Note: If you skipped Chapter 4, I am here to remind you, this is switch TaeJin and you will see dominant sides to Seokjin too, along with Jin topping Tae if I ever considered writing smut (so far, 80% I am sure I will be writing at least 2) If it makes you feel uncomfortable and it is not your cup of tea, we can see each other on my other books 😊 this one is for switch TaeJin enthusiast so ... yeah, happy reading!

"We're in a beautiful and sad relationship. We make each other shine like the moon and the river and we hug again."

- Psycho, Red Velvet

9. A Preview to Paradise

They get along pretty well. So well, that Taehyung is feeling good about everything. He successfully made Jimin stop sending Seokjin lunch and have the older with him at exactly 12:30 every afternoon until 1:15 to have lunch with him and talk about random things.

Through this "afternoon escapades" – as Taehyung would like to call it when he is having his very own internal monologue – he got to know Seokjin a little deeper. He knew that Jin is allergic to potatoes and garlic, found out his favorite color is blue, and has great fondness for Yeontan their dog. Jin is too fond for the said pet that Taehyung even had the guts to feel jealous at times when the dog gets more attention than him whenever they are at home.

Everything is doing well in his life right now, except when he sees Jungkook throwing death glares at him when he comes visit his hyung, and occasional gifts sent by Jimin to Seokjin in their home. Other than those, he is satisfied with what he has accomplished when it comes to Seokjin. He rarely sees the older sad. The fear in his eyes is still there, but slowly, the sadness is vanishing, and his next goal is for him to rid Jin of that fear. Whatever it is, Taehyung will replace it with love and happiness alone.

Two months and two weeks with Seokjin, he is sure, he is feeling something deep. He always admits to the older how he is attracted with his physique, but more than that, Taehyung is starting to feel more. Every day, he looks forward to seeing him every afternoon and coming home with him, eating dinner, watching a few TV shows when their time permits, and most especially having Jin beside him when he sleeps, and waking up every morning to the sight of the older face peacefully sleeping with Taehyung laying on his chest or his face on Seokjin's neck.

Seokjin is getting gentler with Taehyung too. The shouting became less and is replaced with warm hugs every morning before they leave for work. Taehyung was the one who had the idea that before they leave the bed, they need to hug each other for a minimum of five minutes. Seokjin thought it's ridiculous, but as days passed by, even he looked forward to it. every morning while they are tangled in each other's arms, they will talk about what happened in the office, tell each other what they are planning for the day, and every sort of stories they can share. Most of the times, Taehyung is the one who talks, but after three days, Seokjin started sharing with him too. And now, after a week, that five-minute mark got extended to seven minutes, and Tae is hoping to extend it until ten minutes after this week.

Aside from morning hugs and afternoon escapades, Taehyung also fulfilled his promise of making Seokjin his lunch. He made sure that in those two weeks, Seokjin never ate the same thing while making sure that what he cooks is good and more delicious than what Jimin gave him. He thinks, so far, he is doing a good job because he always sees the lunch box empty along with Jin's cheeky smile when he stuffs the last bite of food on his full mouth.

"Hyung, you awake?" he asked, it's Monday once again and they both need to work. He looked at the clock, 4:00 a.m. he looked at Jin again and saw that he is also awake and has a small smile curved on his face.

"Morning ..." Jin said.

"Good morning to you too," Taehyung scooted closer and put his legs over Seokjin's at the same time hugging him. "Timer starts now, hyung ..."

Jin chuckled. "You don't have to do this every day, darling ..."

Taehyung's eyes widened at the endearment. He straddled Seokjin putting his hands beside the other male's head.

"Did you just call me darling again?"

"Uh, yes?" he answered.

Taehyung's jaw dropped. It's like he got a promotion at work by just simply hearing Seokjin hear him darling again.

"You don't know how much I want to kiss you right now hyung," he said looking directly at Seokjin's lips. "It's like I got promoted to work, fuck. I'm so happy. Please don't stop calling me that, hyung."

