Monday Mess.

"everything is not okay!" Tord screeched.

"why do you keep putting yourself through this bullshit Thomas?" He whined, in an attempt to change the boys mind, he pulled and tugged on his sleeve . Tom did not respond.

"dont you dare turn that fucking corner young man!" Tord scolded .

Tom stuck his tounge out and continued walking, he turned the forbidden corner. Tord could notice his shivers and shakes.

Tord huffed.

'Why does this happen.'

~earlier~

Tord woke up, he ate his own breakfast at home to have the energy to deal with Sidneys shittalks. he was just about to reach Toms neighborhood, but he wouldn't enter it. He told Tom to stay home. He was sure Namki would allow it.

So why did he find Tom out walking out on the sidewalk by his mailbox?

"Thomas!"

'shittt.' Tom thought.

Tord ran up to him. "I told you to stay home!"

" where are your glasses? "

Tom didnt respond.

"where the fuck are your glasses."

" Im not taking them! " Tom shoved Tord. emotionally hurting him. Tord felt like he was kicked in the gut.

"Why?" Tord didnt understand what Tom was doing.

" Because im tired of hiding! I've done it in middle school, I've had it in elementary. Its too much! "

"High school is the worse place to show yourself!"

" People are irrational jerks! " Tord screeched.

"Look Tord if your there, and if Edd and Matt are there. Everything is okay."

" Everything is not okay! "

Tord caught up to Tom.

"Tom your underthinking this."

" And your Overthinking this! " Tom seemed angered, out of character.

"How do you over think the power of stupid ass teenagers who love to see someone feel like absolute shit Tom?"

" I'll be fine. " Tom huffed.

Tord grabbed his arm.

"Tom im warning you now."

" As open as I am. "

'liar.' Tord thought.

Tord sighed. "I dont recommend it. There'll be teasing. Shoving. all that middle school drama mixed into petty high schoolers."

" Im trying to make sure you dont get hurt Tom. "

Tom had been Looking to the side. He didnt listen to a word Tord said.

"I care about you Tom."

Tom looked up, where he finally noted how stressed and tired Tord seemed.He almost looked like he was on the verge of tears. An absolute fucking mess.

And it was over Tom.

He sighed.

"Im still doing it."

Tord frowned. he looked away.

"Tord."

nothing.

"Tord."

nothing.

"Tordy."

Tord turned and squinted at Tom with a 'what the fuck was that.' face.

"Dont call me that." Tord spat .

He wasnt mad at Tom.
no, never.
he was worried for him.
He knew how people were.
He had seen it all
watched it all.
felt it all.

He didnt want Tom to go through the same emotional abuse.

add the fact that it'll be from Sidney and her tiny minions.

"Tord-"

"You'll be shaking."
" and crying. "

Tom looked up to Tord, who was looking away again.

"You might faint again."

" I didnt-"

"you almost did Tom."

" You know that. " Tords voice cracked.

He sounded
so sad
so worried
so broken.
why?

Tom didnt get it.
One moment he wanted him to show Edd and matt his eyes, the next he wants them covered.
He didnt understand.

He knew Tord was right.
He knew there would be severe bullying.
Tord was Looking out for him.
But why.

He didnt understand.
He didnt-
He didnt want to.
He didnt want to think into it
he thought he would over think it.

No.
He was doing the opposite.
He was jumping into a mess.
A mess.
But
whos one to predict?

"Im doing this Tord."

emptiness.

"Tord?"

nothing
and then
something?
something..
in his eyes?

Tom tried not to be obvious as he looked into them.

Was that.
Was that a flash of red?

pure emptiness could describe Tords expression.

and
something else.
Tom couldn't put his finger on it.
some sort of mix of concern and anger.

along with
calmness.

it was unnerving.

Tord put out his arm.
"Grab on."

Tom did, none the less, confused.

Tord just started walking. he skipped the stopsign.

tom was a bit frightened.

"Tord?"

" Shh. "

They turned into an alley. Where Tord swirved between small building intersections and sidelines. Tom grabbing on for dear life.

Tord turned a corner and they stood at a view of the side of the school. Tord seemed to be scanning for something.

"Tord what are you-"

"Trying to stay away from the rat."

Tom said nothing.

