I looked at myself in the mirror and stared at the outfit I was wearing. I wore the same looking jeans and shirt Lisa was wearing the other day.

I sighed and sat down while still looking at myself in the mirror.

Why can't I have a body like her?

I try my best to lose weight by taking different diet pills or even skipping meals. I know it's not healthy...but I want a body like Lisa....

My friends say I've gotten skinnier, but I don't see it. Every time I take a bite of food, I feel like I gained ten pound.

I walked to my closet and changed into a different outfit. I wore the same looking shorts and shirt Lisa wore.

I'm not being..weird.

It's just..Lisa is perfect. I want to be her, I want to take her place, I want to know what it feels like to be in a relationship with Jungkook.

Being hugged and kissed by him. I want to know what it feels like being loved by him.

I changed into my regular clothes and plopped myself on the bed. I wrapped myself with the blanket and moved a little for a more comfortable position.

Being alone here in my room is...scary. This is where my thoughts start to come in. Thinking about everything Lisa and Jungkook do together.

My heart started to feel heavy by the thought of the two texting each other happily when they're not together.

I bet they're texting each other right now.

What am I saying? Of course they are, they're boyfriend and girlfriend.

You know what, I've tried my best to forget about those two. I've tried to move on, but my mind always thinks about Jungkook.