"Regrets are idle; yet history is one long regret. Everything might have turned out differently."
~Charles Dudley Warner

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REGRET MESSAGE
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707 x Suicidal! Reader
Requested by: TheAnimeLover7169
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It was one tranquil night at your apartment, you were writing on a piece of paper a letter that your feelings are written on it. Sadness, betrayal, and regret. You are usually online at the messenger tonight, but it was different this time.

You no longer have the right to show yourself in front of the RFA members, the face you have been saving was destroyed by your wrong decisions that caused your friends to hate you.

Yes, all of the members of RFA harbor hate towards you.

Why? It was so simple. You did something cruel to make them hate you. You broke their trust.

"This is all my fault..." Y/n said as she began to tremble in fear.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry..." tears rolled down her cheeks upon remembering what happened then.

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Mint Eye. It was a dark organization or rather a cult. Their queen was the founder of RFA namely Rika, and her watchdog was Seven's long lost brother, Unknown or namely as Saeran. The incident happened a week ago and it took place at your apartment that you discovered that had a bomb implanted beneath.

"Hey Y/n, do you want to live?" Unknown asked as he pointed a gun in front of you.

"Y-Yes...I want to live! Please...don't kill me, I-I'll do anything." you begged for your life, not wanting to die in the hands of this person.

"Anything?" the man smirked as you realized you made an fatal error.

Y/n gulped, nervously. "Anything."

Unknown leaned closer as he put the tip of the gun on your forehead, he went closer towards you and whispered some soft murmurs in your ear.

"Betray RFA..."

"I'll never betray RFA! I promised everyone that we will get through this together!" you proclaimed.

Then he sneered at you darkly, his fingers almost let out the trigger of the bullet of the gun pointed on your head.

"If you won't do it, you'll have to die..." he said as a smirk formed his lips. He was threatening you.

"I-I have to die? No! I don't want to die...and I don't want to betray RFA." you admitted, scared as hell now.

Tears rolled down your cheeks as a gun pointed on your head, you slowly turned your head and to see Rika smirking at you. There is no intention of her to help you.

It's no use...your going to die. Nobody is going to help you, you'll die alone.

"W-Wait!" Y/n spoke as Unknown halted after you suddenly yelled.

"What?" he asked you as he glared at you, making you shivered in fear.

"A-Alright, I'll do it..." you said in a low tone. "I'll betray RFA..."

A smirk formed his lips, "J-Just please...spare me!" you shouted.

Then he moved away the gun from your head as you were able to breathe much more better, you were scared to die that's why you gave in and endangered the RFA members.

"Tomorrow, you'll invite the RFA members to the party. In Magenta. If they would oppose you, do it by force." a blonde haired female told you, it was Yoosung's cousin, Rika.

"T-Tomorrow? But it's the RFA charity party..." you stated.

"So? You want to live or die?" Rika asked you as she grabbed your chin.

"I want to live...I don't wanna die..." you muttered in a soft tone.

"Then just do what I say!" Rika yelled.

Soon after, you were freed by them as you headed back to the apartment. Despite having a bomb beneath, it was the only place that you can be safe.

Y/n heard her phone rung, it was a call from Seven. You stared at the screen and thinking if you should answer the call or just drop it. But then, you decided to answer it.

"Y/n! What happened? I've been calling you lots of times now and you haven't picked them up, you missed lots of my calls! Are you okay?" 707 bombarded you which made you startled.

"Betray RFA."

The voice of that 'unknown' person rung in your head, you bit your lower lip and began to lie to convince 707.

"I'm fine..." but the truth is, your not.

"Really? Then why haven't you picked up my calls?" he asked.

"I was busy." but the truth is, your just busy thinking of how to convince them to go the party.

"Busy? With what?" he asked.

"..." You refrained from answering.

"Y/n? Hey, are you still here?" 707 was calling for Y/n yet she wasn't speaking.

"Hey, Seven...can I ask you a question?" you asked him.

"But you're already asking me a question." he said.

You heard him chuckle from the other line, "Just kidding. What is it?"

"Will you hate me if I do something that will hurt you?"  you asked him.

"Hmm...that depends." he answered.

"But what I do is, I wouldn't hate you. No, I would never hate you." he said.

Y/n covered her mouth as a gasp escaped her throat, tears started to roll down her cheeks. She was feeling overwhelmed by everything.

"Why? Why wouldn't you hate me?" you asked him.

"Because I love you." he confessed his feelings to you.

He loves you....

Why does he have to say it now?

Now he is making things harder for you...

You felt something pricked your chest, it was suffocating that tears couldn't help but fall silently.

"Even if you did something that will hurt me, I bet there's a reason behind it! I'll just believe in you like how you believed in me..." he added.

No...

Don't be so nice...

I can't do this anymore...

"I love you, Luciel. I really do."

You hanged up, that was the last call that Luciel received from you then.

