Chapter 36

Breatheland

June is their month of bad recorder.

In June he saw her;

In June she put him behind bars.

In June he married her;

In June she cursed him.

In June he had hope;

In June she went away.

In June he thought was all lost;

In June she looked at him.

With words unsaid with the pain gripping his heart the time passed. The dish was ready and both Carla and Mert were waiting for it.

"Carla, is it safe for mum to eat solid food like this?!"

"I was distracted by the croissant in the morning and I forgot that she shouldn't eat solid food but she is far stronger than I thought. So she can eat small portions."

"I feared that too but she is stronger than anyone else I have met." Mert said as served Carla the plate. Sinbad was in the washroom during this time, when he came to see them eating and her tray was there.

Is Oriental tradition not disturbing those that are already eating, reluctantly he took the tray and went toward her room.

Reluctantly I said cause he didn't want to face her yearning love for another man.

She wasn't sleeping all the time. On the contrary she was on foot before the window looking at the tormentor sky, dreaming about her childhood that was a happy one.

"Sibel what are you doing standing on your feet, you are not yet recovered. Please sit down."

"I did always what my head said never wanted to know about other, as long as I was happy, till.." she went silent as they eyes met each other.

She couldn't keep the contest of their eyes as a sharp pain reminds her that isn't a kryptonian, contrary to a human from earth. Thankfully he had left the tray over the table and was closer to catch her before falling.

"Till I come right. I changed your life for the worse. If you think that I will force you again or do a bad thing toward him, rest seren Sibel. You can be together and I will pray for your happiness." He said even when the last word worked like a cold knife inside his heart.

"I want to eat that delicious dish that has Been teasing my senses since you both prepared." She deverted the conversation. He nodded and took the tray and put it before her. She couldn't eat even after trying several times. Her arms were hurting more now than in the morning.

"I got it kitten, let me help you or all the food will end up on the blanket."

"No, I can do this."

"Let me kitten." This new nickname caused a bubble of happiness inside her and looking at him with a smile plant on her face obediently she opened her mouth to grab each morsel he shoved in her mouth.

"Hmmm! This looks so like what Peri used to do for me. Ohh wait this is her recipe."

" Yeah hers, she has been a real help all this year. Although I never went anyway without Mert he is and always will be my best friend. This recipe is just for you two that...

" Don't eat pepper and Oregon like you do." She added and he nodded.

"All my contrary but I eat without them now."

"Ohh now I get why you couldn't eat my omelet at the start, cause it was without those ingredients and in the end, I filled with them." She said as consult her memories and cheerfully eating from his hand without the slices of the idea of the pain he was going inside. How easy it was for her to go and come from that darkness. Instead he went there and stuck though, covered well with his smiley face.

"Can you do me a favor?"

"Anything you want love."

" I want more from this dish, I haven't eaten in years even though it will be against rules. Already the doctor scolds Carla for letting me eat croissants but what do I do. I want more." Her pleading face was so adorable and he couldn't resist without pecking her chubby cheeks.

He consults Carla and return with one more plate.

"I hope you don't mind if I eat here with you." He doubtfully said, waiting for her response.

"As long as you feed me first you are welcomed." She said nonchalantly.

He flashed a genuine smile that worked like a tinkle on her stomach. She smiled back.

As he feeds her didn't forget to eat too. Sinbad hadn't idea how starve he was till he taste the first spoon.

Sibel couldn't eat all the other plates so he decided to eat both. Her heart melted watching him eating like a hungry child remembering so much Mert.

She knew that something was happening with her heart, something that was frightening but at the same time relaxing.

He drank water in one gulp but droplets of it drool from his lips he was about to erase with the back palm of his hand when her hand approached holding a napkin.

"You are just like Mert." He frost didn't move a single muscle as she cleans his face. Her cheeks get flushed from all that hot glare he was giving. Sheepishly she downcast her eyelashes and flashes a smile that increases his heart beat.

"Ask whatever you want for me now, for making this delicious dinner." She said, staring at his dark eyes creating another eye contest that this time want to win. He came close to her, letting only the tray separating them, put his head over her. Her face got inflamed by his hot breath but didn't remove her eyes from his.

"Breath, Sibel! Just breathe as long as you do this you have rewarded me, love."

Where was his head he put his ardient lips electrifying her all being.

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In the next few days this was their routine. Sinbad came as soon as Andrea left. She was recovering faster than the doctor predicted. Sinbad couldn't avoid the sadness that took hold of his soul knowing well that needs to go away from her sooner.

Carla wasn't necessary to stay as before, likewise even the equipment of the hospital went with her.

Sibel was still in shock on how commod she feels around him when just some hours before the accident she was disgusted only by the thought of kissing him.

How silly look those dreams now.

Saturday, two weeks passed over giving the end of June and the Start of July.

For all those that don't know July came from the Emperor of Rome Giulio the One that was brutally murder on the steps of senate and betrayed by his best friends, Brutti and Casi. You may find the name of the treader in the book of Divine Comedy by Dante Alighieri.

Heavy rain came from dark clouds that were crowded over the capital city of Italy. A storm like this was predicted to hit next week but Mediterranean weather is like pizza capricciosa, never stable.

Mert was staring from the closed window the pitter patter that hit without mercy the glass as the sky got illuminated by multiple lightning. He remembers all those rainy days back at the farm, when he wanted his mom to hug him in that state. Never went to his father to get comfort as per not hurting him anymore that he was, instead he stood there crying with rain till fall asleep not even getting scared by lightning and their screams.

Now, he draws his tears when he gets to soft arms circling his waist, her scent makes his tears fall more. She comes in front of him cupping his cheeks.

