"I'm helpless, oh look at those eyes! I look into your eyes and the sky's the limit"

-Phillipa Soo, Hamilton

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Let's talk about love.

A year ago, if you told me I would be marrying the love of my life at eighteen, I would have laughed. I would have never believed that I would find someone to love forever, because I didn't believe in those words. Love, forever, they're too big, they're too intimidating. But then I realized, that I am Courtney Ivory Swan, I am the girl who jumped off a cliff to help her sister, I am the girl who stabbed myself in the stomach so the people I love wouldn't get hurt. I am the one who stood up to a bully at school, the one who ended up being on of the people I love.  I am the girl who tackled an immortal vampire, the girl who pulled a knife on a bunch of drunk men. I am the intimidating one. I am the one who does crazy, stupid things to protect the people I love. Being intimidating for me, comes with the love. Love and forever. The words that aren't defined, unless by yourself. For me, what would love be? Family. What would forever be? Family. Because family are people you love forever. 

Let's talk about infatuation.

 When I first moved here, that is what I thought I felt. I thought I was infatuated by golden eyes, honey blond hair and an accent that can make my knee's tremble and fail. I thought I loved the idea of someone to be with... so I made it my goal to make Jasper Hale laugh. It took a while, sure, but there it is again... perseverance ties in with love, because you can't just fall in love. It is hard, but I think that is when I fell in love. When I was crying in my bathroom, and he helped me, when they left, and I needed them back, so I forgot how to hold a grudge. I thought I was infatuated by the golden eyes and musical voices... but I think deep down, I fell in love with the fairy-like movements, the art classes, the English joking, the debates at lunch, it all. I thought it was infatuation... but it wasn't. It was love, a word that isn't able to be defined, because everyone thinks of love as different things. I think of mine as the family that has been with me since the very beginning of my forever. 

"Okay, close your eyes." 

 I obliged, gently shutting my eyelid, and feeling Alice sweep the brush over them. Rosalie, Jessica, and Angela were in the corner of the room, eating a bag of skittles and talking about different cake flavors, while I was assaulted by Alice Cullen. 

"Almost done, I promise." She handed me something to paint on my lips. "You're really quiet, are you okay?" 

 "I'm just nervous." I admitted, tapping my foot on the ground. My body was wrapped in a beyond comfortable, silk robe that Alice had somehow provided. I wanted to chew on my nails, but I was a little bit worried about being slapped. 

 "Don't be." Alice grinned, "I am so excited for us to officially be sisters." 

 "Hey." I spun around, smiling at the shorter girl and standing up. "We've officially been sisters since you ran up to me in a parking lot and memorized my schedule." 

 Alice giggled, wrapping her arms around my waist in a tight hug. I didn't let myself cry, hugging her back, and earning a light hit. "Hey! Don't ruin the face." 

 "Too late!" Jess called from the corner of the room, immediately after being hit by a hairbrush. 

 "Shut up, Jess." Angela teased, her hand clasped firmly around a book. "It's her big day, don't be mean." 

 "I don't think that is possible for little miss Jessie." I joked, "hey, I think someone stole the top half of your dress." 

 "Shut up before I accidentally throw my glass of water on your face." 

 "Then Alice would murder you." 

 "It's true!" The girl piped up, handing me the soft, white bundle of fabric. "Now, go get dressed! If you are late for your own wedding, that would make me look bad." 

 "It's impossible for you to look bad, Allie." Sadie blew her girlfriend a kiss as she entered the room, spinning around in her light pink dress. She looked stunning, as her usual, and the color went good with the new peach-highlights in her hair. Since Bella is unable to attend the wedding because of... personal reasons, Sadie is my maid of honor! I let her do it on one condition, she lets me be the maid of honor at her wedding... which she gratefully accepted. All that did was make me excited, and convinced that she and Alice would be getting married soon. 

  I drifted off to the bathroom to slip into the dress. It was relatively easy to find my way around, which I was grateful for. I felt great wearing a dress, as I don't do it often, and took a deep breath, gazing at my reflection in the mirror. 

This was really happening... I guess it is kind of hard to believe. My heart is beating a million times an hour, and it was everything in my power to not sweat through all of my clothes. I have been a part of the Cullen family for so long... but it will be hard to say goodbye to my family. I slept at home last night. Charlie and I watched Captain America, and he told me that I remind him of Natasha Romanoff. I went to sleep in my own bed, curled up in the covers, inhaling the scent of home. I didn't have my bear, and Sadie admitted she didn't know where he was, so I made sure my dad knew how much I loved him, and I fell asleep with silent tears running down my face. If there is one thing in life I regret, it is not spending more time with the dad who has been everything he has ever needed to be and more. 

 "Courtney? Can we see." 

 I nodded, realized she couldn't see me, and cleared my throat. "Yeah, one sec." 

