Victoria's POV

Its Saturday and am home, making wedding plans, our wedding is in a week, and I haven't really got time to start planning, because of Bryan and his cunning sex ways, he keeping me occupied. The wedding is basically planed by my sister of course, she just gave me my wedding binder and told me that I should make a few adjustments.

Decorations check
Musicians check
Guest list check
Pastor check
Brides and groom teem check
Rings check

Now all that's left is my dress, Katey gave me a few pictures of some white dresses, but I don't want a white a dress, I want a long aqua blue cocktail long dress.

Yeah yeah I know normally at a wedding the bride always wear a white dress, but I want my wedding to be a fairy tail, and cliché, and not some boring wedding. Then I began to look at the food preparations.

Cake - chocolate and vanilla check

That's Bryan's and I favorite flavor cake, I like chocolate and he likes vanilla.

Place for reception check
Food check
Tributes/toasts check

Everything was practically finish, I just need Bryan to run through thus to see if he wants to make any changes, because it's also his wedding as well, he hardly has time though, I just wonder if this is how its gonna be, when we vet married. Him not being at home often, or not giving me enough attention. Am not gonna lie, I do love attention, I always cry when I don't get, just like a did with my parents. They would always ignore me, and I would cry, I always hated them when they gave Kaitlyn all the attention, but I never hated her, because she didn't turn out to be spoil, and I love her more than anything.

Later on that day I was in our- yes I know it sounds so weird, but I can't help it, I mean he did say what's his is mine, even his friend in his pants.
I was watching Beauty and the Beast, yeah I love this show, and Katherine is beautiful and hot with Vincent, but Gabe is literally a sycopath, I mean he literally thinks that he's doing all this because he wants to protect her from Vincent and he wants her to love him, I feel sorry for him but Vincent is her soulmate not him, just like how Bryan is my soulmate, come to think of it I think... I might love Bryan.

Holy shit, I'm in love with Bryan Miller!

I don't think am ready to tell him that though, I want to see where this thing of our is going, I want to be able to know I can trust him more.

I heard a the door  as knocked and i muffled a soft 'come in' and it creaked open, and a head popped in and it was no other than Katey. "Hey" I said smiling.

"Hey, can I come in?" She asked.

"Yes, of course come in" I said smiling widely while I pat on the bed gesturing for her sit, we haven't had a girl talk or some girl time alone since we came here. She sat on the bed. "So what's up?" I asked curiously.

"Can't I visit my pretty sister" she asked just smiling at me and I raised an eyebrow.

"Its about Brandon isn't it?" I asked trying to fought back a smile.

"How did y-" I waved her off.

"Oh please from we got here you never left Brandon side, its like you too are glued together or y'all are magnets or something" I said and she looked down guilty.

"Am sor-" she went to apologize but I stopped her.

"No its fine, no one really like have time for me... anymore" I said laughing  lightly, not wanting to make her feel more guilty, but I guess that didn't happened.

"Rose, I didn't-" I cut her off again.

"Its okay, Kate, you have a life to live am not gonna take that away from you, I'd be selfish to do that" I said in a hurried tone.

"I know you love attention" I starred at her in shock.

"H-h-how did you know that?" I asked her in bewilderment.

She waves me off, "oh please I know you better than you do your self and Brandon loves the attention too" she said smirking "but" she continues, "maybe your right... it's just that it my first relationship and am afraid I'll mess this up by in wrong word or step, and I really like Brandon, some and I thinking am falling for him, not matter how hard I try not to" she said a little bit sadly.

"That's the same thing that's happening to me, but I can't bring myself to tell him the three words, yet" I said confusingly

"Same here" Katey said.

"Yeah...anyways what were you coming to tell me?" I asked, while closing my wedding binder. I looked up at her and saw her blushing hard. "Kate?" She looked up at me, "why are you blush red mad?" I asked clearly looking confusingly.

"Umm...how do I say this " she said looking nervous.

"Just spit it out, I won't judge you" I said honestly.

"Okay, okay, so...umm" I was growing irritated.

"Spit it out Kaitlyn!" I yelled

"Brandon and I went to hang out, and he fingered me!" She yelled.

I was so shocked, and surprised, but somewhat happy. "Oh my god, my baby felt what it's like for fingers to be up in her pussy!" I said loudly, while giggling, her eyes widen at my statement, she looked bewildered. Then she started giggling as well.

"You naughty girl" she said.

