Hey Willow. 

This note is super late and I'm sorry for that. I've had a lot of trouble on Wattpad, with people on here, with friends we shared and those who i thought were mine and i never got a chance to tell you properly how much you meant to me. 

We met in the conversation of a book for lgbtq youth and honestly speaking, both willows were probably my favourite people on there(hush). I came to you for advice on various things and you gave me comfort when I needed it. I once stayed up late talking to you about gay stuff and it was fun. You told me about facetiming your crush and that was really sweet. you spoke about your eds and other issues we shared and they made me feel validated, considering that i was someone who would pass off most of my feelings as overdramatic.

remember when we all fantasized about Sweden? i would love to do it in real life but it would be awful without my favorite coffee gay maze runner. you never came to realise that you're so fucking strong, beautiful, smart and you're literally perfect. you could do wonders. it hurts to see an angel leave. you had so much love from so many people. I'm sorry you felt as though you couldn't get through what you were going through. I'm terribly sorry. 

I have a lot of guilt and regret. I regret not being there for you like you were there for me. I regret not talking to you more. I regret not reminding you how wonderful you are like I do to my other Wattpad friends. I regret associating with someone who disrespected you online no matter how lovely you were to me. I regret your death deeply. I wish I did something about it.

I truly don't know what happens after death but if you're logging into Wattpad from the afterlife I can tell you what's going on. After you left, my Wattpad life went horribly. A club I thought I felt safe in abandoned me when I needed help the most. My own club had to be deleted too. 

But fuck the negative side, I've started a better and safer life with my online friends who I trust and genuinely care about. If you want to know what's happening in real life, my grades have gotten a lot better from last term. Although I haven't come out to my family yet they're super supportive of the lgbtq community! I'm still confused about my career but I'll definitely go for president like you said teehee. My friends are super supportive and I almost beat someone up for saying a slur. One of my friends got into a relationship. I give it a month max. also, I'm going to be a published author soon on kindle! I'm beyond excited. 

Nevertheless Willow as you said I'm still acting like king julien 

But remember this angel, no matter where you are you will still live on in our hearts and I hope you're happy no matter what, sail those galaxies and spread your luminescence everywhere as you do. rest in peace. 

lots of love, 

hatter.