Seokjin rolled his eyes, "I won't."

Taehyung leaned his body towards Jin and hugged him tight. "Five more minutes left, and you already made me so happy, Jin-hyung."

Jin hugged him back. It would have been a perfect and soft moment, not until Taehyung felt something hard poking his ass. He went back to sitting position and rocked his ass back and forth to confirm his suspicion.

It was Seokjin's morning wood!

"Stop ..." Seokjin groaned and held Taehyung's hips to contain his movements, but it only made his clothed cock press against Tae's ass more. "Nngh!"

"Stop, Tae. I'm not ready. We are not ready." Seokjin whispered. He nodded. He knows it, and he even though his desires are overflowing, he doesn't want Seokjin to feel used like before and just like Seokjin, he wants them to do it out of love, not just because of their raging hormones.

"Fuck," Taehyung breathed and one of his hand went on top of Jin's and squeezed it. "Sorry, I ... I don't know what I was doing."

Seokjin nodded, "It's okay, I will, uh, I will just take a shower."

"Okay, okay, I will get off of you now." he went back to his side of the bed blushing and Seokjin quickly ran to the shower. Taehyung stood up he can see the tent in his pants. He sighed. He needs to take a very cold shower in the guest room for it to die down.

After showering, he quickly prepared their meal. The blush on his face never left as the scene earlier kept repeating on his head. He has no plans on teasing him earlier, he was just curious! He didn't intend to make Seokjin uncomfortable in any way.

"God, I hope he is not mad at me ..." he prayed.

"Who told you I'd be mad?" Taehyung flinched when he heard Seokjin's voice. He didn't notice that the elder already finished preparing for work.

His blush intensified.

"N-nothing! ... really, i-it's nothing!" he just laughed it off and offered a plate to Seokjin. "Come let's eat."

"If it's about earlier, it's fine. I know you didn't mean to do that, you know, grinding on me ... Just don't do it again. Not yet."

Taehyung pouted. He took a spoonful of his food and ate. "How come you never get angry at me?"

Seokjin chuckled, "Anger is the last emotion I will ever feel, darling. It's not in my veins to be angry. I am capable of feeling it of course, I am human too, but I don't get angry easily. I will be upset, and disappointed, but never angry. Bad decisions are born when we are angry."

"Is that the same reason why you stayed with me after everything I put you through?"

"Partly yes, but also because I love you too much that I don't know anything else except my love for you. I read somewhere that if you could love someone and keep loving them without being loved back ... then that love had to be real. It hurts to be anything else. And that's how I feel with my love for you. I tried to get away from you, I really did more than once, but just imagining being way from you, and you finding someone else hurts more than what you gave me. So, I numbed myself and stayed."

They finished eating, Seokjin's words lingered in his mind. His embarrassing scene earlier long forgotten. He looked at the clock, it's 5 a.m. they still have an hour before they leave. He took that opportunity to put away the dishes and ask Seokjin a question.

"Then, what will you do if I didn't get into an accident? I will still probably be an ass to you and ditch the wedding like what you said I was planning. What will you do then?" he asked.

Seokjin just looked at him.

"Then, that day will be the start of me, moving on from you." He answered truthfully. "Because I will have no regrets, no what ifs, I have given you everything I had. There's nothing you can say that I didn't do for you. By that time, I will finally get enough for real, I will be tired after six years of torment, and finally, finally I can be happy."

"Are you not happy now?"

Seokjin held his hand, "I don't know. I am happy, but I am afraid at the same time. What if tomorrow you will wake up, remember everything, and play with my feelings once more? or what if your memories came back, and realize you are doing a great mistake and slap to my face again that it will always be Yoongi? Everyday, I am torn. I want to enjoy these soft and sweet moments with you, but every time I am letting myself go even for just a minute, those thoughts come rushing back and I have no other choice but to protect myself. Because if this time, you hurt me again, I don't think I can make it, my heart will explode."

