Disclaimer:
Please read the previous chapters before reading this. Don't spoil the fun in reading!
Unedited with very low-quality English. I just wrote it quickly when I got the time and please don't read this if you haven't completed reading the book. If I wait to edit and make the chapter perfect then it would take more months and I didn't want to keep you all waiting anymore.

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Days, weeks, months, and even one year passed. It's really amusing how time flies, especially during this current situation. I clearly remember how it was March 2020, when I wanted my exams to finish off soon and concentrate on Shaym Writing Contest, which I hosted. Later I was extremely excited to read all the entries, and I waited for it to be April so that I could close the contest and start judging your amazing Shaym POV, along with my friends. Argh! Everything is a blur now.

For many, the year 2020 may be the worst and even more? However, for me, it wasn't. The year 2020 gave me many things that I didn't have last year, and I'm thankful for that. I got four awards for my book, all because of my readers, hit 1K followers, and more than that, I got many friends, many people who call me by different names and feel like family. I can't say this whole year was amazing. It never was. But still, I'm grateful for all this. We should be, right? Instead of counting how much this year affected us, there are small moments in every individual's lives that made us feel so content. Everyone would have gone through several trials and hardships but are failing to realize that it was a blessing and not a burden.

And not to forget the greatest blessing I got this year—a new best friend, who was my best friend's best friend. It was my best friend's wedding, and due to this pandemic, none of our gang was present—only two of her close friends, which was Nimra and me. I always get awkward and shy around new people, but with her, I didn't feel like that at all. It felt like meeting someone I know for ages. We stayed the night at my friend's place and discovered that she, too, was a reader on Wattpad.

By hearing that, I got excited, and soon we started discussing the books we read and loved, especially the book Operation Dard and Devotion. Argh, we both started sharing our favorite scenes, our love for Ahsan, how the book ended, and how it could have ended instead of the actual ending and whatnot. Then she told me how she knew I use to write stories from our best friend and she asked about Mr. Cute. And then, I began saying from the start till the end, by showing his photos, the videos, our chats, a few of the Shaym POV you all wrote, and almost everything. It was almost Fajr time when we finally decided to stop our talks and sleep.

We soon exchanged our numbers and started chatting all day, discussing everything possible. It was also the time when I started to edit this book from the start, and she was a great help by sharing her thoughts, and I felt quite different from her and her opinions. Because, unlike the rest of my friends who read and said their views, she was not there in my book and didn't experience it with me. So, it was quite amazing to have her as my best friend and a real-life reader who I could annoy, asking whether I should do this or that. Revealing to her how few of the scenes written in the book were my imagination, showing the video related to the things that happened in the book, and showing her the comments and discussing it, everything felt so good.

It was funny to hear her response after I reveal the particular scene didn't happen, and she would ask, "What? That didn't happen? I thought it was real, and by reading, I didn't even feel like this was an add on masala scene."

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Stepping on this writing platform and writing a book about my life was never my dream. But I did, and I'm grateful to each individual who read and supported me in this journey. For the past few months, I have been super busy applying and trying out all the possible Internships according to the little qualifications I have and detached myself from this platform, and I feel guilty about it.

The platform that gave me numerous friends around the world, the platform which made me feel like I was someone they like, the platform that made my day better whenever I get messages and comments from my virtual friends and readers. And, I abandoned that platform. I feel bad. I feel so bad as it was so unlike me. So unlike me of not responding and engaging with the people who means everything to me, the people I love with all my heart. And, sometimes, I feel I was not meant to be on this platform. I was not meant to be a writer or someone known as I accidentally stumbled upon writing. Nevertheless, here I am, finally writing the end of my book, just for my readers who stayed with me till now.

I remember the day when I revealed to you all that Forbidden Crush was my real story, and it was December 28, 2019. And, now, exactly after one year, I am writing the Epilogue of Forbidden Crush. How funny, huh? The response and reaction I got in Chapter 16, the last one, was incredible, and the response of this one may be the same as that chapter or even not. Who knows.

So, during the end of October, I finally uploaded a 'Ask me Anything' on my Instagram story for my readers after so many ages as I wanted to interact with everyone. Most of the questions were regarding this book, and countless questions were directed towards Shaym. I replied to all of the question and the one's which was related to Shaym, I added on my close friend's story option. How stupid of me, right? I know.

One of my Wattpad friends, Hiba, even asked, "You are uploading all the questions regarding Shaym on close friends lists, huh?"

