I like anime.

But the sad ones.

What? I can't help it if I'm hurting deep inside.

Especially like the one above. What do you think it is?

Yup. A slit wrist.

Which is what I tried to do.

No people, I'm not joking(how many times!?).

Sometimes, I think no one cares.

And all the time, I think I'm right.

Actually I'm not though.

Maths. No offence to anyone who likes math out there but this is what I think it is-Mental Abuse To Humans.

Aanish brought a paper cutter to class, and I have no idea why.

But I did have a perfect idea what for.

I took it, saying that I wanted to see it, but my intentions were the opposite.

Plus, Devin was also in front of me.

I opened it, I didn't mean to break it, but soon I was holding the blade part, and Aanish was left with the plastic.

He was acting like he was going to get framed if I did die, which made me wonder;Did he actually care?

Nah, he wouldn't. Little did I know that he did... whoops.

He has anyone he wants as a friend, what's the use of having a follower like me?

I'm a stupid, selfish, idiotic brat who always complains.

Thinking all these things, I didn't even notice that blood was pooling on my wrist.

No, I wasn't going to die, but it sure did hurt.

I was laughing through the pain, it felt odd as Aanish was trying to snatch it back, and Pillu tickling me.

He finally got the blood stained blade and was ranting at me about DNA.

It hurt, but then someone may remember me if I'm gone.

I stole it again, and let the blood dry as I wiped it off.

I pushed the wound again when Aanish finally got it.

I stared into his eyes, and saw a bit of care in there, or was my mind playing tricks on me?

He got it back when everyone crowded me, and he was pushed out along with Devin.

I was only observing Aanish.

He simply stood there silently, looking on as if it was all his fault.

I felt guilty, but then things got worse. Anna started crying.

I tried to comfort her, but she only managed to sputter out a few words-
God doesn't give you what you want... if he does he's testing you...-

I took in a sudden breath as I heard it.

I didn't have friends, what more did I want?

Soon it was time for dispersal.

I left the class list in thoughts, would I ever get a friend?

Or forever alone?

*I did it again*

Do you actually want to read how I did it again? Who am I kidding, how can a diary read?

Eh, leave I'm writing it.

I was upset during the day, up to the extended that I ignored Aanish.

I was agitated, what am I supposed to do?

I apologised when Science was going on.

He motioned his hand like 'eh leave it'.

Anyway, I sat in the bus upset when Aanish sat next to me.

"Someone's pissed off. What's wrong? Don't be sad."

I felt like bursting into tears if I spoke, but I barely even managed to say,"Read the note I gave you."

He was way too lazy to decipher it.

He kept bothering me, and at one point, it clicked.

I took out the blade as he stared.

He's not stupid, I'll give him that much credit.

He tried to snatch it out of my hand, and succeeded.

I may be stupid, but not that much.

I snatched it back, and started cutting.

He tried to get it again, so I put it in my pencil case.

I kept it in my bag, only to have him steal that too.

And then he took my pencil case out, and tossed my bag at me.

So I stole his glasses.

I held it out the window and he slowly gave my case back.

I stole it, and kept it away.

I stared out the window when he asked me one last time,"Are you really ok?"

I couldn't hold it in anymore.

I cried. The tears rolled down my face as I buried it between my arms.

He noticed and kept trying to make me laugh, but how do I laugh with the problems following me around?

Soon, everyone noticed that I was crying, and one girl threatened to kick Aanish.

That was what made me laugh in the end.

Thank you, for giving me a friend like him.

Thank you world, for giving me a chance.