"Im gonna follow you. What do you have today? Music?  Oh you like that teacher, I guess thats good because he can defend you. What do I have? Tech? Oh I get to see Sidney."

A smile began to form on Tord.

it did not look like a good one.

Tom shivered.

Tord turned to him and began to finally show emotion. A worried expression again.

"Are you sure about this?"

Tom nodded.

Tord sighed. "Alright."

" permission to swear if someone says anything? " Tord looked over.

Tom sighed. "I swear, You swear, we all swear. Just not by my kids or Namki."

Tom huffed. "So that means permission granted, But no violence."

" Lame. " Tord scoffed as he tugged Tom along out of the shaded alley down a small hill into the streets.

across the street and onto the school grounds.

Tom felt tense and began to strengthen his grip on tords arm.

Now he understood a bit more why Tord offered it.

They made it on school ground, some kids began to gasp.

Tom felt like he couldn't breathe.

"If you want to leave just tell me." Tord whispered .

They made it to the halls, where students began to slowly see and point, some backed up into the lockers or walls, making a clear path in the middle that Tord and Tom passed through.

" If you feel sick just tell me. "

The gazes felt heavy. Suffocating. Judgemental. scared.

whispers that separated themselves from Tords reminders.

"She was right. "

"she was telling the truth."

" oh my god. "

Tord swore he'd murder her the second he found her.

"If you feel lightheaded just tell me."

Tom grabbed on fiercely to Tords arm, He didnt seem to mind.

"Please tell me Tom."

The looks on teens faces as he peered their way  pieced him like fresh needles.

hands over their mouth
gasps
hiding
fear

Tord felt like absolute fucking mess.

He was reliving all of the gazes and torment that he got when people noticed his grey eyes.

though people said something to him
they announced their thoughts.

"Are you blind or something?"

" whats wrong with you? "

"Off-color!"

" broken one here. "

But here...
it was silence.
only small whispers
a cluster of whispers.

and it hurt
so bad
not to know what they were thinking.

Tord needed to stay strong for Tom.
but he couldn't.
He didnt ask to relive this.
he didnt ask for Tom to go through it.
he was a time bomb about to explode.

but he held up.
not like had a choice.

Tom felt horrible
'it'll be worth it.' he told himself.
His chest hurt.
'it'll be worth it.'
He felt heavy. Tired.
'it'll be worth it.'
He looked at Tord.
He was shaking?
his pupils scanned everything.
everyone.
he looked afraid.

'Its not worth This.'
Tom felt horrible. Even worse for Tord.

'Going through this together. I guess.'

They finally made it to their first class. Tom could see the look on Tords face.

just.
fear.

Tord inhaled and looked to Tom.

"No going back now huh?"

Tom sighed. " Nope. "

Tord wanted to do it.
it felt right.
like it would help.
he wanted to do it.
so he did.

He grabbed Toms hand.

and he smiled.

Tom looked up to him.

He smiled back.

for the split second that felt like a million years it was...

peaceful.

Until Tord reluctantly let go and opened the door.

several head turns and gasps let them know the rumor didnt reach these students.

Tord took a deep breath in. Tom walked in and sat down.

Tord felt like it was going by way too fast. When it came to large groups of people preying on him, he was pretty weak.

it brought back the torment
and the incident.
and it all started to flood like a tsunami of self hate that Tord pushed away.

'Not now.'

So he sat down. It was quiet. And he hated it. He held his head as his stomach twisted.

Tom felt like he was being stabbed constantly, his stomach felt empty but he wanted to throw up. His head was buzzing.

a tap came from behind.

Tom reluctantly looked behind him.

Avery.

she smiled, and handed him a sticky note.

Tom took it and turned back to his desk. he looked at Tord, who seemed emotionally broken. Jonas had gone up to him and kneeled by his desk and began whispering to Tord and patting him on the back.

Tom didnt understand why Tord seemed so torn up, whatever it was, he wouldn't add on to it, he'd keep whatever terrible words written on the note to himself.

'I think your eyes are cool ☺'

Tom blinked.

'what.'

he looked behind himself. Avery gave a thumbs up.

Tom smiled.

he turned back to his desk. Where he felt punched in the gut. He appreciated it, he felt, really fucking relieved and happy.

but something about it
felt...
wrong.

Tom woke from his trance when he saw the teacher rush over to Tord, she tapped him on the back and asked something.