Yes, because everyone who follows me on Instagram doesn't know that Forbidden Crush is my story, and I didn't even wanted everyone to read about the questions regarding him. I didn't know why.

October was even the month when I started writing this book last year, and this year's October, I hit 1K followers. Everything is still surreal to me. On behalf of hitting this milestone, Rose asked me to write a few facts about Shaym, which I didn't mention in the book as a token of my gratitude. Seeing her request, I pondered for a few minutes. A nice idea, right? Cause I haven't mentioned everything about him in this book as I didn't wanted everyone to know everything about him. Don't ask me why. I just don't know. I felt like keeping some things to myself, without sharing.

But, after seeing all the questions regarding him and for most of them I didn't have an answer, I somehow felt lousy. Bad about writing about him. Writing about him to which I don't have answers. I did plan to write a few facts about him and published it as a new chapter. But, I felt a strange uneasiness on my chest. I felt like I was doing something wrong, writing about him again and again, without his permission or without him knowing. I stopped to respond to the questions from my readers and even didn't mind checking the messages that I received. I was in a strange state of anguish.

Not to lie, I did feel disturbed when everyone asks me about him cause how will I know? We are not friends or something. I didn't feel good whenever everyone used to say as he would come, he would ask your hand in marriage and the rest you know. I just didn't feel good receiving messages and comments like that. Because this book was just meant to be a book, it ended, and so did my crush story. But, I understood that everyone still was not able to accept how the book ended and how they were hoping Shaym would come again in my life, and I gave up trying to explain how real life was different from books and movies.

So now, should I write facts about him or not? I pondered over this for days. And then all these bombarding questions on Shaym. How will I get answers, or will I ever get them?

This restlessness was making me go crazy. Without pondering much, I opened my Snapchat and typed Mr.Cute's name. Yes, he is on my Snap account, as I added him a few months back. We just casually sent snaps, like random photos, just to maintain streaks.

When I clicked on his account, I saw that he hadn't opened my last snap. As it is Snapchat, we can't even know if he was online or not. So, I pondered on what to do. I really didn't know what actually to do as all I want was to just message him and maybe get this anxiety out of my chest. I didn't plan what to message or say and just wanted this feeling to go away from me.

After a few minutes, I again checked his name, and my snap was still not opened. So, I kept my phone aside and decided to sleep. But, sleep was nowhere near me. This strange feeling was killing me. I felt like it was not me or the Naiza I know for the past few months as I didn't even bother about him. I was having the same feeling and disturbance when I last messaged him, asking why he deleted my story.

The next day I forgot about all these, and I didn't even read the rest of the questions which was pending to give the response. At night, all those stupid anxiety came back. Like a lost girl who doesn't know what to do, I opened his name on Snapchat. Just like the previous day, he hadn't viewed my last snap. But today, I didn't want to stop myself. I decided to message him no matter what.

The time was half-past eleven. I was sure that he would not have slept as he was a night owl like me. Gathering up my courage, I slowly typed three letters on my keyboard, pondering for a second on whether I should press the send button on not. I was sure if I pondered for a few more seconds, then I won't be doing this. So, listening to what my heart was saying, I send my message, "Hey."

The moment the message was sent, my heart starting beating so speedy and so fast that I could clearly hear the throbbing sound. I tried to calm myself and was quite horrified to see this unknown state of mine. I promptly clicked on his profile and renamed his current name to SHAYM. Cause I knew if I see his real name, I would be freaking out.

Exactly after two minutes, I heard the sound of the message from Snapchat. Feeling slightly agitated, I swiped down my notification and saw it was a message from him—a message from SHAYM.

As it was Snapchat, we can't read the message from notification like Instagram. I didn't know what to do. So, before he goes offline, I decided to check the message. My heart was still throbbing hard, and my hands were shivering while clicking on the message.

"Ooi." The message read.

It was an informal, friendly, kinda reply, and the moment I saw his message, all my nervousness vanished. And, it vanished like it was never there before.

Okay, Naiza, let's do this.

I wanted to end. I wanted to end everything related to Forbidden Crush. I wanted my readers to understand that all their dreams would never come true, and I wanted to be free from all the Shaym regarded questions. I wanted it all to end and complete this book.

So, listening to what I was feeling inside, all those hundreds of questions roaming in my head, I decided to omit it out.

S H A Y M

Hey

Ooi

So, I just wanted to ask a few things so, bear with me for a few minutes

Hehe

Haha

So, do you like getting famous and all?

