I hope this isn't needed. I hope you aren't dead. I hope you are just taking an extended break from us and Wattpad.

But I also hope that you come back. In many ways you are my lifeline here.

And in every way, you are a true big sister.

You always reassure me that everything will be alright. And you always worry. If I go too long without responding, you blow up my phone.

I tell you that you need to stop worrying, but secretly, I'm kind of happy that I have someone who will always care about what happens to me.

As selfish as it is, I need you. I really don't know what I would do without you.

You've seriously talked me out of suicide twice.....

I don't know what'll happen next time.

Perhaps you'll be here.

Or.

Perhaps not.

- Jazz