Taehyung squeezed his hand. "No, I won't hurt you this time, I promise."

"Do that." Seokjin replied, "... show me that I can trust you, and you won't leave me. That this time, maybe ... maybe you can come to love me because that's all I ever wanted, Tae. I just wanted you to love me like how I love you."

Seokjin should have been the one to cry, but looking at them now, it's the opposite. Taehyung is crying like a kid. His tears wetting the marble table in between him and Jin. He kept muttering I promise to Seokjin and kissing his hand repeatedly.

He is thinking what he had done to deserve a love like this. All Seokjin wants is to be loved in return, how cruel was he to deny him of that? And now this version of himself is seeing what he had done to this precious human in front of him, the urge to never remember anything at all only gets stronger.

"I'm getting there, hyung. I know I am. Just wait for me, please?"

Seokjin shook his head.

"As much as I dread the day you will remember everything, I also look forward to it. because when that day comes, I will know whether what you are confessing now will still be the same that very day."

Taehyung reached for Seokjin's nape and planted his lips on his forehead.

"I will make sure it is, hyung."

A small smile formed on Seokjin's lips.

"Then I will look forward to that day. I hope you won't disappoint me, Tae."

Taehyung placed another kiss on his forehead and nodded. He will make sure what he feels stays the same that day. He is so close to loving Seokjin, and his past memories won't hinder him from admitting to the older what he feels when the time is finally right for them.

==

"See you later, hyung."

He waved goodbye to Seokjin. the older is doing the same as he took a step towards his office building, a smile now etched on his face. After their heart-to-heart talk over the dining table, it seemed like another wall has been taken down between him and Jin.

He likes it.

As he drove, he recalled what happened while he was driving with Jin earlier. As per usual, they are quiet. The only sound they can hear is the radio playing, but then when the light turned red, he felt a hand enveloping his. He automatically smiled remembering Seokjin's shy face and red ears and just like this morning, he kissed those hands until he needed to drive again, but this time, it's not just silence that can be noted inside the car, but also their shy smiles painted across their faces.

"Good morning, Sir." Seoyeon greeted him as soon as he entered his office. The other male noted Taehyung's light mood and he can't help but to speak about it. "I see you had a great morning indeed, Sir Taehyung."

Taehyung wiggled his brows, "Oh I did. So, what's my schedule? Any important meetings to attend to, or just usual office works?"

Seoyeon rechecked his tablet to see his boss' schedule.

"Today, you have no meetings, just a few papers to sign and you are free the whole day. On the other hand, we will have a team building in Jeju Island in a week."

That caught Taehyung's attention. "Team building?"

"Yes sir, we are all required to go."

He groaned. He doesn't want to go if Seokjin is not there. He raised his brow and looked directly at Seoyeon.

"Can I bring a plus one?"

Seoyeon shrugged. "If you want to, you may."

He broke out to a smile. "Okay, I will go!"

Seoyeon smiled with him and they started to work. Everything is going smoothly Taehyung got the hang of it and he is not as antsy as the first two days. He has Seoyeon to thank for that.

"So, Sir, today is payday. Do you want to go out with the team?" Seoyeon asked. It's already 10 a.m. just two and a half hours before he sees Jin again.

"Hmm, do I always do that?"

"Yes, you always do that, Sir. You will treat everyone to a bar and get drunk the whole night, especially when it's the weekends and you don't have work the morning after."

He winced. This must be one of those nights where Seokjin said he isn't coming home to him.

"Sorry, Seoyeon-ssi. I won't come today."

"Why, Sir you are busy?" He asked while getting the papers on Taehyung's table that have already been signed.

"No, but I am making it up to my fiancé."

Seoyeon just hummed. "I see."

"Seoyeon-ssi, can I ask you a question?"

"Of course, Sir. But in exchange I will ask you one too." He said and sat on the chair in front of Taehyung's table.

