I had a dream that Lisa was pregnant with Jungkook's kid. I didn't know how to react...happy? Sad? Excited?

I tried not to think about the dream again, but it keeps coming to my mind.

What if that actually happens?

I should be happy for them...right? I don't want the two of them upset because of me. Being upset because they had a kid? I can't think like that. That's just messed up.

You know, sometimes I wish I was a girl. Girls can look pretty and cute just by wearing skinny jeans and a shirt or wearing makeup.

I'm just...something else.

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"You've been ignoring us lately", Jin said.

I didn't say anything. He sat down next to me and let out a sigh.

"R-Really? I just hanged out with you guys like two days ago"

"Yeah, but you were quiet"

"...That doesn't mean anything"

"That means a lot of things"

I bit my lip from nervousness. He gave me an intense stare...I wanted to run to my bedroom so bad.

"Y-You know..it's getting late-"

"It's only 8pm, Tae what's going on?"

What am I suppose to tell him? Say that I have feelings for Jungkook and is trying to look like Lisa? No, it's not that easy.

If I don't tell him anything, I know he won't leave me alone because that's how he is.

"I-I...well I'm upset about all of us going to different universities", I said.

He gave me a sad smile and scooted closer to me. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder and brought me close to him.

"I know, I'm upset too"

I let out a sigh and leaned into the warmth Jin was giving me.

"But let's not think about that, let's spend time with the others more, make more memories before the time comes"

I nodded with a smile.

Will it hurt more to leave Jungkook? Or stay and see him happy with someone else.