"Wake up." Someone with a deep voice was poking my biceps. I mean my arms. "Wake up, Sidney."

I groaned. "Why?" I mumbled. I could taste and feel the saliva on my cheeks.

"It's almost 8 o'clock. We're gonna be late." That's when I realize it was Ed (Of course it's Ed. What guy besides Ed would wake me up in the morning?).

My eyes popped open and I sat up. My head was in pain and my body was trying to get me back to bed. I was so sleepy, my eyes could close and fall back to sleep any second.

I yawned. "I'm sorry. I think I forgot to set my alarm clock last night." I apologized. I must've fell asleep and forgot to set it, all because I was smiling the whole night.

He sat beside me. "It's okay. Just, hurry." He sighed. "I'm not in the mood for school today anyway." He said.

I could tell that my eyes were like the ones Chinese people have, but I still managed to look at Ed and give him a wide-eyed expression. "That's the first. What wrong?" I asked.

It seemed weird for Ed not to get excited for school. It's like school is his type of heaven, and mine is food and sleep. Which is another reason to wonder why we're best friends. School is like the place where you're not allowed to eat and to sleep.

He shrugged and yawned as well. "I don't know. It feels weird for me too. I usually get excited waking up in the morning. Now, I just want to lay in bed all day long." He said. He turned to look at me. "You must've infected me with Sidney Virus." He joked.

I would've bursted out laughing, but I was still damn sleepy that all I managed to give him was a faint laugh.

I looked at his face. "How's your bruise?" I asked.

I touched his cheek. He didn't twitch. "Getting better. Thanks." He said and I just smiled.

He pulled out a handkerchief from his pocket and leaned forward to wipe my cheek. I blushed for a second, but then I realized it was my saliva that he was wiping. Which was embarassing.

I pushed his hand away. "Stop. You don't want my saliva all over your handkerchief, don't you?" I asked but all he did was chuckle. "I'll go and take a bath." I excused myself.

When I finished washing myself, I yelled for Ed to get out of my room. When I heard the door close, I walked out of the bathroom and changed. When I was done, I allowed Ed to come back in.

"What time is it?" I asked him while drying my hair.

He checked his watch. "It's seven forty-seven." He said.

"I still hadn't eaten breakfast." I reminded him. "I'll just buy at school so we don't get late." I said.

"No." He said. "Have breakfast. I sort of missed going to school late anyway." I looked back at him and I saw him grinning. I smiled at him.

I liked talking to Ed during mornings. Where he's just relaxed and being himself. He's not tired for school, from walking, from driving, and running away from his fan girls. It's nice talking to him when he's warm and just relaxed. No problems to talk about.

I turned back to my mirror and continued drying my hair. "If you're bruise still hurts, just tell me so I could add some extra medicine." I said.

"Okay." He said, faintly. He yawned. "Sidney, why do you care for me so much?"

"Because I love you more than a best friend."

My eyes went wide open when I realized what I said.

My body went numb. My hands stopped what it was doing. My mouth was shivering. My whole body became mute.

I just said to Ed that I love him. I confessed to him without meaning to. I didn't have the slightest idea why I said that to him. I didn't have the slightest idea why I blurted it out. It was like, it just came out of my mouth without my mind processing what to do next.

I was so scared to look at him. My body couldn't bare to look at him straight in the face. I could picture him laughing at me. Or even facing me like what I said was a joke. I was afraid he would make fun of me. I was afraid he won't talk to me anymore and be with Aubrey all the time instead.

I was so worried of the questions he'll ask:
"Are you joking?"
"As a best friend or as a lover?"
"Since when did you love me?"

I was also worried of the things he'll say:
"Maybe you're rationalizing."
"Maybe you just need some sleep."
"I don't love you the way you love me."

I was so afraid that I could almost cry in any minute. Before I got an unconscious breakdown, I decided to check and turned to look at him. To face him.

But all those worries were for nothing, because when I turned back, he was asleep on my bed.