"You may." Taehyung nodded. Seoyeon hummed in approval and gestured Taehyung to continue. "Did I ever bring my fiancé here? And how are we as a couple, can you tell me?"

Seoyeon is obviously taken aback. Taehyung assumed that it was because how out of the blue his question was.

"Uhm, Sir ..." Seoyeon sighed. "Uhm, you didn't."

Taehyung threw his back against his chair and groaned. "Can I ask you why? Do you know the reason?"

"Yes, but I think it's better for you to remember them on your own."

"Fuck, I was really that horrible, huh?" he hissed.

Seoyeon, just like on his first day, held his hand. Taehyung pulled it away quickly.

"You are not, Sir. You are the best."

He scoffed.

"The best? I am not the best. I treated my fiancé badly. I am literally the biggest asshole on earth."

Seoyeon looked appalled. He almost slammed the table if he didn't control himself. "But you didn't love him, that's what you said!"

"Before. That was before, but now, I think ... I think I am starting to." He closed his eyes while saying those word. "He is just so easy to love and I was too blinded before to see his good sides."

"But you loved someone else ..." he muttered. Taehyung caught it and smiled.

"Seoyeon-ssi, I did love someone else, but now, Seokjin has my heart. I don't that will change in an instant."

Seoyeon just sighed and nodded his head in defeat.

"I am sorry to bother you, Seoyeon-ssi."

"It's okay, Sir. I don't mind. You can bother me anytime." He flashed Taehyung a sweet smile.

Taehyung returned the gesture and took notice of Seoyeon's things.

"You do love the Moon, huh?" he said and pointed at his tablet, ballpen, and necklace that somehow looked oddly familiar to Taehyung. "Was it because of your last name?"

Seoyeon looked at his things and touched his necklace. His eyes were nostalgic as he looked at Taehyung.

"Yes, it's because of that. And also, someone special gave this all to me?"

Taehyung gave him a teasing look oblivious of the implication behind those words.

"Oooh, your boyfriend?"

"You can say that." He said before standing up. "I will take my leave now, Sir. Do you need anything else?"

"Nothing more, Seoyeon-ssi."

"Will you go out for lunch again?" Seoyeon asked.

With that, Taehyung displayed his famous boxy smile that even Seoyeon can't help but to be affected and smile back.

"This time, no."

Seoyeon smiled wider. "Does that mean you are eating here with me today?"

Taehyung chuckled, "Well, I was thinking that me and my fiancé can use this room for today and we will eat lunch here. But you are free to join if you like. I'm sure Jin-hyung won't mind."

Seoyeon said okay and left. Once Taehyung was alone in his office he called Seokjin and for a while and told him he missed him. the older chuckled and dropped the call.

==

"Moon Seyeon-ssi, this is my fiancé, Kim Seokjin." Taehyung said as he introduced Jin to his secretary.

Seokjin smiled at him and offered his hand, "Hi, I am Kim Seokjin. Nice to meet you, Moon Seoyeon-ssi."

"Hello, Seokjin-ssi, you can just call me Seoyeon."

They shook hands, "Then you can just call me Jin."

"You and the boss are having lunch?" Seoyeon asked.

"Yes, do you want to join us?"

Seoyeon just shook his head. "No, thank you. Maybe next time."

"Well, if that is the case, hyung let us go inside. I am starving!" Taehyung said and grabbed Seokjin's waist and they went inside Taehyung's office.

They ate their lunch quickly without talking much. They are both famished since their last meal was last five a.m., and they haven't had anything since then. Taehyung observed as Jin ate happily. He is not talking, but his eyes tell a lot. Every time he is with Jin, he notices that food makes him the happiest. Whenever they are eating, he would always look at food like how one would look when they see the love of their life.

"You eat so happily." He unconsciously said.

"And? Don't tell me you are already in love with just the sight of me eating?"

Taehyung knows it's a joke, but the statement is true though. Most of the times they spent together, they spent it while eating or in bed, sleeping.

