"Sykkuno...I'm sorry." I didn't know what to say. I've liked him since I heard his voice. Somehow mine was gone in an instant. Why did I say sorry, what is wrong with me!

"That's embarrassing I'll go I should' known you would never like me back." Sykkuno left the room.

"Wait...Sykkuno!" I yelled. I couldn't move. My legs felt like they were in quicksand. I heard the door slam from upstairs and I fell. I managed to sit in the chair that Sykkuno was sitting on. It was still warm. "What did I just do." My phone rang and in a moment I thought it might be Sykkuno so I looked at the caller, it was just my friend. I placed the phone down after declining it. He called me again and again and again, it was finally time to pick up.

"What?" I sighed.

"You didn't pick up because?" He laughed

"I'm just going through something right now. I'll talk later." I rubbed in between my eyes.

"No, no, no what's going on. Do I need to come over?" His voice was automatically worried. "I just fucked up the best thing in my life Jack." I sighed. I was more than frustrated, I was annoyed and mad at myself.

"Why are you calling me Jack just call me Sean, mate. What happened. Details." I hate explaining this to him.

"So, Sykkuno told me he likes me..."

"Oh my god! You two a thing now?" He chuckled mysteriously.

"N-No, I didn't say anything. I just stood there, like I couldn't say anything. Nothing would leave my mouth. My ball of anxiety just all came out and I just stood there. As soon as he left me-" "You didn't go after him did you." Sean was obviously annoyed.

"I don't know what to do. I'm such an idiot." I chuckled and began to hit my head against the wall. Nothing was going well today. "First my argument about him leaving and now this. God, I'm a mess."

Sean paused for a moment. "Wait, where is Sykkuno going?"

"New York," I answered.

"Then what the fuck are you still doing here on the phone with me! You should be going to get him. Corpse listen to me you have liked this guy since you heard his voice. You called me telling me how good his voice sounded. He liked you back and you're not going to do anything about it?! What is wrong with you?!" I could hear Sean pound his hand against the table. "Corpse, face it you're in love with him. It's okay to be in love, but if you don't tell him he'll be going to New York thinking you hate him. What the fuck is wrong with you? Get your arse out of the goddamn chair and go get your man!"

"But-"

"Now, Corpse!"

"What if he doesn't want to listen to me? He might never want to see me again!" I yelled, grabbing my hair.

"What if he does? Huh? What if he does wants to see you? Be held by you. Like I'm saying all this corny ass shit and I'm not even the one confessing. Corpse, you need to learn to go for things you want in life. Nothing is going to stop beside yourself. You told this man your real name. Like I don't even know. Still pissed by the way. Anyway, if you don't go you're gonna regret it."

The pain in my chest grew. I know it will go away when I stop feeling guilty. How do I approach him now? "I can't I just can't."

"I will pop up at your house if you don't go, I will tell him for you."

"Alright, alright." I hung up the phone. I could hear the rain outside, so I grabbed the umbrella in the doorway. I can't believe I let him go out in the rain. My heart is beating so fast, I've never felt like this before. Scared? Love? I don't know.

Where is he? Think. Where would he be? All this rain isn't helping I could barely see. "Goddammit!" I never thought this would be so frustrating. I ran my hand through my wet hair. I was looking towards the river when I spotted someone sitting on the hill. Maybe it was Sykkuno. The thunder only got louder. It sounds like a lion trying to get out of its cage. I crossed the street, making sure I wasn't going to get run over in the process. The rain was still going to cause the dirt in the grass to become mud. I lost my footing, making me slip all the way down to where the person was.

"Alec?" I looked up to see the person I was looking for.

"Sykkuno." I grabbed his face and pushed my lips against his. His hand rested on my chest almost trying to push me away, but couldn't. I took his hand off my chest, pushing it against the ground. I pulled away, resting my head on his shoulder. "I'm sorry, I just stood there like an idiot. I was just so shocked and all my insecurities just came in at once and I'm sorry." I locked out fingers together, but all Sykkuno did was smile.

"You're such a dork. I would never be mad at you for something like that. I was the one who left without giving you a chance to say anything." He laughed nervously. I cut him off with another kiss. One that made my heart pound. One that made me want to kiss him forever. His lips were so soft. Even though I haven't felt any other lips, his are my favorite.

"Don't be sorry. How about we go back because we're both drenched in mud."I chuckled. I stood up with drips of mud sliding off me. Sykkuno latched onto my shirt, pulling himself up. I grabbed his hand and started running up the hill. There was too much mud so if we fell...it would be problematic. I hopped over the metal pole, helping Sykkuno over as well. "I can't believe you came out here without an umbrella!"

"I can't believe you came here just for me!" He yelled back.

I blush crept on my face. "Let's just get back!" I yelled over the loud rain. In what felt like hours we finally made it to the house. I locked the doors and set the alarm. "That was tiring." I kicked off my shoes and started making my way upstairs. "I'll take a shower first. My room is right across the hall so you just get undressed in there and wait until I'm out."

Sykkuno pulled my sleeve. "Wait..." His voice was light. I turned around and he tiptoed to my lips and kissed them. "Okay, now you can go."

"Sykkuno..." I sighed. I turned around and walked up the stairs my face becoming more red with every step I took. Why do I feel this way?