"Fear is an emotion that grips your body like a steel iron glove, and doesn't let go until you give in to its temptation."

-Me

***

The days went by, and I got some bad information from Alice right when I thought things couldn't be smoother. It was late afternoon, when she burst into Jasper's room, a phone in her hands, her eyes wide and worried. 

 We both jumped, me looking up from my phone screen, Jasper simply opening his eyes. "Hey Alice, you know this is my room." Jazz teased, sitting up, me following his lead. "I could have been naked." 

 "It's true, he could have been." I added helpfully, smirking at my best friend. "It happens a lot." 

 "Courtney, you need to listen to this." She shoved the house-phone in my hands, "it's Bella."

 "Is something wrong?" My eyebrows furrowed, and my heartbeat increased only slightly as my mind ran through all of the millions of possible death scenarios Bella could get into on a private island. She could have gotten eaten by a shark, she could have fallen out of a tree, she could have been hit by a bus... 

 "Yes." 

 "Oh shit." I held the phone up to my ear, "Bella? Bella it's Courtney." 

 "Court?" Her voice was slightly muffled due to bad reception, but I could hear her well enough to know that she was crying. "Courtney I'm scared." 

 "What's wrong?" I put my finger to my opposite ear so I could hear her better, walking to the corner of the room, completely aware of Jasper and Alice staring at me. When she didn't answer, I pressed harder, "Bella answer me!" 

 "I-I think I'm pregnant." 

 I was surprised right then and there that the phone didn't slip from my hand. Pregnant? By a vampire? How does that even happen? I thought it was impossible. "I-I'm sorry, what?" I asked, hoping I somehow heard her wrong. "You're pregnant?" 

 "I think so," her voice broke, "Courtney, I'm scared, what do I do?" 

 "Okay, okay, here's what we're gonna do." I leaned my forehead on the wall. "Okay? Take a deep breath." I waited until I heard her breath deeply on the other line. "Good job, now, tell me everything." 

 "Okay, well this morning, after we..." She paused, and I hummed to tell her I understood. "I was in the bathroom, and I just couldn't stop throwing up! And then I realized that my period was almost three weeks late, and then I... I felt something." 

"You felt something?" I pursued, quirking an eyebrow, "Bella, that's impossible. Babies aren't big enough for you to feel until like, twenty weeks at least." 

 "I know, I know!" Bella's voice was growing more and more agitated, "I don't know what's going on!" 

 "You're coming home?" 

"Immediately." 

 "Okay, okay so here's what you have to do," I paced across the room, staring at the floor. "Just come home, and if something is wrong, we can call of the wedding and-"

 "No!" Alice and Bella shouted in almost perfect unison. I jumped, turning to Alice. 

 "If something is wrong with Bella, I can't have a wedding, my sister needs to be at my wedding!"  

 "No! No! I have spent months planning the perfect wedding! You are getting married in three days, end of discussion." 

 "I agree." Bella spoke from the small device. "Courtney, I know you are dying to get married, and I don't want to be the reason why you don't." 

 "But-" 

 "No buts! I'll see you later!" 

 The line crackled, then went silent. 

 I sighed, throwing the phone on the ground and covering my face with my hands. This isn't good, this isn't good at all. 

 "It'll be okay." Jasper tried to assure, but that only made me feel worse. I tried to 'call off' our wedding? What kind of a fiancee am I?

 "I'm sorry, I just-" My throat swelled like I was trying to dry-swallow a huge pill. "I'm just so worried." 

 "You should be." Alice deadpanned, making Jasper and I look up, the latter shooting her a challenging look. "What?"

 "I didn't know this could happen... I thought it was... well... impossible." 

 "So did I." Jasper admitted, running one hand through my hair. "But I guess nothing is one hundred percent impossible." 

***

Bella looked like absolute shit. 

 She got back, and could barely walk. She kept one hand on her stomach at all time, and had moved to the couch in the living room immediately. Her face was pale, her hair was matted, and her stomach seemed just a little bigger then the last time I saw her. To be fair, Edward didn't look much better. He somehow looked paler than usual, his eyes were wide and somewhat crazed, like an angel on crack. 

 "Bella oh my-" I sat down next to her, a shy, scared smile being dished out in return. "What the fuck is this? You shouldn't be showing for at least another 12 weeks!" 

 "How do you know so much about pregnancy?" Emmett asked from the corner of the room, doing his very best to lighten the mood.

 "Books. Bella seriously, are you okay?" I paused, taking in how stupid that sounded. "No, of course you're not okay... but how did this happen, Edward!" I jumped up, pointing an accusatory finger toward the male vampire. "Edward what in the name of everything that is good and Holy did you do?" 

 "I have no idea." His voice was strained when he spoke, losing it's usual musical taint. He looked... raw. Raw and terrified. "I don't know, this shouldn't happen, I don't understand-" 

 "Courtney." Bella's voice was weak, but otherwise sounded the same, which, for some reason, was a huge relief to me. "It's okay, I'll be okay... but I'm having the baby." 

 I blanched, rendered speechless. Now, was I against Bella having a baby? Hell nah, I love kids, and I would be the worlds best 'cool aunt.' But having normal babies is different from having vampire babies (which shouldn't even be a thing!) that could potentially kill her as it is growing at an abnormally fast rate, and she already looks like she is in her second trimester, despite only learning yesterday... 

 Does science mean nothing to these people? 

 "You can't worry about me." She grinned again, and then winced, which made me wince. "Everybody thinks we are still on our honeymoon... and you have a wedding to think about." 

 "Bella-" 

 "No, no Bella's." She scolded, her voice having a chosen burst of strength. "You are getting married tomorrow, and you are doing all of the normal wedding things, and you are gonna see everyone, and you are gonna be happy! Understand?" 

 I gave her a very challenging look. This is my sister, she is going through some tough, and frankly, weird as well, stuff right now, and I want to be with her.... but I also really want to get married, and maybe that is what I need right now... 

 Maybe just no honeymoon... 

 "Fine." I grabbed Bella's clammy hand, squeezing it once, "okay, I understand."