I sat on the couch alone and tried and afraid . I was done I didn't want to live anymore. I went to the kitchen and pulled out a knife and jumped up on the counter and sat it beside me . Want else to I have to do before I go . I was shaking. " I'm sorry " I whispered tears where running down my face and mascara stained me pink cheeks .
I put the knife to my wrist but didn't cut I just sat it there .  I screamed. There was a loud thud and Dallas ran through the door . I hadn't even noticed he was trying to get in .

"Wtf are you doing .... Wtf " he ripped me off of the counter and throw the knife across the room ( in a safe direction) . " Kid what are you doing " he had his hands on my shoulders and was lightly shaking me . " I can't" I screamed it . " You cant what " Dallas was still holding you " kid you can't do this okay " he let go of you and started pacing back and forth " you can't do this to me . What where you thinking. Why ! " . I crumbled down to the ground . " Don't hurt me like that DONT! " he was yelling . He took a deep breath and knelt down beside me . " Listen girl , I- I really love (his voice was quivering ) you and if you take your life . It means you don't love me and I know you do " he wasn't yelling anymore. He put his head in my neck and hugged me we're still on the ground " yeah Dallas I do I really do " .

For anyone have those thoughts . I'm always here . Don't do it remember your friends, parents future children. You know you aren't only hurting your self your tons of other people don't be selfish and live out your life . Dedicated to one of my good friends !

💛Johnny we couldn't get along with out you !!!