"Before Alice got to Wonderland,

she had to fall pretty hard

down a deep hole."

-unknown

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ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟚𝟙

𝕀𝕟𝕗𝕚𝕟𝕚𝕥𝕖𝕝𝕪 ℍ𝕠𝕣𝕟𝕪

!! MATURE CHAPTER!!

I'm pretty sure I should be dead right now.

"I suspect it's a small dose of wolfsbane and scopolamine. Both of them mixed together has the ability to change a person's personality completely. But in your case, it looks like it was given for you to be more submissive, as the scopolamine dosage is slightly higher."

Scopo-What?

Before I could express my thoughts out loud, I heard a loud growl from the corner of the room.

"Must be that bitch Reya that attacked you."

I rubbed the scar under my dress subconsciously as I contemplated the thought. The doctor's voice broke me out of my thoughts.

He was talking to Kai. "You've seen her since she was a little, yes?"

He nodded.

"Did you notice any changes in her personality?"

Instead of just answering, Kai leaned over, grabbing the knife attached to his belt and throwing it at my head in a split second.

I flinched, bracing for the impact. With a thud, the knife hit the back wall of the clinic, missing my head by just a few inches. Kai looked at the doctor, like him narrowly setting me up for a meeting with death, was the answer in itself.

"She has the reflexes of a goldfish."

"I do not!" I burst out, huffing and folding my arms across my chest.

"Plus, she acts like a thirteen-year-old with the IQ of a peanut."

I am so not a peanut.

"Zaire trained her to be one of his best assassins, with an aim that never failed her, and reflexes that were ten thousand times more than that of a cheetah."

"I myself have witnessed her training with men five times her size, taking down eighteen wolves at once, and scaling the agency's headquarters in the midst of a storm. And look at her now."

I stopped picking the lint on my dress as I gained the attention of both men. "What?" I asked, defensively.

"And she suffers from PTSD too, from what I've seen."

The doctor hummed, satisfied with the amount of information he was getting, as he assessed my condition mentally. "I'm afraid it is what I predicted it to be. Be it the rogue or someone else, you have been poisoned. And I'm afraid you will never be the same."

I gasped, as my mind suddenly came up with a theory. "What if it's Kane? He's been injecting me with some weird purple liquid since day one." can I have some

The doctor laughed as he waved my concern away. "Oh, that was just a little something I gave him to help you adjust."

"Adjust?" I frowned at him.

"The Alpha was afraid you would reject him, Luna. Especially after everything that had happened."

He walked closer, and knelt down, holding my good hand in his wrinkled ones. "You may not know this, but he has been getting daily doses to contain his wolf too. He's doing that for you. For his mate."

For me?

Guilt immediately flooded my heart as I realized what a bad mate I was for blaming Kane.

"For now, this is all I can recommend." He handed me a pretty ordinary looking brown bottle. "Take a tablespoon of it every day. Although I'm sad to tell you, you will not ever have the same personality that you used to have, there is still a slight chance of you getting back a part of yourself if you find yourself in a difficult situation that you had faced earlier."

Numbly, I took the medicine, blankly staring at its label. I heard paper tearing, as I saw the doctor write down my prescription on it. He handed the pink slip to me too, informing me of its side effects, like mood swings and other things that I currently didn't give a shit about.

Kai laid a hand on my shoulder, as he gently led me away from the overly clean room. "Why did you not call Kane?" I asked, feeling like I'd just lost a part of myself with the new information I had gained.

Kai ran a hand through his dark hair, stretching out his neck in the process. I found myself distracted by the long smooth skin covering it.

I want to lick it.

Wait what?!

I shook my head twice, clearing my head of the random thought. But it was too late. Kai had already seen me practically getting horny over his neck.

He grinned as he slapped my back. "Oh, Kenzo was right. He was the one that suggested to take you to the pack doctor. He did mention that another side effect is feeling overly horny. Though he did have much less professional ways for testing it."

I blushed as I remembered the way I had just lost control in front of a complete stranger.

Great. So that means I going to be horny twenty four seven.

"Which I'm sure Kane will be glad to hear." He whispered and got the reaction that he wanted when my face lit on fire.

"So does that mean I'll practically get turned on by anything now?"

He winked as he said, "Yes."

"Who'll get turned on by anything now?"

I swirled around, as a  familiar mouthwatering scent filled the corridor. "Come here, love." He held his arms out wide, welcoming me into his arms.

When did his voice get so deep?
Has he always been this hot?
Oh god, I just want him to drag me to our bedroom an-

I jumped as I heard a low growl echo through the hallway, and ringing through my ears. Blinking twice, I focused on Kane's face, only to notice his eyes had gone completely black, with his fists clenched at his sides.

