(Well my anxiety is back...

I mean I've had small anxiety attacks when girls at school spray their stupid perfume.

Well today I had a HUGE attack, the worst one I've ever had. And the school called my parents...

Now I'm going back to the doctors to help and I don't want it.... I don't like it... Just thinking about it makes me anxious and like I want to cry...

I can't admit to anything.... I can't admit my drawings. I can't admit I've self harmed again... I'm a terrible person and I just don't know what to do!!!)