"And if I am?"

Seokjin grabbed a tissue and wiped his lips. He is done eating, so is Taehyung. he grabbed the trash leaving Taehyung's question behind. Taehyung thought that he will never be answered they already brushed their teeth. He already let go of the question on his mind, but something unexpected came when Seokjin went back and sat ON his lap.

"If you are, then good. You will be promoted from being just having a pet name to being my boyfriend."

Taehyung raised a brow, "Aren't I your boyfriend?"

"In the eyes of many, yes, but to me, no." he answered with a sly smile on his face. "So? Are you in love with me now?"

Taehyung groaned, "I told you, I am getting there."

Seokjin hummed. "How far are you already?"

"Eighty percent. I just need to make sure this isn't fleeting. Just want to make sure I won't hurt you anymore."

Seokjin cupped his face. "Do that, please. Do that. Don't hurt me anymore, because if you do, I will leave you without a word or an explanation."

Taehyung held on Seokjin tightly. He won't ever let that happen. he would suffocate if Seokjin will leave him. especially right now that he is certain that he is feeling something so close to love for him. Taehyung won't let Jin go. The last time he felt love was with Yoongi, and then now, it's Seokjin.

"I won't." he said and met Jin's eyes.

The more he stared at it, the deeper he falls. In those eyes, he can see hope blooming. With that knowledge, something warm spread throughout Taehyung's chest. A hand went up to caress Seokjin's cheeks.

"I badly want to kiss you right now, hyung."

Seokjin held on Taehyung's hand that is caressing his face. "Really?"

"Yeah, have been dreaming about how your lips would taste when I kiss them."

"Mhm, tell me more ..."

With Seokjin's encouragement, he used his thumb to touch the luscious lower lip. "I bet they would be so soft, so sweet when I suck it. I will kiss these lips until they are swollen. I will kiss you like how you deserved to be kissed. Ravish those lips and make you feel how much I like you, how special you are until I erase all your doubts away."

As Taehyung speak, the room quickly got hotter, and all they can see is themselves. Taehyung was even surprised when he noticed that Jin is just centimeters away from him, his lips parted and hot breath fanning his face. He is ready to angle his head and meet their lips together when Seokjin pulled away.

"As sweet as your words are, I believe it will be better if you will get to do all those things to me when I am fully convinced that you really do love me ..."

Taehyung nodded and looked at Seokjin lovingly, "I will wait. No matter how long it takes."

He audibly heard Seokjin's breathing hitched.

"But I also think that a small preview would not hurt."

Taehyung gasped when he felt the plush lips against his. He moaned and parted his mouth when he felt Seokjin's tongue licking his lips. Quickly, he grabbed Seokjin's nape before he can pull away and dominated the kiss they shared.

"Tae ..." Seokjin called. His arms swung around Taehyung's nape pulling him closer.

"Hyung, please, not yet. Just a little more." Taehyung begged in between kissed. Seokjin moaned and they continued. Taehyung had French kissed a lot of people in his life since he was seventeen, but all of them can never compare to this, not even Yoongi. He released a loud moan when Seokjin sucked his tongue that sent mixed pleasure and lust all over his body. He is ready to do the same to Seokjin who is offering his own tongue to him when he heard someone gasped.

"Oh! I am sorry! I ... oh my god!" Seoyeon quickly went out of the room.

They are still panting and both embarrassed at what had happened, but despite all that Taehyung is happy.

"That is just a preview, what more when I finally convinced you?"

Seokjin smirked and stood up. "You choose, fuck me against that table or me fucking you on this very couch? The option is endless, darling." He even winked.

"HYUNG! Don't tease me like that!"

Seokjin laughed.

"If you say those three words just because of that, I am telling you, you won't get a piece of this dick, nor this ass if you have the wrong motivation."

Note 2: Thoughts about:

Tae?

Jin?

Seoyeon?

Maximum chapters of this book: 30 😊