 I took a deep breath, grinned at myself in the mirror, and made a silent promise to myself that no matter what happened, I would always be Courtney Swan... the baseball all-star. 

I stepped out of the bathroom, met with an array of squealing that made me burst into laughter. Alice ran around, sweeping her eyes over me for any small imperfections, while Jess and Angela held up signs they must have made previously that had bold 10's painted on them. Jessica stuck her tongue out and covered the 0, making Angela smack her with the board. Sadie fist-bumped me, and Rosalie told me that I looked "awesome." 

 "Thanks guys." My lips began to hurt from smiling so much. "It means so much that you guys are all here." 

 "Just because Bella got quarantined to a small island doesn't mean we can't be here!" Jess called, earning another smack from Angela. 

A knock at the door in an intricate pattern informed me who it was before the door was even opening. "Are y'all decent in there?" Embry's familiar voice called, making Jessica ferociously fix her hair, and me to giggle and open the door. 

 "Holy shit!" Embry pointed at me, as four other large teenagers tried to get past him. "Courtney, where are you!" 

 "Shut up, loser." I grabbed his arm, pulling him in the room so Quil, Jared, Paul, and Seth could get through. "Hi guys!" 

 "Wow! You look so pretty!" Seth grinned, making me internally awe at how adorable he is. Just because he is almost as tall as me, he is still cute as hell. "Like a princess." 

 "Like a princess." Jared mocked in a high-pitched voice as I thanked and carefully hugged Seth. "Dude, you legit look like that girl in the window on the bridal store window." 

 "Uh, thanks?" I wasn't entirely sure if that was a compliment, but embraced the tall boy nevertheless. "That may or may not have been the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me." 

 "Go with 'not.'" Quil advised, grinning sheepishly, "and I stand by my word, you are still smokin' hot."

 "Don't let the bl-" Embry's voice trailed off as he took a note of Jessica and Angela, the former who was doing a real good job at looking uninterested. "Bl-bli... blistering hillbilly here you say that."

 None of us could stop  the laughter at his statement. But I took the time to ruffle his hair, that looked as if he hadn't even bothered to do it. "Blistering hillbilly? Are you on drugs?" I jokingly pressed my hand against his forehead, but he dodged, and almost squeezed me to death in a hug. "Nope." 

 "As if we believe that." Paul had to lean down to hug me, "hey are you wearing heels?" 

 I glanced to make sure Alice wasn't watching, and pulled up the dress to expose the white converse Jess had helped me glue glitter on last night. I held a finger to my lips, wiggling my eyebrows, as the wolves struggled to contain their laughter. 

 "I'm really happy for you." Sincerity laced Paul's voice, as he stayed true to Seth's statement, and kissed my hand, before wrapping his large arms around my torso, I hugged back, grateful that no matter what happened, I would still have these boys in my life. "But if that Southern Rapunzel hurts you, I will not hesitate to rip his head off." 

 I giggled at his usage of 'Southern Rapunzel', making a  mental note to use that in the future, "thank's, Paul." 

 I looked around, my eyebrows furrowing as I noticed the absence of one of the boys. "Hey, where's Jake?" 

 They all grew quiet, giving each other nervous side-eyed glances. My heart fell, and my eyes drifted to the floor as realization slapped me in the face. "Oh."  

 "He was too worried about," Seth leaned forward, lowering his voice to a whisper, "Bella." 

 "Of course he was." I clenched my teeth, of course that lovesick, stupid, macho, sleazy, puppy dog would miss my wedding because he was thinking of my sister, who, by the way, will never love him... he needs to wrap that around his fat head. "It doesn't matter. I'll just beat him up." 

 The wolves laughed, relieving the room of some of the previous tension. Alice popped up in between Paul and I, making him take a step back. "Speaking of seats-" 

 "Who was speaking of seats?" 

 "You guys should take yours," she turned to Angie and Jess, "you guys too, bridesmaids go first... oh yeah, me too." She threw the not-needed clipboard onto the ground beside Angela, who stood up and smoothed her dress out. "Charlie will be waiting for us, so you go, then Sadie goes down with Emmett, then it is Cordie." She took a deep breath, before raising her voice. "What are you waiting for? Go!" 

Jessica and Angela both gave me quick hugs and words of encouragement, before being ushered away, along with the wolves, but Alice. Rose saluted, following them out. 

 Sadie giggled, lacing her arm through mine. "Think about it, tonight, you will be Mrs. Courtney Hale, and Alice will go back to being her normal crazy." 

 I giggled as we traipsed down the stairs, everyone was already gathered where they were supposed to be. We were having our wedding the same place Bella and Edward did, because I loved the place, and because it was close to them. They were in his room, and I made sure that they could see through the window, and I already talked to them both. 

 "Thank you, for being here." I smiled as we stood on the last step. "Not just tonight, always. Since we were little." 