Moisture pooled in my underwear as I felt the power and dominance radiating off his body. My clothes suddenly felt incredibly tight and suffocating, as I squirmed uncomfortably where I stood.

I want him.

Now.

Before I could even blink, Kai was slammed against the wall with so much force, the plaster crumbled under his form.

"What. Did. You. Do." Kane growled out, looking terrifyingly calm. His hands tightened around Kai's neck, as he too remained calm and collected as if he wasn't even dying.

Ok wow. This is like the most peaceful fight ever.
Except for the fact that one's strangling the other.

"N-nothing." Kai said, voice low, silently gasping for air.

"Then how does that explain the fact that she looks close to being in her heat? I can smell her arousal, Beta, don't think I'm stupid."

Wait, wait a second. He could smell it?

I shrunk down on myself, silently hoping both of them would forget my presence if I made myself small enough.

But watching Kai slowly turn blue, made me do the shame walk towards them. I laid hand on Kane's forearm, noticing the veins and sinewy muscle underneath it. He turned to me, pinning me under his heated gaze. I blushed, as I resisted the urge to just float away from existence. "Kane, please. He'll explain. Let him go."

With a snarl, Kane relaxed his hand, as Kai dropped to the floor with his hands on his knees.

I squeaked in surprise as Kane wrapped his thick arm around my waist and pulled me to his chest. I gasped as I felt him pressing against my back. "We'll take care of your problem, later." He said, huskily.

Kai was up and leaning against the wall by then, his leg quivering slightly under him. Fearing another unexpected attack of the highly aroused Alpha, he quickly explained my situation.

Kane's arms turned tighter and tighter until it seemed like he was going to squeeze my intestines out. "Kane. Your arms." I gasped out.

Immediately he let go, as he bent down and held the end of my dress to lift it up. I moved away in protest, but he held me in place with one arm, lifting the dress completely until it bunched up around my waist.

I blushed as I used my palms to cover up my embarrassing choice of underwear, and the fact that there was now a damp patch on it. Kane growled lowly, as he gently held my palms away.

But he wasn't looking at the fact that I had chosen this one day to wear my girliest underwear lined with ribbon and even a bow on the front. He was looking at the now darkening bruise where he had held me too tight.

Growling at Kai to look away, he whined as he placed gentle kisses on the bruising, and rubbed at it with his thumb like it was going to fade away.

I would rather be rubbed-

His thumb suddenly pressed sharply into me as I jerked in surprise. "I can hear your thoughts, Phira."

Wait so you can hear this?

He nodded as he absentmindedly continued rubbing the darkened area. I watched in a trance, as his thumb drew slow circles, coiling and coiling its way down until he reached dangerously close to forbidden territory.

From the corner of my eye, I noticed Kai slowly backing down the hallway. When he saw me looking at him, he held both his thumbs up, and winked, disappearing as he turned the corner.

Focusing back into my little situation, I quivered as his finger remained on that one spot, unmoving. Not moving closer, or farther apart. "Tell me, love. What do you want?"

You.

He shook his head, as his finger moved closer. "I need a verbal answer."

I blushed.
I can't say it out loud!

Kane breathed out on me, as I shivered. "Tell me what you want, love, and I will give it to you."

Nope. No thank you. I do not want to tell it out loud.

"So be it." He stood up with a smirk as he smoothed down my dress back over my legs. I whimpered as the dull ache continued to throb in me.

I looked after him, as he walked away with infuriating calmness.

"You." I mumbled out.

He paused, as his back tensed in surprise. He turned his head slightly to the side. "What did you say?"

Rubbing my feet on the floor, I spoke a bit louder. "I want you, Kane."

All I saw was a flash of clothing before I was pressed incredible close to Kane. I moaned loudly into his mouth as he devoured me with his lips, kissing, dominating, making me know I was his. Both of us synchronized, as the fire burned deeper and stronger within me.

I whimpered, as I wanted him right then. "Hold on." Kane whispered before I felt him running at break-neck speed. On the way, I blushed, as I caught a glimpse of Daisy looking at me knowingly with a glint in her eye.

Seconds later, we were in the bedroom, Kane threw me onto the bed, as he hurriedly pulled his shirt and pants off in one swift movement.

And let me say, I couldn't have been any more turned on, as I admired his muscled body walking towards me in just boxers. Grabbing my ankles, he pulled me towards him in one fluid motion.

With a tear and a rip, my dress was off too, as I laid there, exposed and feeling incredibly vulnerable.

Vulnerable.

Exposed.

Taken.

Kane must've sensed the direction of my thoughts, as he gently eased my chin up. "I will never. And I mean never. Allow my wolf to do that to you, Phira. I love you."

And despite his sincere words, I couldn't find it in me to say it back. And I felt horrible.