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Y/n led the RFA members to the Mint Eye the day after, the party was rescheduled and a bit much later to start. Soon afterwards, Unknown and Rika came out behind the curtains and started to hypnosis the members. Of course, everyone was so surprised to see Rika alive and healthy. But what made them surprise that she was the queen of the cult.

"Reality is ugly. There is nothing beautiful here, that's why, come with me. I'll take you to the real party, to the real paradise." Rika said, offering her hand towards them.

The hypnosis was strong to make Jumin, Zen, Seven, Yoosung, and Jaehee to fall in despair.

"Good job, Y/n. You are now free! Go ahead and enjoy your life with nothing but happiness to eternity." Rika cheered.

Happiness? What is that? You have long forgotten that word. Or do you even knew what it was in the first place?

Tears rolled down your cheeks as you could only watch fall in Rika's hands and became her dolls. You achieved your goal, your alive! You were save.

However...your hands were cold as your sense of feeling became numb. You can't feel a thing but regret.

It's not my fault...I never wanted this! Don't blame me, blame them! you fell down on the ground, groveling.

"Why is this happening? Because of me, everyone is all wounded and hurt. Because of my selfishness...they'll die!" you covered your eyes as you cried.

I just wanted to live
What's wrong with that?

But then a miracle happened, the whole studio was surrounded by cops and skilled fighters that were hired by Jumin and placed around this place. The codes that were needed to decode were unlocked by Seven as the tough guys to back them up were able to enter inside.

Jumin used his resources and connections while Seven used his hacking skills to let then infiltrate inside, what a team play! It's as if they predicted something like this would occur.

"H-How did they got in?!" Unknown was flabbergasted as the cops pointed guns towards him and Rika.

"Is it you...?!" he turned to Seven as he glared at him.

"Who else would it be, Saeran? I'm the only one who can hack this place..." Seven spoke.

"How? It was perfect! My special security system was perfect and well constructed...how did you unfolded it?!" Unknown yelled.

Seven smirked as he pointed his finger on his head. "With my brains, of course."

"Take them away!" Jumin commanded as they took away Rika and Unknown.

"My plan failed...? No way..." Rika muttered, unable to accept her defeat.

"W-Wait...Don't take my brother away!" 707 yelled.

"Brother..." Unknown muttered as he could only watch him running towards him as he got taken away.

You couldn't believe it. They were actually able to defeat Mint Eye! You wanted to get away, so ashamed that you have to face to show them anymore.

Y/n started to walk out of the building secretly, ashamed. Until she heard a voice that called her.

"And where do you think you're going, Y/n? After all you've did to lead us here...your running away? How lowly of you." turning around to see Seven glaring at you.

Oh, he hates me now... Not only him, the other members hated you too as well.

"I couldn't believe that you didn't trust us with this, Y/n. You let me down!" Jumin said.

"I've always thought that you were a nice person...but after how you betrayed us...I-I don't know what to think of you anymore!" Zen said.

"After all this time, you are working with my supposed-to-be dead cousin and the hacker who lead you to the apartment, huh? You deceived us quite well, bravo." Yoosung said.

"...Words cannot express how much animosity I felt towards you. I feel so betrayed that you did this to us, Y/n. Even after I believed in you." Jaehee said.

You turned to the person you loved dearly, Seven, but you cannot look at him in the eye. Instead, you just looked down and felt your eyes began to moist from the pain you've bottled up inside.

"What a shame. I used to really love you so much, Y/n. To think that you did such a thing...not only you played with my feelings, you also did the same to the others..." Seven said.

None of them were willingly to listen to you, they just kept running their mouths and constant hurt your feelings endlessly.

Why can't they see? That you're also hurting too...

"You betrayed me, you betrayed us! How am I suppose to put this behind my back now, Y/n?!"

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A week passed since that incident happened, you finally finished writing the letter you've poured your feelings into. The night was still young and reflected its darkness.

You haven't been online in the chatroom for awhile now, you were afraid to go there because they're probably talking about you there. It was a surprise that you were still a member of the RFA.

You stood up and decided in wanting to end the pain already, it was pinning you down that you have to use your final resort...and that was to take away your own life. It was the only way to feel happy again.

"I'm tired of my life already..."

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707 entered the chatroom

ZEN: Still couldn't believe that Y/n betrayed us.

Yoosung★: Yeah. My mom asked me what I want for dinner, but I couldn't think of anything.

Jaehee Kang: Y/n...she was my best friend. I still couldn't move on in what happened back then.

Jumin Han: We're still talking about this? I have enough of this already. I'm so fed about this!

707: Guys, could you stop jumping the gun? Maybe there is a reason behind this...I still couldn't think that Y/n would betray us like that.

ZEN: Really? Even though your the first to run your mouth then?

ZEN: You're quite funny, man!

707: I know but I regretted that I made an assumption without hearing Y/n's sideview first.

Jumin Han: Do you need a reason to betray someone, Luciel?