No... No... I don't like things like that

Hehe

Now, what will I ask. I was not getting anything to ask, maybe because I have lots of questions. But at that time, my mind went completely blank, and I decided to ask what whatever is on my mind without thinking much.

S H A Y M

Like, people without even seeing you, not knowing who you are and all, and still liking you because of your personality, characteristics, and all.

Do you like something like that?

No... I don't like those things 😅

So, did you understand anything after seeing my behaviour from college?

Eh, from you?

To understand What?

Yeah, anything you came to know or felt

after seeing my stupid acts
😂

No

I didn't feel anything wrong

Ooh

Okay, so, you know, it was college life and like every other college student, I too had a college crush during my first year and it grew at second year

I'm sure even you may have one crush. So, umm, my crush was you. Well, not anymore. It was all in the past

Oh, yeah, its college life

So, it's quite normal

Yeah, exactly!

Our college was amazing, right

Yes, indeed

Haa

So, last year around this time, it was our semester end examination

I was quite bored and decided to something, so started reading books on Wattpad

It is a app to read and write books, it's a really famous app and few books even turned into Netflix movie

So, I even got bored by reading...

What and all are you saying?🤔

Wait karo

Oh, you are saying a story

Okay, continue

So, yeah, I was bored and decided to write a story myself and thought to write my story college, then though to write my crush story and all

So, I yeah, I wrote about them all

Ooh 😅

I know there were no major incidents that happened

But still I wrote all those minor things and all

I have changed all names and all, so that's not a problem

Now my book is nearly 62k reads, I even won 4 awards

So yeah, that's why I asked the question first as you have mny fans around the world

Hehe
🙊

Oh nice

So, what happened to the story?

Did it end

Of coz it ended! Haha

Haa

And, there are many fans means, really many of them who liked my story very much and they are some very obsessed over the story when I revealed it was my real story

Ooh

Yeah, everyone was very eager to find out who I am, your name

and some even asked your photo hehe

Ooh 😅

The main reason why everyone still can't forget about the story is because how it ended as unfinished as it was real story and I even told them it was just a small story

I told them I don't have any crush on you now

So there is Nothing more in the story, don't get obsessed bla blaa

Ha

Then did the story finish?

Yeah, how would it not end
😂

There is nothing more right

Yea

Nothing is there

Aaah, yes

The story ended

And there are still childish people like this

😅

Hehe

Yes, there is, me
😁😂

And all this time poor me, didn't even know anything about this

Hehe

Now you know
😂

So, why you suddenly decided to say all this

2 days ago I uploaded a story and all the questions which readers asked were directly towards you

And I don't have any answer for that

And also, anyone can read my book and I wont ever know

So I was scared if any of your friends or any one from our college read them and tell to you

So, I wanted you to know before anyone else told you

Ooh

And even one of your fan asked to write few facts about you

I did decide to write then felt bad cause I have already written this much about you without asking your permission

So all these thoughts were disturbing me

I even thought to delete this book many times thinking you may not like if you discover about it

Why?

I don't have a problem

Really?

But I felt scared cause any one from college who reads it will easily understand that the main character is you

Its so easily visible

But you've changed the name and all

So no one will understand

Still, the one with beard and all, ive mentioned everything

Everyone wil understand its you

Hee

Ooh
😬

and I was always sacred whenever I got new readers thinking that might be your friend and always think of deleting my book as I know that you also might not like it

Its your book

you wrote something about your story

why should I have problem or anything with that

eh

if its like that, ill keep the book

Where can I find it?

Huh?

the book? to read?

You can find them from google or from the app

Yes to read

Oh Nononooo

You don't need to read my book

Even I read my book recently and felt like hanging myself

after reading all my stupid antics blaa

Hahaa
😅

There is nothing much in the story as you know nothing special happened

But readers didn't expect it to be a real life that's why

Ooh

Then let me also read

LOL No!

After all its my story

Huh!

Your story?

