Time had been passing quite quickly for Sirius lately, it was like a month ago that he escaped from grimmauld place, ran away from his parents and moved in with James. Yet it only felt like a few days.

Though despite all that happyness, all the fun the two boys had together Sirius still felt terribly guilty for leaving his little brother behind with his parents.

But what should he have done? He had no other option, as Regulus kept refusing to go with him out of pure fear of his parents coming after him. And staying on the other hand was no option for him that for sure would have been his dead.

He didn’t blame Regulus though, not at all. He knew their parents, he knew what they were capable of. And by all means he understood that Regulus was scared of that.

The only thing that concerned him and made him also slightly angry was that his brother didn’t seem to trust him at all. James and he would have protected him they wouldn’t let their parents even get near him. But he still seemed to prefer backing down and obbeying his shity abusive parents rather than trusting his own brother.

It hurt but Sirius had to accept that Regulus made his choice, while he had made his own. And he had to accept that these choices were completely  different from each other that the two brothers were now on different sides of the war, that they were now enemys.

He shook his head in disbelieve, he never would’ve thought that it would come that far, he always thought that they were close enough that they would manage to stand trough this together until the end. That they could trust and depend on each other anytime no matter what.

Well he obviously was terribly mistaking. „Stupid idiot“ Sirius mumbled unser his breath blinking away a few up coming tears, how could he actualy believe all that?

Did he even? Did he really truly believed them? Was he actualy one of them out of determination? Or was he just to scared to do something else?

All these were questiones for which Sirius would probably never get an answer, yet he held on to the small glimm of hope that he was right, that Regulus didn’t actualy believe them. He held on to the hope that it wasn’t too late, that he hadn’t completely lost his brother yet.

It was probably useless and pathetic. He was probably just wasting his time and his nerves keeping his hopes up like that. But he couldn’t help it, Regulus was his brother after all. And allthough Sirius would never admit it to anyone he deeply loved him.
„Hey pads”

Sirius flinched at the sudden voice from downstairs which he reconised to be James, though he did not answer at least not as quick as James shouted the next thing.

„Sirius! Move your ass down here right now! Remus is here“

That suddenly grabbed Sirius attention and he got up in less then one second. Remus was here, his Moony. It felt like ages in which he hadn’t seen his boyfriend.

„Out of the way!“ he yelled downstairs jumping on to the stair railling and sliding down, almost riscing a crash landing on the floor.

But before he could hit the ground he felt two familliar arms wrepping around him preventing him from doing so. Remus laughed lightly and pressed a small kiss to Sirius forehead

„Impressive entrance love. Very impressive“ He said chuckling.

„Well i’m trying my best for you“ answered Sirius in the same mocking tone as Remus, leaning a bit closer to him an hiding his face in Remus Sweater.

„I missed you“ he mumbled quietly, his voice being muffled by the fabric of the sweater. But Remus understood it anyway „i missed you too“ he wisperd back in Response

„How are you?“

Sirius smiled knowing there was no use in lieing to Remus considering that he knew him better than he even knew himself.

„It’s fine, really i’m fine“ that was the truth. He and james were having the time of their lives. Fooling around on a daily basis and planing the most iconic pranks for their last school year. Yeah he was fine. But not quite happy considering the circumstances that his brother was still with them.

„I just… i feal so guilty for leaving him there. I want him here i want him safe with me! But i lost him“

„Sirius please, don’t blame yourself you had no other option.“ Remus wispered while drawing small comforting circles on Sirius back.

„I promise it will be fine we will get him out of there!“

And with that the two boys finnally let go of each other leaving the living room hand in hand. Meeting James and his parents in the Kitchen

„Ready to go boys“ euphemia smilled handing them a small bowl with floo powder „your school stuff won’t buy itself“

„Oh please i’ve been born ready“ James exclaimed, imidiatly grabbing the bowl. But handing it over to Sirius

„Ladies first“ he grinned and Sirius held up is middle finger but taking the bowl anyway and steping into the fire place.