A wash of relief flooded over me. Like a stone was stuck on my heart, but I managed to get it out.

I unintentionally confessed to Ed what I felt towards him, but he was asleep. He didn't hear me. He didn't hear my stupid feelings.

But it wasn't the first time. When we were making a song, I confessed to him, but he was on his earphones and didn't hear me. Now, when I unintentionally blurted out that I love him, he was asleep on my bed and didn't have the slightest idea what I just said to him.

Maybe the two were signs that it's best if I keep what I feel towards him just to myself. That maybe it's better that way. That maybe my feelings should be kept forever. That maybe we were never really meant to be more than just best friends.

I decided to leave him there sleeping and eat some breakfast downstairs. I needed a few minutes to be alone.

When I went down, I thanked God that mom wasn't there. I didn't want her to see my face so grim and ask questions because I just wasn't in the mood for that. I didn't want her to give me one of those motherly lectures we always see on TV.

Breakfast was all prepared on the table. Bacon, eggs, and a cup of hot chocolate. Exactly just what I needed.

I sat down and ate some bacon. I checked my phone for any messages, there was none. It was odd because when I usually wake up, I always receive a good morning text from Kevin. Maybe he got mad at me because I ended the call last night before he could even say more.

But actually, I didn't care.

About a minute later, I heard my room door open upstairs. I'm guessing that it was Ed (unless there was a serial killer inside my room).

Just then, Ed entered the Kitchen, his hair all messy. I had to stop myself from gazing at him before I got too obvious (But trust me, he could make the 'messy-hair look' trend worldwide in a minute).

"Oh, hey. You want breakfast?" I asked, offering the half piece of bacon on my plate. Yeah, I know. Real stupid.

This is what happens when you confess to the person you love but he didn't hear you, then you decide to have breakfast. You end up offering him a half peice of bacon.

Even the God of Bacon would be disappointed to me. If there really was a God of Bacon (In my dreams he is real).

Ed shook his head. "No thank you." He said, but he immediately walked towards the refrigerator and searched for some food. Typical Dylan Edward Matthews.

He pulled out some cold pizza and popped it in the microwave. He also took out some lemon juice and drank it without even taking breaths. I still wondered how Ed could have a perfect body despite his eating habits. I need to learn something from him.

"It's 8:10." Ed said while chewing his pizza, so all I could make out from him was 'Mints Ate Men'. He swallowed the rest of his pizza and began talking like normal person. "We are so late."

"Yeah, like I didn't know that." I said in sarcasm, but he ignored it.

"We gotta go." He said. All I did was nod, fixed the table, and went to school with my best friend.

...

2 weeks before prom

...

"Come on. What is it?" Ed poked my arm.

It was Music Class and Ms. De Ville was talking about some Maracas players back in 1900's that I really didn't care about.

I told Ed that I needed to tell him something important once the school day is over. I regretted telling him that too early, because he wouldn't stop poking my arms and ask what was my big news all about.

I planned on telling Ed that I finally decided to go to prom, so he could be with Aubrey and have his dream of being Aubrey's partner at prom. Even though I didn't want to do it, but I know that it is what I needed to do.

I tried everything telling Ed to be patient and wait until the day is over but he is just one persistent best friend.

"Will you stop?" I whined. "Wait til the day is over, okay? Patience is a virtue." I said.

He shook his head. "No. You told me it was so important, so I just couldn't stop myself. Please Sidney, please." He pleaded.

I looked at him and saw how desperate he was. I closed my eyes and cursed. I groaned. "Fine." I said and his face glinted with joy. "Let's go outside."

We waited until Ms. De Ville turned his back on us, before we sneaked out and left the room.

We headed for the cafeteria, because my stomach was grownling even though I had lunch with Kevin.

We sat on the only table that was not taken. The moment we sat down, he leaned towards me and tapped his fingers.

"So, what were you going to tell me?" He asked.

I didn't mean to, but I bursted out laughing at his eagerness. He's making it look like what I was telling him was worth a million bucks.

