Kim jiah.

I opened the door with a heavy heart and walked in slowly closing the door behind me. I took slow steps towards the bed seokjin was laying on but my eyes started to water as soon as I saw his pale face and all those wires attached to him. I can't see him like this but at the same time I want to be with him and wait until he wakes up which wont happen anytime soon. Seokjin was shifted to the normal ward and now we just have to wait for him to wake up. Thankfully, something serious didn't happen to him and he would be fine. The main reason that it'll take time for him to wake up is because of the accident.

I took a seat at the little stool beside the bed and softly placed my hand on his.

His hand was cold and pale just like his whole body.
" I'm sorry." I cried while holding his hand firmly.

" I'm sorry please forgive me...."
I had already went through the pain of losing him before but still this time I made a mistake and I'm the reason of him being in this state.

Only if I wouldn't have brought up the divorce thing....

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" very shameless of you to be here and be worrying about him when this all happened because of you." a voice said as I exited seokjin's hospital room. I would've punched that voice if it belonged to someone else and also what he said was the truth so I had no other choice but to not do anything stupid.

" jimin!" I saw hoseok giving jimin a glare. I just walked past them and sat on a nearby seat. Jimin, taehyung, hoseok and also Namjoon went in to see seokjin.

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" you don't have to come here anymore we will be here with him." I was lost in my thoughts when someone spoke. I looked up to see taehyung.

" tae...." I called out and saw  jimin walking towards us.

" yes, please don't come here and fake these things you're really pissing me off." he said in an irritated tone. I can't believe I'm seeing this side of theirs or this side even existed especially, taehyung, I thought he was a cute baby bear but this side of his is quite scary and I didn't knew that he would be doing this since he has always been good with me and is a very cheerful person whereas jimin, I do have talked with him before but we weren't even that close. I know people can get very sensitive when it comes to their loved ones but they didn't have to be this rude....anyways, I shouldn't be complaining because I'm the one to blame after all.

" I already told you I ain't faking anything." I said in a calm tone. " and I would visit here every day until seokjin wakes up." I ended my sentence with a proud smile.

" do whatever you want but I swear if you hurt him again you're not getting away!" jimin said in anger and left me and taehyung alone.

" I guess I got on your bad side which I never expected to see." I started a conversation with him while he avoided eye contact.

" I know you're angry on me because seokjin is in this state because of me and it's okay you could hate me I won't mind it." I smiled faintly at the nervous man in front of me.

He kept avoiding eye contact and eventually left in a hurry.
" seems like he doesn't even wanna talk." I say to myself and played with my fingers. I looked around my surroundings since I was now outside the hospital in a small garden area sitting on a bench. I felt someone taking a seat besides me on the bench.

" I'm sorry for jimin and taehyung, they are some sensitive kids." I heard a familiar voice say.

" Namjoon!" I turned around and he flashed his cute dimple smile.
" oh, you recognised my voice." he smiles.

Such a pretty human being.

" I thought you were also upset with me.." I played with my fingers nervously.

" why? Why would I be upset with you?! Aren't we friends? and I don't get upset that easily, jimin and taehyung are still little kids that's why they are being like this, jungkook is better." I smiled knowing that he wasn't upset with me.

" it's okay, they have full right to be angry with me it's my fault after all."

" don't blame everything on yourself. Yeji is to be blamed."
" she started it but I hurt him more...." I sighed.

" yah! If you blame yourself again I'm not talking to you anymore!" he shows me his fake angry face and I chuckled.

" but I'm really the one to be blamed....they hate me now..." I tried not to let my tears take over me since I don't wanted to show him how much of a crying mess I am.

" no, no, they don't." he gets a hold of my shoulders and made me face him with a convincing face.
" they're just being naive but they don't hate you, so don't think like that!"

" I could see the hate in their eyes....I hate myself now.... it's all because of me." that's it now I couldn't hold it in anymore and there I started crying like the weak self I am.

" omo! Don't cry! Why are you crying?!" his face turns into a worried one as he tries to figure out how to stop me from crying.

" it's been long since someone cried in front of me. What should I do?" he mumbles to himself. He was in deep thought while I was a crying mess besides him.

Seriously, just how much I embarrass myself.

I felt hessistant hands sneaking around my waist bringing me into a warm hug while a hand pats on my head.

" I'm not that good in this stuff so, I'm sorry if this doesn't help. Jisoo likes when I hug her so I thought maybe you also like that," he says in a nervous voice.

Looks like I scared him...

" don't cry, crying won't solve anything and no one hates you so please don't think like that."

" please be the strong jiah that I saw for the first time." he said referring to our first meeting when we went to buy my wedding dress. " and be positive." he ends his sentence. I broke the hug brushing my tears away with the back of my palm. The hug really helped me. " thanks." I muttered.

" I will really appreciate it if you promised me that you'll not cry again." he smiles.

" i don't think I can promise that...." me and not cry no way! I just realized how much of a cry baby I am these days and I don't want to break a promise.

" wae? I know you're worried about hyung but at least don't cry. Look at yourself, you've became so skinny and I don't think hyung would like to see that when he wakes up so, you still have time to become the pretty and strong jiah that we all know." he gives me a convincing look.

" okay, I promise that I wont cry until I lose hope, " I agreed giving up.
" good!" he smiles making his dimples pop up.

I can't help but keep falling in love with my bias!