 "Thank you." She counteracted,  "I don't think I could have ever imagined having a best friend has perfect." 

 I giggled, yet again swallowing my tears back. "I love you, bitch." 

 "I love you too, bitch." 

 "Hey." 

 We turned as Charlie's soft voice broke into our moment, Sadie grinned, swanning over to Emmett, and saying something to him, before they disappeared down the aisle. 

 "You look beautiful, honey." Charlie grinned, wrapping his arm with mine. I smiled back as we began walking toward the door. "And I want you to know that I am so proud of you, and the woman you have become." 

 "I want you to know that you are the best dad any girl could have." I grinned, "and I look forward to a baseball game." 

 "Hey, maybe you can invite your new husband to that." 

 I smiled knowingly as dad pressed a kiss to my cheek. "You'd be surprised, he's pretty good." 

 "As good as me?" 

 "No one is as good as you." 

 Charlie gave himself a proud smile as we prepared to step out. "I just want you to know that you will always be my little girl, and I will always love you." 

 Again, no tears allowed. "I love you more, dad. Always." 

 He grinned again, and then we began walking. 

 Everyone in the room were on their feet, and I could feel a light blush cover my whole face, grateful that I wasn't wearing heels. One step, two foot. Here we go. 

 And then I saw Jasper. 

 Looking, as per usual, amazing in his suit. His eyes were soft, and a grin was tugging at his lips when our eyes met. Golden. 

My lips pulled into a smile as the entire room seemed to melt away. Charlie pressed a kiss to my cheek, and I gave my dad a big smile, before facing Jasper, and feeling the best I ever had. The minister began his little speech thing, but to be honest, I barely heard a word of it. My eyes were glued to Jasper's. I felt like I did the first time I have ever met him. I thought he was amazing, I thought his eyes could draw me in like a moth to a flame. 

 We, of course, wrote our own vows. I didn't bring mine, because I figured I would know what to say when I got up here... Jasper seemed to have the same thought. 

 "Court," he began, his eyes never straying from my face. "In my entire life, I have never met anyone like you. I have never met anyone who just wasn't afraid to speak her mind, and would go through anything to help her family. And I have to say, finding a someone as real as you to share my life with, is the greatest honor I could have imagined. You're my best friend, and you aren't perfect, which makes you perfect to me... so thank you for sticking by me, and being the perfect person to be my wife... I love you, and I will love you... forever and always." 

 I didn't realize I was crying until Jasper reached out to wipe a tear from my face. I giggled softly as he slipped the ring onto my finger. 

 "Jazz... let's talk about love." 

 He tilted his head slightly, making me smile. "Love is defined as 'an intense feeling of deep affection.' That is what most people say to their significant other... I love you, but for me, it is different." I paused, taking a deep breath. "Because there aren't words to describe my love for you. I went through my whole life, scared of love, and scared of forever, because I never thought I would get to experience it myself... then I met you. I met you, and I thought that you were... so interesting." 

 He chuckled lightly at my wording, as did some of the people watching us. 

 "In a good way," I assured. "I mean, I have never met anyone like you... again, in a good way. You're my best friend, and I love you more then anyone could ever imagine. And I'll love you forever. Forever is a word to strong to be fully comprehended. Everyone has a different forever. Eighty years can be forever for some people, while twenty can be forever for others. When someones forever ends, another's begins. You're my forever. You're my prince charming, my best friend, and my soulmate... and I could not be more excited to be with you..." I grinned, "Forever And Always." 

He smiled, as I carefully slipped the ring onto his finger. 

 "Do you, Jasper Hale, take Courtney Swan to be your lawfully wedded wife, through sickness and in health, for better or worse, as long as you both shall live?" 

 Jasper smiled, "I do." 

 "And do you, Courtney Swan, take Jasper Hale to be your lawfully wedded husband, through sickness and in health, for better or worse, as long as you both shall live." 

 "I do." 

 "Then, by the power invested in me, the state of Washington, I now pronounce you husband and wife... you may kiss the bride." 

 I grinned, jumping up and wrapping my arms around Jasper's shoulders as he practically lifted me up, pressing his lips to mine with so much excitement and emotion it made me smile wider. 

 And there it was, the beginning of my forever. 

 "It is my joy to present for the first time, Mister and Missus Jasper Hale!" 

 I giggled, looking up at the face I had loved for years. He was already looking down at me, and said those three words that made me even happier for our future. 

 "I love you." 

 "I love you, too." 

 And that, I was one hundred percent certain of. 

A/N: Well that made me cry... and it was long as hell, like 3020 words! I hope you guys enjoy this as much as I enjoyed writing it! I love my children so much, and I can't believe how far this story has come... thank you so much for reading, and I have a very important question for you all... 

 You got any good names in mind? (Boy or girl.)

 Thank you for reading, and I love you all!