Expressing my feelings to the others is rare. I get uncomfortable when they want me to talk about my feelings.

It's just..weird, you know?

I looked at the table the others and I usually sit at. I started to get nervous when I realize Jungkook was the only one there.

I pulled out a chair with my shaky hands and sat down. I looked somewhere else, not wanting to make eye contact with him.

"Yah, we haven't talked for awhile", he said.

I looked up at him and blushed by seeing him giving me a soft smile.

"A-Ah..yeah..", I said awkwardly.

He chuckled and showed his eye smile.

"I'm about to go order a drink, did you want anything?"

I shook my head no.

"Alright", he said with his eye smile again.

Stop playing with my heart like this.

Jimin soon came and sat next to me. He greeted me with a bright smile.

"Hello my Taehyungie", he said and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I chuckled by the way he was behaving.

"Alright love birds, stop it", Jungkook said while sitting in front of us.

"Where's Lisa?", Jimin asked.

"She went back to Thailand, she's coming back next week...I already miss her"

My heart sank a little by what he said.

"You ordered without me?", Jin said.

Jungkook looked away while sipping his coffee. Jin groaned and sat next to me.

"Have you been eating well?", Jimin asked me while clingy onto my arm.

I nodded with a smile. He pulled my arm up and wrapped his hand around my wrist to measure it.

"I couldn't do this before, my hand is also small, now I can wrap it around your wrist...", he said sadly,

I pulled my arm from him and laughed awkwardly.

"You haven't been eating, huh?", Jin said.

"W-What do you mean? You see me eat"

The truth is, I throw it up later. I wanna be Lisa's size. My thighs are still thick..which I hate.

"I'm gonna go buy you a sandwich", Jungkook said and left.

The thought of Jungkook caring about me makes me happy.