Alex's POV

John left in late September and we haven't gotten a single letter or anything. I'm really worried about him. It's now winter break. I was originally gonna spend it at the dorms with John and Aspen. Now Aspen and I are spending it with Angelica, Eliza, Peggy, and their father.

Today is Christmas eve, it is also my first snow. I wish John was here to experience it with me. I can't help but feel sad, I was really looking forward to spending Christmas with John but you know.

Currently we are eating cookies with hot chocolate in front of the fire place. I don't smile at all. Everyone is spending Christmas with the Schuylars. Except Thomas, he's with his sister and James.

I just sit there staring at my mug of cocoa. It seems Aspen has noticed because she moves from her spot next to Eliza and sits next to me.

"Hey, Alex," she says. "You don't have to hold it in anymore, you don't have to be the tough guy, we know your hurting."

I lean against her and cry into her shoulder. "We're always here, Alex." Says Peggy sitting next to me and hugging me.

The whole group comes over and we all sit there leaning against each other, my crying calms down and I eventually fall asleep.

The next morning

I wake up to Peggy and Aspen jumping on me.

"Wake up lazy!" Yells Peggy.

"It's Christmas!" Shouts Aspen.

We run sown the stairs and open presents. I got a green sweat shirt from Peggy and loads of other things.

Then Mr. Schuylar comes in, "Alexander, there is a here addressed to you."

"A letter, ok." I walk up to him and take the letter.

I go and sit back on the floor. I open the letter and begin reading it.

Dearest, Alexander

I cannot tell you how much I miss you. These past three months I've spent taking my classes online and moving from hotel to hotel. How's Aspen? I no you can't write me back and I can't tell you where I am, but I can tell you that I am ok. I miss all of you so much and I can't describe how much I want to come home. But we both know as long as my father is after me I can't come home. I've never called anywhere home. At least not after my mother died. But whenever I'm with you I'm at home, don't worry about me. I just want you safe. Don't tell anyone other then the group about this letter. If my father finds out about it he could hurt you, and I couldn't live with myself if you, Aspen, or any of our friends got hurt. I miss you so much. I know I've already said that a lot. Please never forget that I love you, we will be together again soon. Tell Aspen that I'm ok. I love you, Alexander.

Love,
John Laurens

I'm in tears again. He's Ok! Aspen, who was reading over my shoulder is crying and the sisters and Herc and Laf just look confused.

"He's ok," Aspen says.

"Who is?" Asks Laf.

"John," I say smiling a little through the tears and reading the letter over again.
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FLUFFY CHAPTER!!! I love y'all.
-your favorite weirdo🌺💚