"So tell me did you like it?, did you cum?" I asked wanting to know everything.

"Yes and yes" she answered blushing.

I couldn't contain the squeal that left my mouth, then it hit. "Did you say that you guys went to hang out, that means..." I said and she blushed even more.

"Yes, he did it in public, at the park" she answered.

"OMG!" I squealed loudly, and started to jump up and down and she he had to cover her ears.

"Jesus woman, sit the the hell down!" She screamed.

"I can't, am too excited" I said happily. "Your finally going to get laid" I said while touching her cheek, and she looked at weirdly. "Your growing up so fast" I said and tears started to form in my eyes, but they never fell.

She laughed, "what are you, my mom" she laughed and I just slapped her on her arm playfully.

We continued talking for the rest of the rest of day, it was was amazing, for the first time in a long time I've had a sisterly talk.

Night fell, and Bryan came home, he wasn't as exhausted as the other nights. He was on his computer doing some office work in his study, I though, why not pay him a visit. I went up the stairs until I reached his office, and I knocked on the door twice and her soft 'come in'. I opened it and went inside and closed it behind me.

"Hey baby, want brings you up here?" He asked with a sexy smirk on his face.

"Oh shut up, get your mind out the gutter" I said trying to sound irritated.

"How can I?, when your so hot, but sadly I have work so I can't do anything to you" he said licking his lips and I just rolled my eyes.

"Any ways, here's our wedding binder, you should look into it and see if you want anything changed" I said handing him the book but he didn't take it, I looked at him in confusion.

"Why?" He furrowed his eyebrows and asked.

"What do you mean by 'why'" I said doing my fingers into quotation marks.

"I mean why do I have to look at it when you and Kate already did everything" I looked at him with a hurt expression.

Did our wedding mean that little to him. Ouch that hurt Bryan.

"Its your wedding too Bryan, you have a say as well" I said in a soft tone, trying to hide the hurt in my voice.

"Yeah, but I can't I'm busy" he said, while looking back st his laptop.

"With what?" I asked, trying not to cry.

"Work" he said in a 'duh' tone.

"When will you have time?" I press.

"I don't know yet, Victoria, its just a dumb wedding, stop pressuring me!" He shouted at me.

Am not gonna lie, that did hurt

"Am I pressuring Bryan" I asked in a soft tone while the tears started to fall.

"Stop fucking crying, you always put on your innocent act, to make me give up, so don't fucking try to be smart!" He shouted at me again, but I could stop it the tears were falling uncontrollably. "It's bad enough my work is killing me, but want me to give you all my attention" he said.

Is that what he thinks, that I want all his attention, I just want him to at least take part in his wedding.

I listened while he continued, "hell am not even suppose to show you affection, at all" he said furiously. "You want me to make time for you every day...well grow the fuck up Victoria, your not a child, you fucking adult for god sakes!" He shouted, and I flinch this time, his voice scared me.

So this must be why his a Mafia King, they must fear him.

I walked up to his door and stop  when I heard him, "where the fuck are you going!?" he asked in a dangerous tone.

"Some where, that you won't her my speak or laugh to bother you, because you want to work, some where I won't pressure you" I said and walked out, and I heard a faint 'good'.

Ouch

I walked down stairs to find every one - Caroline and her husband Mike, he and Bryan are best friends and also his right hand man, Brandon and Kaitlyn and dad. They look at me with pity eyes and sorry one too.

I guess they heard what a happened upstairs.
Katey came walking up to me, "Rose am so..." I cut her off with my hand.

"Change off plans, I don't want a planned wedding, I want a private one with us family" I said

"WHAT!!" they all screamed

"Darling think about this"  dad said.

"Yeah Rose think about it" Katey said.

"Am sorry guys, I've made my decision, Bryan clearly said he doesn't want a big wedding, hell he doesn't even want a wedding" I said a hurtfully and angry.

"He's just mad" Mike said

"Yeah am pretty sure, you don't scream in Carol's face like that" yeah I gave her a nickname.
At this Mike held his head down.
I walked up and kissed dads cheek and walked away.

I made my way to the library, it was big and amazing, it always made me feel happy, even when am not even sad. I took a book it called, The Girl That Wants Loved, I went to sit on the couch and I started to read, until I fell asleep, with a question on my mine.

Why can't I be loved

Hey guy am sorry about this chapter, I was so angry today. I just took it all out on the chapter.

Soweey guys. :)

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