The moment that man held me.... It felt really great. But suddenly, the image of Dans hugging me was shoved into my mind. I admit I felt more secure in Shin's arms but I was happier in Dans's too. Am I really facing the challenging phase here? I never thought that this time will come where I'll choose between two men at the same time, but one thing I am sure of is that my love for Dans is absolute, but I wonder what Shinra thinks about me and what motive did he has to go through and embrace me.
"Shinra...." I said his name trying to retreat back while having an eye contact with him. Now that I have noticed, whenever I look at his eyes, I get reminded of nature. Suddenly the image of the garden in my dream strikes through my mind..... But his eyes are extraordinarily beautiful, it seemed like It was actually made from the power of nature; it emitted serenity, it emitted pride at the same time. How cam he was, how much I wish I could see those hypnotizing eyes everyday, "I don't think I know those people, but....."
"But?" He let go of me and placed a hand on his waist raising an eyebrow as if trying to ask me for clearer details.... or so I thought.
"I think I met them before...."
"WHAT?" Madelin, the woman who was my friend for months, the woman whom I have knew her well, and since I knew her well, I was sure than no matter one, she will never be able to express something surprise. I thought she was a robot, but look how sheepishly am I thinking about it.
"But doesn't that count as you knowing them?" Asked Yuya who somehow got indulged in our conversation.
"Well, I don't know, but they also said the same thing about them knowing me."
"May I ask when was that?" Asked the nature green-eyed man.
Well, to give a response to that question, I knew I was going to make a certain someone(Yuya) squeal again, and another certain someone(Drulf) act all high and up again, and a third human being (Madelin) to get back into her confusion mood..... It was extremely embarrassing to say it to the point where I should go through myself from the highest cliff on mount Everest right now.... and that is if I was able to climb it in the first place.....
"On a date.....with Dans...."
"Date....?" Asked Shinra who seemed on the verge of falling into a matrix of laughter... I personally didn't know that he did not know all about it. Madelin must have known about it somehow, but kept it hidden while Drulf was cheesy all along. As for Yuya.... poor her.... She was stuck in the corner nosebleeding.... I hope there weren't any wrong thoughts on her mind just now......
"Was he with you at the time you met them?" Asked Madelin.
"No, we parted ways when I was going home."
"Parted ways?" Shin snorted and yes, I think that's the beginning of the laughter race, "What type of gentleman would part ways with his partner without escorting her home safely?"
"Well that's Dans for you!" Exclaimed Drulf who started laughing as well.
"But they looked really creepy...." Frowning I tilted my head down at the ground, "So I brushed the thought away, but I never thought they would go this far to come to the place I am working at...."
"But the question is 'how did they even know the place you're working at?' as they claim to know you." Added Shin.
Madelin sighed as the room's atmosphere started getting heavier and heavier. As no more word was said, we just stood there pondering what will our next move be.
"E-excuse me?" We all looked to the corner to obviously see a Yuya recovering from her daydream-syndrome-attack.
"Yeah?" Asked Drulf while crossing her arms.
"You all might be surprised but...." She maffled.
"But?" Asked Madeling in her 'balancing act' tone.
"Well....."
"Our time." Drulf emphasized.
"Dans was here in the morning."
"WHAT?!" All who were in the room exclaimed in unison. No one have ever thought that Dans will come after all this time.... let alone that early. We all knew how hardworking Yuya is, so she always came early to finish her work so that she would have some free time by the end of the day to sit and chit-chat but Dans?
"He...."
"He?"
"Its......"
"Come on just spit it!" Scolded Drulf.
"He.....won't come here again...."
For some reasons I felt my heart ache badly once I heard this. I did actually want to see him.... and I didn't, moreover, I missed the chance to do so. It hurts..... I subconsciously placed my hand over my chest clutching my clothes tightly..... It felt so hard to breath... it hurts.... "How... Is this....?"
For the first time I have ever felt this pain over someone.... Does he want to avoid me? Or was he just messing with me? Or am I the one who caused all this? Or could it be that he is not feeling well?.... Questions just kept flooding through my mind, it felt like a lump in my throat, I wanted to say alot.... but I just could not....and without even realizing it, I felt a hot stream falling over my face, tears were pouring heavily from my eyes. I was reduced to tears, it felt so...... P-p.....ainful....?
And again, I felt a warm body brushing over mind, I was knocked down with a feather when I saw Shinra embrassing me again.... this time.... I needed it badly. I want Dans so badly right now to comfort me..... A thing of beauty was a joy forever after all. How can I leave without Dans when humans cannot live without a soul? It is almost as if.... I am trying so hard not to die without breathing.
As much as Shin tried to console me, I could not hide the fact that I wished it was Dans instead of him. He placed a hand over my head all of a sudden as he did his usual move on me again. "It is okay now.... Don't forget about us all.... don't forget about me..." At this point I am not surprised anymore since he just did that a while ago..... except for how he made my eardrums tremble after mentioning himself did I mishear something here? Or I did not.....? His breath sent shivers down my spine as all of the heat of body became concentrated here...... on the areas he is touching......