Its my story :P

Hahaa

😅

but seriously there is nothing in the book, full my foolish things

But still, I can know how I am

You already know how you are

Then why

I mean like, from other person's view I can get to understand

Yeah, that's true

Well, I wrote by hearing about you from other people and from my little observations

Haa

anyway, someone got benefited because of me

good, keep writing

Yes, for that ill be forever grateful to you

I got to know many people and many friends

Aah
😊

Um, wait

you can read just the description of my story

okay send

and pls don't kill me aftr reading it

that ill think after reading

ouch

don't say like this im getting scared

haha

I wrote a small description about you that's all,

don't mind more

(The same screenshot which I sent him)

20 Yearsss??? 🤣🤣🤣😂😂

Hehe

In the story you are in 3rd year and me in 1st year

so yeah

Hahaaa

heee

so wrote any new story?

yes, I have started my 3rd book, but been ages since I last updated

oh, nice

write more and get more success and reach high

For some reason I felt like he should read my book. The way he was encouraging me felt good and sad at the same time. After all, he had asked me enough about the book and I could feel that he wanted to read how I wrote about him. So, I opened Wattpad and copied my link.

S H A Y M

Okay, you can read my book

where can I get it?

ill send you the link

you can click that and read

ok

how many chapters are there?

16.

no 17

Ow

heheh

so, before reading

I want you to know that I have added 3 4 scenes which never happened so don't mind that

haha

ok

also, in between chapters I have asked questions like why you did that why you did this blaa bla blaa

so don't mind that either

Aah 😅

and yeah one more thing

yes?

I address you by another name and

not your real name nor name in the book

what is it?

um

it is, Mr Cute

Wow 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Hehe cliché I know

but we all call you by that name and never calls your real name

we?

I mean my friends, we call you Mr Cute evrytime

I named it during 1st year

so yeah its childish

Haha

(link attached sent)

how will I get it?

you can click and the book will appear

can you see the book?

Yes, I can see

below there will be table of contents

from there you can see different chapters

can you see them?

yes

okay ill try to read when I get the time and then will say

hee oka

and be ready to give replies to my readers

hehe
😝

hahaa

okay then bye

im not disturbing you anymore

if I stay more, ill keep asking you things

No, its okay

I don't really mind

if I get company with someone ill be cool with them and can chat till anytime

oh

but I may keep on saying things hehe

bye

bye

Assalamu alaikum

Va alaiku musalam

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Phew! Man, what was that! What and all have I said.

I can't believe myself on what I have done. SHAYM KNOWS EVERYTHING NOW AND I TOLD HIM ALL OF IT.

Wow Naiza.

After that chat I was 100% sure that all my crush on him had vanished cause, if I still has anything towards him, I would never have got this courage to say all these things to him very coolly and openly.

I immediately messaged Talha, but he was not online. The time was two in the morning, he might be sleeping. But, I really wanted to say these things to him now, I even messaged Nimra, even she was not there. I really wanted to share this incident with someone.

Exactly after a few seconds, I got a notification from Instagram, it was a message from Rose. I responded back instantly and told to her what happened.

"Rose, he told he would come back and say his feedback after reading. Haha, he is not going to come back, right."

"Well, he should give feedback."

The next day, Talha messaged and asked what happened but I was not in a mood to say to him as I wanted to share it at that time and now, I have forgotten half of it. As he knows me too well, he kept on asking what it is and he knew it was something related to Shaym. So, I called him and narrated the whole story for one whole hour.

"Wow, Naiza, you told him everything! I-I can't believe."

"Even I can't believe that I told him everything."

"Girl, where did you get this much courage?"

"I don't know Talha, I just got the guts and told whatever was on my mind. And now I know that I have completely moved on from him."

"But Talha, I just realized something stupid."

"Nothing surprising. What is it?"

"Well, we texted on Snapchat, right? So, the chat would disappear within 24 hours. The link to my book will also go so he might not be able to read them."

"Oh no! But he may read." He stated.

"But Talha, he told he will read when he gets the time. I know he is busy and the chat will go within hours. He will not be reding them."

"Do you wanna bet? He will read your book. I'm sure about it Naiza." Talha stated proudly.

"Why a bet? Its evident that he will not get time to read and when he gets the time, the link would have disappeared."

"Or you try messaging him again." Talha suggested.

"No! I will not message him anymore. Let him read or not."

"He will. Up for a bet?"

"Okay! Fine."

We ended our call by betting and I promised myself to not message him again asking about the link or anything. But, for how long is the bet valid? How long should I wait for him to read and will he even read it or will I be the one who ends up messaging him again?

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ASSALAMU ALAIKUM/HEY!

Sorry for writing this after ages, and for stopping the chapter here. Shower with your response so that I will upload the rest soon. There are a few more things but I felt like updating today as I got a little time.

And sorru for the errors and poor English. I had to upload it for you soon. Now, share your thoughts so I'll get motivated to write the remaining and final part. 

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