Tord gave a tired smile.

"Im fine!"

That felt wrong too.
Tom didn't believe it.
He never did.

~yesterday, arriving to Toms house.~

"Laddi left again before I could meet her!"
Tom pouted.

"I really want to meet her."

Asha and Soke shared in the story telling about what they did.

Tord seemed away.
He was there.
But not really?

he was thinking of the mess Sidney would make.
He didnt want to deal with it.
Everything was great.
Tom showed Edd and Matt his eyes.
They had Friends Friday.
He met Asha,Soke, and Namki.
and he could start to love Tom.

And then this little brat had to stroll along and wreck some shit.

literally.

"Tord? Are you okay there? "

"Im fine."

~Friends Friday ~

As they walked around, Matt investigating festival games, Edd looking for cola, Tom noticed Tord holding his head.
He look frustrated. Stressed.

"Are you okay there?"

"Im fine. "

~Covered Eyes~

  Tom followed Tord in the halls, heading for Tords locker. "Tord, those bandages look pretty bad. Are you sure-"

" Im fine. "

~Blue Bird~

Tom found Tord in the halls

"I was looking for you!" he smiled .

Tord smiled back. "Same here."

They continued walking to 5th Mod, Tom taking note of Tords behavior.

"Ya know Tord..."

" Hm? "

"You've been pretty distant lately. Kind of quiet. Are you okay there?"

" Im fine. "

~Thoughts~

Tom listened to the crying.
What was wrong with this poor soul?
he listened.
and listened.
Until he could no longer stand by and listen.

so he got up,
and then he heard it.

"Your fine your fine your fine."

The whispers.

"Your fine Tord. Your fine."

The whimpers. The sniffs.

"Your fine."

...

"Im fine."

The lie.


'Not my problem.'

That.

Lie.

It was so his problem.
and he wanted it to be.
He wanted someone to announce it was Toms job to help Tord

so he could have an excuse to stay home.
Play with Asha and Soke.
Talk to Tord.
make Tord feel.
Happy.
as happy as he is
in those few moments Tom sees
every here and there.

Why is happiness such a hard thing to grasp?

why couldn't Tord grab it?

who was holding him back?

what was holding him back?

Tom needed to know.
he would, sooner or later.

the class ended, though, Tom doesn't remember doing anything, actually, he, or Tord, weren't given a worksheet.

he walked up to the teacher, who already knew what was coming.

"dont worry Ridge. " she smiled.

"I wont mark it as a 0, you and Tord over there seem to need recollection and a break. " she smiled and gave him two lollipops.

Tom smiled. "Thanks Mrs.Nezo. "

she was sweet, Tom liked her.

he walked over to Tord, who was sleeping on his desk, Tom felt pity, he looked too peaceful to wake up.

But he had to.

he tapped him.

"Tord wake upp."

Muffled complaints from Tords end until he forcefully put himself up and out of his seat. Wandering out into the hallway rubbing his eyes as Tom waved bye to Mrs.Nezo.

Tord adjusted his eyes to the bright lights. He looked onto the kids walking by, like a casual day. Well, most of them didnt see Tom anyways.

Tom walked right by him, through the hallways that seemed more chatty. Kids who saw Toms eyes in the morning either starred in fascination or gave an awkward smile in an attempt to hide their fear.

Things seemed better. Tom showed Tord the sticky note, To which tord gave a annoyed questioning look to it. and hummed as he looked back to the crowd.

'I thought he'd be a bit happier.' Tom thought. He really did, but maybe Tord was too distracted in his 'Mother Hen' mode to really care

As Tom entered his second class, Tord tiredly went down and immediately fell asleep. The teacher allowed it because the previous one emailed all of their classes about it so that it wasn't just a pure surprise when Tom walked in with his predicament and full of fear while Tord walks in officially done with everyones shit.

Tord had escaped his vulnerable depressed state (temporary.) in order to stay strong for Tom. Today is Tom's day. Not his.

Tom was very slowly feeling better. He didnt act like a wreck because hiding his face would make it pointless. Tears? those would upset Tord, even worse. so he held them back. But small supportive gestures from other kidsl helped. But he knew later on people would grow accustomed to his eyes and then some will turn to teasing brats.