"I am sorry for all the raining time you couldn't come to me my boy." She said letting her tears fall as draw away his tears, catching Mert by surprise. Was she a mind reader?

"A mother always knows what is in her baby mind and heart." Sibel added to clear his assumption.

"I would love to be raised by you mom. I have missed you although he did everything to not feel your absence but he can't be a mother. He can't have your smell. " Mert said as bow his face to take her unique fragrance that always calmed him.

"Believe me I would have wanted the same but my cruel destiny was written different. But your dad has made a remarkable job raising you with a golden heart and a beautiful soul. I will make sure we recover our lost time so that thanks to him aren't too much."

He raised his head to clean his mother's tears and placed her head on his chest and with the rhythm of pitter patter they danced. Sinbad has just finished controlling the food that was cooling down, when enter in her room and his heart felt the pain of years. He would love to see her holding their boy as they danced through the house. And his eyes became blurred as he leaned to the wall behind. He has two personalities one for outside this door the cold the ruthless one and the other for his family.

From the reflection on the window she saw his desperation and her heart beat fast as per going to him and comforting him.

"Call your dad to join us, he deserves this moment too."

Mert didn't need to be told twice.

"Dad come here" Mert stretched his hand as Sinbad hurried to catch up. He put his two loves inside his chest just like Colosseum protects inside the told and untold stories of centuries ago.

All his enemies and friends know that his only weakness and strength is his boy Mert but have no idea that there's someone else who can put him on his knees and that is her.

The One and only Love of his Life.

The One that with just a look can give him hope or send him to hell.

The One that doesn't need to do much to have him on her knees.

"Just breathe Sibel"

Mert left their side as soon as his phone rang. He supposes that she may not want to stay with him so prepared himself to be left alone but she encircles his torso with her tiny hands surprising him. She put her Head over his chest.

Sinbad was left only to put his head over hers encircling her shoulder as left his breath meet hers.

Outside rain stopped and as music was working their rhythmic breath that spoke more than Words.

His breath said "I love you!"

Her breath said "I don't know what this new feeling is towards you."

Andrea is there in her breath too as she thought that the old flame was still alive. Whenever Andrea tried to put Sinbad responsible for their separation, she was there not allowing all fault fall over him cause she knew well his pain every month.

"He separated us, amore. We could have had our kids by now."

"Leave the past, stay in the past, let's see in front of us. We are together now, let's enjoy this Andrea."

What would Andrea think of seeing them like this, living in their breath, dancing on the tunes of their heartbeat💓.

For sure would be a battlefield from worsted vocabulary to the physic confrontation.

We can easily imagine who will win the Battle?! 😉

"Mum!Dad! I am starving!" Mert's voice brought them from their breathland.

"We are coming" came Sibel's voice as separate from his arms all blushed things that didn't go without being noticed by him.

"Dad, definitely you need to open a restaurant back at home. You cook better than mum. Sorry mum!". Mert said as was taking the last bite of

"No heartfelt, my boy , you are telling the truth. Your dad is better than star chef around Rome." She praised him, not removing her eyes from him. Thankfully he had finished his dinner or he will be choked by her piercing glare.

"Mert if you are done praising my food, help me too with cleaning. I need to go before the rain starts again."

"Dad, stay." Mert requested but he gave him a look and the boy nodded knowing it wasn't his decision.

" Stay Sinbad, rain hasn't stopped entirely yet and I may need you here if the lights go off due to the storm. Is an old building after all."

"In this case, I stay." He accepted, smiling at her. Mert frowned, raising his left eyebrow.

"Mum request - Done! Mert request - hmm let me think, No" complain Mert as was putting plate on the dishwasher.

"Mert!" His father raised his voice.

"Am I wrong mum?" He went to his mother's side taking defense from her. Sibel hugged him but her redemption hit again as wasn't there for him. Holding herself together she went away to cry alone her destiny.

"Mert!" Sinbad's voice was gentle as he saw tears on her face, tears she didn't want her son to see. To avoid Mert going after her, messes with his hair.

"Dad stop, I am not five!" Mert squirreled.

"For me you, always gonna be just five minutes older, that was the time I needed to see you."

"I know dad, you have all right to mess with my hair anytime just not before my friends." He hugged his dad.

"When I want my little cub" Sinbad messed with his hair then kissed his head.

"Dad, you think mum can give you a chance?!"

"Is in her hands Mert, please don't force her, don't do emotional blackmail. I don't want her to choose me for you."

"But dad..."

"There is no 'But', Mert. I Love her and I never wish for you to be in my shoes,ever. This is my Punishment. I had her in my arms and I forced her to go far away from me, from you, from us. I did unspeakable things to her, sins, my boy and now I need to see her getting away from me, in another man's arms. Is hard but I deserve it.

I will go tomorrow as Hakan needs me there. You stay here as always, become friends with Andrea for her sake. I hope you visit me One day." Sinbad finished hugging his boy as he knows well that this moment may never repeat.

" Dad, you are the only Oriental man that cares so much for this son. I have seen Hakan uncle always ordering Gökhan and Bulut only for his little gem he is on his knees. Same is grandpa towards İsmail and Adem uncle. Barely saying 'Hi'. They are not so close to their son's either. See only you take care and love me like this."

"Well I got improved by the pain İ caused. I learned from my mistakes. How I could treat you differently if not showering all the love I had for your mom and the one that borned when I held you in my arms for the first time. You are my salvation, my friend, my confessor, my buddy. Now let's clean this mess." Sinbad as always a master of tone ends his words with a smile inviting him to clean the kitchen.

Their conversation didn't go on air just like that but passed through her ears. She hadn't gone when she left them alone. Stood behind. Being witness to their relationship and to his pain.

Her heart beat fast and tears fell down. She can't understand her heart lately.

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