for everything you've given him, even if you can't hear him," jeongguk quietly said. "it might be hard right now but everything gets better with time."

"hoseok was mistreated at such a young age but not much later, he got someone like you in his life. he couldn't be more grateful," jeongguk smiled. "hoseok means so much to us and it's the same to you."

"goodbye, hobi. we'll miss you," jeongguk smiled sadly at hoseok's body. yoongi was still crying, he just couldn't face reality.

"jeongguk's right. hobi is probably hoping to wake up and to tell you have much he loves you and how much you mean to him," jimin's smile was shown. "until night, hobi. goodbye," jimin waved at hoseok.

"hoseok took a large part of my life. he's been there since the day that i was brought into foster care. he told me that he would protect me and how much he loved me. i had never felt loved until he came into my life. and for that, he's special to me. as much as i don't want him to go, it's best for him. so he won't suffer anymore," taehyung spoke from his seat. "goo-goodbye, brother."

"hoseok never deserved the bad things in his life. i still remember the day i drove him to the foster house, he was just a little baby. his crying was so hard for me to hear. how could a mother abandon her own child? it was at that moment when i learned how cruel the world was. the older hoseok got, the more my heart broke, he was a happy kid with no worries. this is a hard moment because he's going at such a young age. hoseok, don't forget that you're loved. goodbye, sunshine," namjoon wiped away a tear that threatened to fall.

"i-i never met hoseok before but i do know something, hoseok was the most kindest human being that could fall in this earth. if anything, hoseok is an angel that fell from god's hands and fell down here. he doesn't deserve to live in such a cruel place that did him no good. the angels up in heaven would've given a much better time that he deserved. but without that little slip, that small mess up, hoseok wouldn't have given all of us such a good time. yoongi wouldn't be my brother right now, jimin and jeongguk would by spoiled brats, namjoon would still hate his job, and i would be jobless. just that simple thing, would've made everything different. thank you, hoseok. i'm sorry this is happening but remember, you're special. goodbye, hoseok," seokjin spoke with a clear voice. those years of school paid off with his meaningful speech.

"h-h-hoseokie, this is so h-hard," the mother tried gulping down her hard time talking. "my baby that i will miss for the rest of my life. thank you for everything. thank you so much from the bottom of my heart," the mother continued. "if you can hear me, understand that you won't be hurting me. don't force yourself to be alive. just rest, honey. just rest your little heart," the mother held her breath to not make any noise that would cause her to cry once again. her tears fell unwillingly. "w-when i hear that long beep, that is when i know that you finally gave yourself the peace you deserve.  but i'm not forcing you to go as well. just give yourself some time alone. g-goodbye, honey," the mother caressing hoseok's pale cheek.

yoongi then felt pressured. he looked at the heart monitor and the heart rate was just getting slower and slower. the respiration was getting lower and lower. yoongi didn't want any of this to happen yet there he was, waiting for his final moments with the boy to end.

"at the start of everything, everything was dark and useless.  nothing mattered and no one cared.  everything was full of negativity and hatred but you came skipping along the sidewalk with your heart shaped smile.  the flowers could see you and bloom with a beautiful smell.  people would look at you and instantly smile with you because you're that special.  that dark end of the road lightened up and the negativity decreased by a large amount.  you're the truest angel in the earth, hobi.  everything you did to people was worth it.  i've been thinking about what we had lately and i always wished to give you every flower that was attached on earth.  but i learned my mistake too late.  the times were i plucked the prettiest flowers, were a big mistake.  i don't want you to go, hobi.  i'm sorry for causing this but do know this...there is something wrong with this reality.  please don't leave thinking that you did something wrong.  you did nothing out of the ordinary, you're a unique boy.  please don't regret meeting your ending.  goodnight, my precious, my only, my number one, my pretty hobi.  thank you so much," yoongi's eyes were bloodshot but he was still smiling to lessen hoseok's difficult decision. 

thank you, everyone.  mama, tae, yoongi, joonie, jinie, jiminie, and jjukie.  it hurts so much but your kind words lessened the pain.  my chest hurts so much but maybe it's the fact that i won't be able to see any of you ever again.  my heart hurts because of this heartbreak but it's okay.  this is the part where i wake up , hug all of you , stay alive, and live until 90...but...i can't.  i actually can't, my brain is not letting me wake up.  i'm sorry guys.  i love you all~ i hate to say goodbye but i want to rest.  i want to sleep so this pain goes away.  only that way will stop it so... until your dreams.  goodnight--

with a smile on his face, he went to sleep.  the beep that went with it was no longer heard when hoseok went to sleep.  he could've hear it which was good.  he also didn't feel the pain any longer which was a plus.  hoseok smiled widely as he flew.  he spread his wings and flew like in his dreams.  he flew everywhere, to the clouds, to the parks, he loved the ability to fly to wherever he wanted to.  his legs didn't hurt and his chest wasn't throbbing with pain.  he was finally free. 

yoongi no longer smiled; everyone in the room didn't seem strong like they were a few seconds ago.  jimin yelped and started crying his eyes out, his heart was beating quickly from the fear.  jeongguk started hyperventilating as tears were forming quickly.  the mother sobbed as loudly as she could as she held hoseok's hand.  seokjin rarely cried but he wasn't strong enough to stay dry while experiencing so many heartbreaks at the same time.    namjoon lowered his head in sadness but a tear managed to fall on his pants.  taehyung sobbed on his hands as he hunched his back.  yoongi looked at hoseok's peaceful face, he lost him too soon. 

the room had too much tension, namjoon had to leave the room to get fresh air, seokjin followed after him.  yoongi stayed for a couple minutes more before leaving as well.  he took jimin,  jeongguk, and taehyung with him so they wouldn't have to stare at a lifeless body.  the four left the building and breathed in clean oxygen.  yoongi brushed his hands through his hair and sat down on a bench that was near.  yoongi cleaned his face from tears and just starred out at the sky.  he didn't know what to think or what to do.  realization didn't hit him yet but later when he goes to sleep at night, he will know then.  he lost hoseok.  it'll hit him so hard that he wouldn't be able to get out of bed for the next month or so.  yoongi lost hoseok ten minutes ago, it was normal to not see him for that long if longer.  but a lifetime?... that was different.

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