Yoosung★: Jumin's right!

707: Guys, let's be serious.

Jumin Han: But I am always serious.

707: Jumin, don't try to take a bite out of me.

Jumin Han: I cannot comprehend why you bear anger towards me. I merely stated the truth.

707: Don't you dare make me angry.

Yoosung★: Stop! Stop! No resorting to violence. Jumin, Seven.

Jaehee Kang: Calm down the both of you! Fighting wouldn't resolve anything.

ZEN: You need to control yourself, Seven.

707: He started it first, damn it.

Jumin Han: Passing the blame to me now, Luciel, hm? How childish.

707: What the fuck did you say?!

Jumin Han: I'm saying how childish your actions are.

ZEN: Trust fund kid, shut up your mouth for a second. And you, Seven, calm down already!

Jaehee Kang: This is going nowhere.

Yoosung★: Omg. Why is this happening?

707: I don't care anymore! I'll now go to Y/n's apartment and ask her what really happened.

ZEN: That might be actually better than us, making a judgement out of her.

707: Then I'll be on my way.

707 left the Chatroom

Yoosung★: That's my first time seeing Seven so angry, it's so scary.

Jaehee Kang: Mr. Han, you didn't have to put things like that to Luciel. His on the edge here, could you at least not make him feel worser?

Jumin Han: I don't really understand what I did wrong but I'm logging off now, I'm fed up with Luciel's crap.

Jumin Han: Then I'll be on my way.

Jumin Han left the Chatroom

Yoosung★: Jumin just snapped!

Jaehee Kang: For the two years working under him, I've never heard him curse.

ZEN: He must've been really pissed.

ZEN: Well, Seven is also at fault here. If he just understand Jumin a bit more, I'm sure he didn't meant any harm.

Jaehee Kang: Mr. Han might be harsh but his intentions are good, I think he just did what it's best for Luciel.

Yoosung★: I hope those two make up after this T_T

ZEN: I also hope they do, too.

ZEN: I would love to chat more but I have to warm up my voice.

ZEN: My throat is kind of dry and needed some warm up, bye!

Zen left the Chatroom

Jaehee Kang: I also have to go too, Mr. Han gave me lots of projects that are needed to complete.

Jaehee Kang: What about you, Yoosung? Would you still stay?

Yoosung★: Nah. I'm gonna play LOLOL. See ya later, Jaehee!

Jaehee Kang: See you later.

Yoosung★ left the chatroom
Jaehee Kang left the chatroom

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707 drove in his car with great speed as he was rushing towards to Y/n's apartment to see if she is okay. Somehow, he had a feeling that something bad is going to happen. He doesn't know why but he really needs to see Y/n right now.

Once he reached the apartment building, he parked his car beside the estate and run inside the place. Hurrying to see her.

He grabbed the doorknob and twisted it but it wouldn't open, meaning Y/n locked the door from inside. He began knocking on the door.

"Y/n! Open up the door! What are you doing in there? Are you alright?!" he yelled while banging the door.

No budge.

No reply.

He was only greeted by silence and the cold of the night, then he decided to open the door forcibly. Luciel hurriedly rushed inside to find Y/n.

But once he finally found her, his golden eyes that was framed with glasses, widened in this terrifying view in front of him.

He saw Y/n's neck tied with a rope as she was hanging on the ceiling, blood soaked her clothes as her neck cracked. Her eyes were closed as her skin turned pale. Reality shook him as he knew that she was already dead.

"What's this...? Did she just did what I thought she did...? S-She hanged herself?" he muttered, his eyes couldn't leave the corpse of the woman tied on a rope.

Tears rolled down his cheeks as he saw a paper on the floor, it was a letter. He bent down and open it. He saw Y/n's handwriting. He started reading the letter silently.

Dear Luciel,

I'm really sorry that I betrayed you and the RFA, I hope you would understand me...They threatened me. They told me that if I don't want to die, I must lead everyone to the Mint Eye and enjoy the Magenta Party held by Rika and Unknown. Of course, I was against it. But...when they pointed a gun on my forehead, my body froze. I couldn't move, I was so scared...That's why I didn't have the choice but to follow them.

But now I regretted that. I deeply do. I wish I didn't kept it a secret from you guys and told you about it. Maybe things would have been different...I had a feeling that you would come here to the apartment, Luciel. I don't know why but I just know. Strange, isn't it? Tell everyone that I'm sorry and live strong, okay? I don't have a face to show you and them anymore, I'm so sorry.

There is no pretending. I love you, and I will love you until I die. And if there is a life after that, I'll love you then.

Love, Y/N

Tears rolled down Luciel's cheeks as it soaked the letter, his eye vision became blurry from tears fogging his eyes. It was too hard to breathe, the pain was unbearable.

"Yeah, I love you too...Y/n."

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Gosh, I'm tearing up! I'm so not really good in writing Suicidal Stories, this is my first time so I hope you like it!
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