'but for now, enjoy the peace.' he thought.

so that's what he did. They went through second and third mod, silently skipping anything that would stress them to make their life easier as kids starred at Toms eyes and Tords attitude.

they got to lunch, Tord avoided all eye contact as possible as he sat Tom down and glared at anyone who started to whisper.

Edd and Matt chatting away with Tom to distract him and support him as Tord quietly went into the train of thought.

soon Laddi came hopping along. she sat next to Matt.

"Hi Tom!" she chimed, unfazed by his eyes.

Tom was surprised. "Hi Laddi."

" I like your eyes, they look nice. " she smiled.

Tom chuckled. "Thanks."

" It helps. "

Edd turned to her. "How's the boyfriend?"

Laddi's face lit up. "Connors with the photography group, Mallory,AJ, Someone else who's out sick, but you get it. He's getting some photos of students for Yearbook."

" OO! Yearbook! I've got to have my own fabulous photo! " Matt giggled.

Laddi poked his cheek. "I'll make sure of it." she smiled.

Edd sighed. "Connor used to be so shy before you came along." he looked his food and laughed " One time I introduced myself and startled him in the process. "

"I don't know how you did it, especially when you used to have bright orange hair."

Toms eyes widened.

"You dyed your hair?"

Laddi nodded. "I used to have it the same color as Matt's." she took the opportunity to ruffle his hair.he squirmed and swatted away her hands from 'ruining ' it.

Edd chuckled. "We used to call her 'fireball'."

Laddi pouted at the Nickname. "Matt forgot my real name because of it."

matt scratched his neck with an awkward laugh as Edd looked to Tord.

"Tord are you okay there? You've been pretty quiet lately."

"nobody plans a murder out loud."

Edd groaned as Tom kept a blank face and Laddi and Matt silently backed the fuck up.

"who is it this time?" Edd sighed.

"Sidney?" Tom said. he rubbed his temple. Obviously not liking the person either. 

Tom found out about Sidney after the mishap from Sunday, Tord had reluctantly informed him how she was dating somber but now she's alone and angry.

Edd sighed. "Fair enough."

the bell rung, and they each left to their classes, Laddi however, a bit interested in Tords empty action s as he glared people down for pointing.

she just walked away with the thought in mind.

Tom and Tord approached the music classroom, just as Tom was about to go in he realized something and took two lollipops out his pocket.

he held them out to Tord. "From Nezo. Pick one?"

Tord was caught off guard and looked back and forth between the red and blue lolipop.

"cherry sucks." Tord stuck his tounge out and took the blue one, while Tom huffed from Tords childish comment and put away the other.

"No violence." Tom smiled as Tord opened the plastic wrapper.

Tord groaned. "Lameeeee."

He ended up giving Tom a smile.

"Stay Safe Tommy"

" You too. "

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Notes
ITS NOT LATE IF IT'S STILL MONDAY-



screenshots from a video she sent im still laughing.

also, i wont be doing the shout outs anymore, i will continue replying to comments to stay connected, but wattpad has a habit of skipping some notifications, and theres like a lot of votes on one chapter, and thwn i get like 5 notifications of different voters like
??????

But again, i will still reply to comments.
Also! Fan art is a thing

I've received two so far, Both from BBTheBird. If you want to show me fanart go to my book "Makeshift Inbox" if you want it to be anonymous, tag me in a book where you post it, where you can choose to have me feature it in the book (which will be done by default endless you say otherwise)

you can also say you dont want it featured and I wont do it, I would comment, but people are notified of my comments, so they'd see it anyways, so I just wont comment if you dont want it featured.

if you do, but want it anonymous, just type "anom" and i will comment about the piece in the chapter i upload instead of commenting

i hope that makes sense?

anyways the two pieces from BBTheBird:

i still giggle over this

Sad Tommo
and yes the snip snip ❤❤❤❤

i havent drinken green tea in two or three weeks wtf-

ackkk

I just did today though.

thanks forrr 3.66 Viewss

BBTheBird calls them views???

I drew a mix of steampunk and tech
Her name is
Emmby
Like M.B.
Mother
Board


pretty cool righttt???

also this, more insight on Tom and Tords feelings.

also Jay from March/Bones/Cobra

oh and my friends outfit to a gay pride parade.

alright that's all.

Thank you for reading and following the development of this story!
cya next chapter!
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