His forehead scrunched in confusion. "What's funny?" He asked. He must've thought that I was bonkers.

He pulled out his phone and used the screen as a mirror to look at his face and checked if there was something funny on it that made me laugh.

I pushed his phone away from his face. "Your face is okay." I assured him. "I just laughed because you are so eager to hear my news. You looked like a puppy that hadn't eaten anything for a week." I said.

"But, a cute puppy right?" He joked.

I made a thinking face. "Let me think." I said. He gave me an Oh-Cmon look. I chuckled. "Fine. You're a cute puppy." I rolled my eyes. "I'll tell you my news if you buy me a burger." I conditioned.

He groaned. "You're torturing that belly of yours." He poked my belly. I glared at him. "Fine. I'll buy you a burger." He said and walked away.

When he was far enough, I looked at my stomach. It's not big. I said to myself. But then I thought, Why am I even thinking about it. It's food we're talking about. I'd rather be fat than starve to death.

My phone beeped on my pocket. I pulled it out and saw Kevin's name on the screen.

"Where did you go? When I looked back, you and Ed were gone." Kevin texted. I actually forgot he was there with us in Music Class.

"Ed and I just had something to talk about. Please text me if Ms. De Ville noticed that we were gone. Thank you." I replied and placed the phone back on my pocket. Thank God it didn't beep after that. I didn't want Kevin flooding me with questions.

Ed came back with a tray on his hand. He gave me a burger and a glass of Coke, while he bought himself a plate of lasagna and a glass of Iced Tea.

"You had me starving here." I complained.

He rolled his eyes. "Shut up and just eat it." He said. He immediately started eating his lasagna. "So, what was it that you were going to tell me?"

"Oh right." I said after I swallowed my first bite. "It's about prom."

He looked at me. "You're finally going?" He guessed. His face was full of hope. Atleast this time I won't get to crush that hope.

First, I smiled. Then, I nodded. "Don't worry. My date is Kevin. You could ask Aubrey now to go to prom." I assured him. I gave him a faint smile.

I didn't know what to feel. Wether to be happy or to be sad. I should've been happy for him and for myself. He could be with the girl he likes, and I could make my mom happy. But I should've been also sad because I just gave the boy I love the permission to be the date of the person he wanted. And that person that he wanted was not me.

"Are you sure?" He asked, though I didn't know what he was talking about. Was I sure that I'm going to prom, or was I sure to let him be Aubrey's date? He answered the question inside my head. "Do you really want to go with Kevin? I could be your date, you know." He offered.

I shook my head. I didn't want him to be my date all just because of pity. "Kevin had been nice to me. I'm sure he'll be a great date." I smiled. "I know that you really want to ask Aubrey anyway." I said.

He looked at me straight into my eyes. "Are you sure?" He asked.

His answers got me confused. Doesn't he want to go to prom with Aubrey? It's his chance. I already have a date so he doesn't to worry about me anymore. Why the hell is he acting like all of this was not what he wanted?

"I'm very sure, Ed." I only said, ignoring the questions in my head.

He nodded. "Okay then. I'm glad you're going." He said and smiled. That's when I realize that I was wrong. He really did want to go with Aubrey. I was just over reacting.

I smiled back at him and ate my burger.

"We've been gone for 10 minutes." Ed reminded. "We should go back before the monster notices that we were gone."

I nodded. "Right." I said. I looked at my half eaten burger on the table. "Maybe we should go now." I suggested and he nodded.

We left the table. I just left my burger half-eaten. Which is very unlikely me. Was I really that confused for me to not finish my food?

We entered the room and Ms. De Ville was still on her back. Ed and I tiptoed going in. Our classmates didn't even seem to care.

When I sat down, I saw Kevin at the corner of eye. He smiled. I smiled back.

I turned to look at Ed, but he was busy looking at someone else. Aubrey.

I sighed and turned my eyes away.

A few minutes later, the bell rang. Aubrey and Ed exited the room together, so that left me and Kevin walking together to our next classes.

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