It has been more than two weeks that incident happened, seeing the boy. But, I didn't see him again from college or I didn't bother sharing about this thing to my friends. But, something in me was making me a disturbing feel.

I was getting restless! I don't even know why the Jahannam (hell) I was feeling this way and was not able to sleep. The reason why I didn't tell this to my friends about seeing that boy from college was that I know it's wrong. It was haram! Astaghfirullah, why did I even stare like that to a non-mahram person? It was so unlike me. Subsequently, I gave up attempting to sleep, promptly woke up from the bed and took out my diary. My best friend since 7th grade. All my tremors like happiness, sorrow, loneliness, anxiety are shared in my diary, basically everything. Surely who wouldn't be better than a diary at 2 am?

Dear Diary,

2:00 am

I feel so different. This feeling is so new to me, and I should not be feeling like this. This is so wrong. What happened to me? I was not like this. I know very well, what is halal and haram, and this feeling is so haram Astaghfirullah.

I saw a pretty charming and handsome boy who was cute, had a perfect smile with a beard on his small face. He has had the best smile plastered on his face, which indicated that he was happy and enjoying the day. I did not tell my friends about him. Will they tease me? Should I talk about my little, different feeling or I don't know what it is, towards the boy whose name I don't even know? I probably won't be seeing him again. I should shut these feelings now and probably go to sleep. Okay, my diary, that's it.

Goodnight

Shutting my diary gently and keeping it back to my wardrobe, I decided to sleep. To my surprise, I tended to my dreamland as soon as I slumbered.

I abruptly woke up after having a very dreadful dream, immediately glanced at the clock, and it was 4:30 am. I got up and went to the washroom, took my ablution, and brought out my prayer mat and prayed 2 rakah thahjud prayer(the prayer which is prayed in between one-third of the night). I raised my hands to Allah SWT and asked for forgiveness for all the bad things I have done intentionally and unintentionally. I kept thinking about that stranger, and pordered maybe that was the reason why I had a bad dream. My Allah was showing me that this was all wrong and that I should not fall into shaitan's trap.

Soon the Fajr azan(call for prayer) was called and, after praying, I thought of reading Surah Yaseen, as this surah is the Heart of the Quran. After reading the Quran and dhikr, I eventually felt some peace.

"Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do heart find peace" [13:28]

At least today, I have to reach college early. There are two more hours for me to get ready for college. So, instead of sleeping, which is what I always do, I thought of taking a shower to freshen up from my morning drowsiness and study my notes as exams were nearing.

After the shower, I felt so refreshing. Changing into my usual dress, grabbing my Abaya, I hurriedly went downstairs to see my mom because I unusually get ready on time, and was sure that she would be astounded.

"Mmaa... what's for breakfast? It smells too good," I asked while entering the kitchen, and there, I saw my not so small, little sister, Nuhma, eating delicious sandwiches!

Mmm, I just love them.

My mom makes everything in her own newly found various recipes, which makes all her food so delicious and finger-licking good. I snatched one slice of sandwich from my sister immediately, as my mouth was watering after heeding her eating.

"Naizaa, first wash your hands and then come to eat it," Mmaa said as she saw me devouring her food without washing my hands.

"Mmaa, she was playing on her phone the whole night!" Nuhma said.

Argh, this girl is so jealous of me whenever I play on my phone because she does not have a mobile phone as she is just an 11th-grade girl. I presume she saw the light from my room at midnight.

"Naiza, how many times do I have to tell you not to play on your phone till midnight and were you chatting with boys? It is very wrong and you know it very well" Mma said, after hearing Nuhma's jealous lies. The truth was different, but I did not want to clear the misunderstanding as I don't want to reveal why I was wide awake last night.

"What's this fuss early in the morning? Naiza and Nuhma, don't talk while eating food," Baba said as he came dressed up in a navy blue shirt and black pants, all set to go to his office.

We all soundlessly ate food, and I got up from my seat to go after finishing my breakfast. Then, Baba stated that he would drop me at the bus stop so that I don't have to walk there. Well, all in all, today was a great start.

Then, it happened, once in a blue moon reaching college early. All my classmates were so startled to see me early in the class. "So Naiza, what's up? All good?" Shifa asked with a concerned face.

"Yes, Shifa bro, I'm good!" I replied and thought why was everyone acting like they've witnessed a ghost.

Classes went pretty well, and it was time for the lunch break. Phew! Finally, getting a break from those tedious lectures. Today, we decided to eat lunch from a cafe near our college.

We were walking towards the main entrance gate of our college while Jina was cracking some lame jokes. She laughed at her own jokes, which made us all laugh, and we were all laughing a little too blatant. Which was loud enough for people surrounding us to hear.

Abruptly, we heard a boy say, "These girls are too loud!" We all glanced at the boy's gang, who were all sitting on their bikes, at the same time. They were all our seniors as the seniority authority was shown on their posture.

They were about seven or eight people on their bikes. All their faces were new to us.

All of a sudden, glancing through the gang of boys, I saw a similar face which held an emotionless look on his face which slightly made him look rude. On spur of the moment, I remembered that the face is the same face which I was pondering the previous nights. He was busy speaking with his other friends and did not even see us as his gaze was not in our direction. At the same time, his friends were staring at us for laughing aloud.

"Hey, Naiza. Who are you gawking at? They are our seniors. Don't gaze at them like that, or they will call us all over there, make us do some task, and will rag us. Let's go," Issa said as she caught me staring at the cute, expressionless boy.

We all entered the cafe, ordered food differently according to our cravings and likes.

"So Naiza, who was that boy?" Issa questioned again. I tried to disregard it, but my friends, they being the best, were never going to let it slide.

"Which boy?" Jina asked this time. Presume I have no other option, so it's time to spill it out I thought and decided to share it with them.

I narrated the victory celebrations day events to them calmly on when I saw him and on how I felt him cute and adorable. Well, to say they were astounded would be an understatement, but the twist was that they were now determined to find out who this Mr Cute was.

After reaching back to college, we saw them relaxing on their bikes in the same position, but I snubbed him and paced whilst my friends were secretly checking him out.

"Naiza, he is not that cute, and I don't like his beard," Jina stated as she doesn't like or prefer guys with a beard. Ignoring her comment, we proceeded towards our classroom.

Later, after the class was over, my crazy girl's gang went to one of our other best friends, Talha. They asked him about the cute boy with a beard, and Talha instantly replied that senior was from the Computer Science Department, which was in the backside of our college where we never went. It was easy for Talha to identify that senior because he was too cute and charming for everyone to notice him especially with a dashing beard, carried by the perfect smile, and his name was Shaym Muhammed.

"Shaym..." Without my knowledge, it slipped out from my mouth, and a smile formed on my lips.

Assalamu Alaikum

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