I sat on our usual table, my eyes still puffy and red, and my breath still sounding like an exhausted horse.

"What happened, honey?" Ms. Amelia asked with a worried face. She sat in front of me and offered me a cup. "Here's a cup of hot chocolate," she said. "My treat for you. Now, honey, tell me what happened." She placed her hand over mine. Her hand made me calm down a little bit.

I didn't know if it was right to tell her. I didn't want to her to carry any of my burdens. She would cry with me, and I didn't want to see her cry.

But I looked at her eyes. I could see worry and crave for information. If I won't tell her, she'll try to think of what happened to me and in that way, it's like she's carrying my burden too. Trying to figure out things that she really had no idea about.

I sighed. "There's just this guy, Kevin, that had been my friend," I started. "We became friends." I said, but then I shook my head. "Actually, I thought that he really was my friend, but he wasn't." I said between sniffs.

"And then we met this evening, and he told me everything. I found out that everything that had happened to me these past few months had all been a lie." I told her.

I paused. I remembered my song. The song that I thought really was worth getting signed. "And then there was this song that I wrote at our music class, and maybe it wasn't really that great because me getting an A and getting signed was only a plan by someone. Someone who probably hated me with all his or her guts." I said with bitter taste in my mouth.

Even when I was still in the car, I tried to think of who that 'someone' could possibly be, and only one devil came to my mind.

"I think, that maybe that someone is Aubrey Hart, Ed's crush. She's the only person I could think of that would to this to me. She's mean and she had always hated me. She had made me miserable a couple of times already. She rubs to my face that she has Ed and I don't, and she ripped my ice cream." I told her.

She looked at me confusingly. "Ripped your ice cream?" She asked, and I realized that it wasn't really an ice cream and how foolish I sounded.

"Sorry. It was my project. Shaped like an ice cream." I explained to her, though I still sounded like a crying squirrel.

She nodded. "Proceed with your story, honey." She said. I nodded.

"Then there's prom." I continued. "Before, I never really wanted to go. I hated it. Then Kevin asked me to go with him and I said yes. I actually got excited in going, but then I found out that it was also part of their plan. Right when I really wanted to go, it was a lie. Now, they gave me another reason to hate prom. I don't think I can even wear the dress mom prepared for me." I said.

Ms. Amelia just looked at me, not interrupting me. I was thankful for that. I just needed to tell someone about everything without them getting annoyed. I planned to tell Ed, but I trusted Ms. Amelia too. I'll just have to tell Ed when he finally arrives.

"It would've been better if it was only Kevin, my song, and prom that had been a lie." I said. "But no. Even my mom lied to me." I couldn't take it anymore, so I bursted tears.

She gripped my hand tighter. "Sometimes, mothers need to lie for the sake of their children." She said.

I nodded in agreement. Mom probably had a good reason, but I couldn't think of any. I once asked her about my father but she never told me that it was actually my teacher. It just seemed impossible.

Who would've ever thought that my father was my teacher?

Then I paused. I realized something. She didn't ask what my mother lied about. "Wait, you knew?" I asked her. She didn't answer, which in the case, is an answer. I shook my head in disbelief. "Did you know them?"

She nodded. "They were good people, Sidney. They only did what was best."

I was about to ask her how she knew about it, but Ed entered the diner with a smile plastered on his face.

"I'll leave you two to talk." Ms. Amelia told me. I nodded.

I looked away from Ed and wiped all the tears on my face. I also tried to calm down myself so he wouldn't notice that I cried.

I took out my phone and looked at myself in the reflection on the screen to see if my eyes were still red from crying. It wasn't.

He walked towards our usual table and sat in front of me. There was this weird smile on his face which I had never seen. I couldn't tell if it was real or fake.

"Hey, Sidney." He greeted. My body tensed with the sound of his voice.

I smiled at him like I really was happy, which I wasn't. "Hey, Ed." I greeted back while looking directly at him, because if I look away, he might notice.

But I couldn't help but stare at his ocean blue eyes again. They just capture me every single time. Every time I look at it it's like I see a universe inside them. An unknown universe that I would like to see.

His smile was as wide as the ocean. His teeth were like the reflection of the sun that is such beauty to the universe. His smile made me feel like I am a part of the sea, and that I can be what I want to be even in peace or in storm.

His whole face reminded me of the sea. The kind of sea that would never get me sea sick. Like his voice is the wind and it just soothes me in every way. Like how amazing the clear water be dark blue in the ocean.

"What are you looking at?" He asked, scrunching his eyebrows. Those eyebrows that makes my heart melt like ice.

I shook my head. "Nothing," I lied.

He smirked. "You weren't captured by my godly handsomeness, were you?" He said wiggling his eyebrows.

I rolled my eyes and laughed. "In your dreams. Never in a million years." I lied again.

He laughed at my response and we both laughed even though minutes ago I was crying.

My heart ached at his laugh. My heart ache because I loved hearing it. My heart ached because I couldn't tell him that I loved hearing it.

Why won't I just tell him now? Because he'll probably leave you when you tell him you love him, my subconcious said.

"Listen, I have something important to tell you." I told him. I didn't know if that important thing is about Kevin, or about my feelings for him.

"Really?" He asked. "Me too! You'll probably be happy for me. But you go first."

I shook my head. "No. You go first. Mine can wait," I said, though I really couldn't stop tapping my feet with my nervousness. I decided to tell him about Kevin, AND, tell him about my feelings for him. This time, I'm sure.

He shrugged. "Okay. If you insist." He smiled at me. "Sidney, Aubrey's finally my girlfriend."

I didn't know that four words could make a person's world shatter. I didn't know that four words could be so powerful like a superhero to make you break inside. I didn't know that hearing those four words could make me temporarily dead. 'Aubrey's finally my girlfriend'

"Really?" I asked with a shaky voice. "That's great!" I said.

I hid my hands under the table because they were shaking and sweating. I could hide my hands, but I couldn't hide the pain inside my heart.

Ed looked at me with a worried face. "Are you okay, Sidney? What's wrong?" He asked.

He noticed.

It was already my third attempt telling him that I liked him. One was when he was wearing his earphones so he didn't hear me. Then there was when he was sleeping on my bed so again he didn't hear me. And now, I was about to tell him, but he already had a girlfriend.

I shook my head. "Nothing. By the way, I have to go. Let's just talk some other time." I said and stood up. "Congratulations! I know you'll be happy with her."

I left

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It's very short, I know. Want to know why? Because the next chapter is Ed's POV. *screams*

Stay tuned!

Sorry for the very late update. I had been busy for finals, but today is my last day of school so it means more updates!!

PS. Don't hate me for this chapter. And the next one. And the next one.

Z.