He didn't seem mad. Just disappointed and sad. He looked down apologetically, his head hung low.

But my brain honestly couldn't care any less at this point, as my body started rubbing itself against him. "Kane, please." I whispered frantically.

"I'll prove myself to you. Show you how much I love you." He growled, and before I could even think about what he'd said, my underwear was shoved to the side, his finger buried deep within me, as I moaned uncontrollably. His thumb lied on my nub as he rubbed it back and forth, back and forth.

My back arched, and my mouth opened in silent ecstasy, when he inserted another finger, pumping it in and out faster and faster, while the knot in me grew tighter and tighter, until it felt like I was going to evaporate from the pleasure.

Within seconds, I clenched around his fingers repeatedly, screaming as he kept on the rhythm, not slowing down until I completely come down from my high.

He removed his fingers with a squelch, as I laid there out of breath, heaving  and exhausted, but sated.

Kane scooted back on the bed and grabbed my waist, pulling me against him, so that he was spooning me.

I laid there, curled up as I sighed, feeling happiness bloom in my chest. As I snuggled up further against him, I noticed him tense up. "What's wrong?" I tilted my head up to look at him.

He had his eyes shut, teeth clenched together, as he ground out, "Nothing."

It was then that I noticed his fists clenched tightly with his arms wrapped loosely around me, as he cautiously kept his lower body away from me.

Still a bit unsure, I gently scooted closer only for him to move away. "Stop, Phira." He growled.

Squirming in his gold, I twisted myself so that I was facing him. Moving my hand between us both, I found what I had been searching for. An extremely unsatisfied Alpha junior.

I screamed as it twitched beneath my hand. "It's moving!"

Kane chuckled emptily, "That's what it does."

I looked at him unamused. "I know that. But I didn't know it could move move." Shaking my head to empty it out of the new information, I looked at him guiltily. "But do you not need your release? You must be dying by now."

Oh my god. I'm such a shitty mate.

Kane burst out a laugh, "You're not shitty, love. You're perfect. And no. I do not deserve a release after all that I've done to you."

"Please?" I begged. "I feel horrible for just taking advantage of you like that." I palmed the bulge on his pant, slowly inching my way towards his bulge, only for it to be stopped by his hand.

"No, Phira. I don't want to take you for granted. And I certainly do not want you to do something so dirty.

But my mind was already going into overdrive, thinking of what he would feel like in my hands. And before Kane could stop me, I had already pulled down his boxers, grabbing his shaft with my palm rubbing my thumb down it experimentally.

Kane groaned as he twitched in my hand. Hoping for the best, I started rubbing it with my palm, up and down furiously, applying the tiniest bit of pressure in certain areas.

My hand slipped in his pre-cum as I continued to keep up my same pace. Suddenly, he twitched as he pushed at my other shoulder with his hand.

"Mo-ove." Was the only thing he could say before he spurted out ropes and ropes of thick white cum all over my arm and legs.

Before I could even move an inch to clean it off, Kane jumped off the bed, running to the bathroom.

I couldn't help but admire how perfect he looked, even from behind. There was not an inch of him that was out of shape or not covered in hard muscle.

He came back with layers of wet tissue, as my brain was contemplating the chances of round two. Holding my hand gently in his, he slowly wiped off all of the sticky residue, being extra careful with my fractured arm.

Pushing me back with his hands, he silently asked me to lie down, to which I obeyed. I immediately moved to sit up, as I felt the cold tissue against my most sensitive area, but Kane pushed me back down again. "Relax, love. I'm just cleaning you up."

Despite his soothing actions, I could help but remain tense and blush uncontrollably as he focused on the red, swollen and overly sensitive area, being extra careful to clean me up completely. After he was done, he laid a kiss on my stomach, before moving to throw the soiled tissues away in the automated dustbin under his office table.

With a sigh, he jumped back on the bed, pulling me back into our original position. "I love you." He whispered, before laying his chin on the top of my head and falling asleep.

I love you too.

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Okay, okay. Give me a break. It was my first time writing a dirty scene. And I bet I'm going to cringe at it later on.

Now, most of you might understand why Zephira went from being badass to a completely defenseless potato sack.

So, do you forgive Kane for what he did to Zephira?

Zephira is still out of it from the poison in her system, hence the reason why she is so submissive and forgiving.

Going back to the story, I cannot believe we are over six centuries in reads now!! This is the most I've ever reached in reads. Well, it is my first real book after all. But thank you guys, I know I do this way too much, and I know practically every writer says this, but thank you so so so very much for reading my story.

I know it's not the best, as it's still under editing, but thank you anyway.

I'm getting more excited than you guys right now. The story's plot is finally taking place, and I'm squealing.

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