A/n:Rewritten story requested by velcrosart ^^ I am sorry that I haven't been updating much,but I have been really sad lately that I am unable to do anything,and this is bad,I need to get back and start writing because I don't want this thing that happened last year to happen again.Also,this story will have a few changes from the original because oh my god,the original was so cringe,I hope the person who requested dοesn't mind,but now it is more realistic than the other one for sure xD if you don't like it I can change it I guess.(The reader is 18!)

(Y/N) exhaled deeply,entering her room and throwing the bag on the floor,as she let her body plop on the bed.

School breaks me everytime.

She rolled around,getting comfortable as she grabbed the laptop,opening a new tab for Youtube.

She noticed one of her favourite youtubers has just uploaded a video,making her smile.

CrazyPurpleToast.

It was a vlog,and she clicked on it,going full screen.

"Hey everyone!Vincent here and yes,i am doing a vlog.I thought to do one because i haven't done one in a while and i wanted to do this one because i thought it would be better than tweet about it!"

He chuckled,making her sigh almost in a dreaming gaze.

"Alright,so as some of you know i am going to PAX this year which is in two weeks,i think.And i wanted guys to inform you about our schedule and how it is going to be."

She paused the video,grabbing her phone and opening her notes on it.

He talked about some other topics first,but finally he talked about the thing she was wanting the most.

"And last but not least,the panel.See,every year i am doing a panel with my buddies and you all can come up,hug us,talk to us,give us stuff and such,but this year something went wrong.So,i am going to have a panel on my own which sucks!I would be so lonely without the others."

He exhaled deeply,rubbing his wrist as he looked back at the camera.

"Anyways!If you want to know about the others and their times about their Meet and Greets,go check out AwesomePuns,MangaBoy,TheRedTelephone and FoodMaster!Their links will be somewhere on the screen and down on the description.I can't wait to meet you all!"

He smiled,showing his perfect smile as she instantly smiled as well,slightly getting lost in his almost white eyes.

"Well,that was all from me for now!Thank you so much for watching my crazy toasties,see ya soon!"

He did a small wave,smiling at the camera as the screen slowly faded to black.

The video ended,making her sigh against the pillow.

"I can't wait to meet you Vincent."

She had been planning for that trip for over a year now,and she couldn't believe that the time is finally coming.

Which made her remember of something.

Her eyes shifted towards the night stand,opening the last drawer.

There was a letter hidden inside.

She carefully grabbed it,pulling it out and looking at the white envelope.

On the outside,it looked like a simple letter,but on the inside,it held feelings and emotions she was holding for that guy.

For that man behind the camera,behind her laptop screen,giving her words that helped her survive through hard times.

Discovering him when he was still a small channel and watching him grow made her heart flutter,to the point of developing feelings for him.

Many people would say it is just a phase of fangirling.

But she didn't feel like that.

She was actually in love with him.

But she knew about her chances being lower than the ground itself.

She knows that,even if she talks to him,she already knows his answer will be no.

He has so many female fans that love him too.

But not in the way she does.

She really has feelings for someone who doesn't even know she exists.

But life is unpredictable.

Who knows?

She exhaled,shaking her head and putting the letter aside,not wanting to tire her head more.

She clicked on the others guys' videos,watching their vlogs as well about their Meet and Greet.

~~

Time flies by,that is for sure.

The day had finally arrived.

She was going to see the heroes behind their cameras.

The female was actually lucky,since she found a chance to meet Mike,Jeremy,Scott and Fritz while they were walking around with no one around to approach them.

A small talk and some pictures later,she was now on her way to Vincent's Meet and Greet.

Being the last in the long queue,she hoped she would get a little more time with him,to make the wait worth it.

But all that nervousness made the time pass,as it was actually her turn.

Her teeth tugged at her bottom lip,shyly approaching with a racing heart.

"Hey there!"

His raspy voice made her heart flutter,as the butterflies in her stomach made her shiver.

"Hey."Her voice cracked,mentally facepalming herself as she inhaled.

After he signed some of the merch,she found the confidence in her voice to finally ask him.

"Can i have a hug?"

His lips built a small smile,opening his arms.

"Sure thing!Come here!"

Her eyes slightly shined from happiness,wrapping her arms around his lean body and tugging at his clothong,almost tearing up.

Vincent smiled,nuzzling his nose against her hair.

His arms felt like a safe place.

Like home.

She didn't want to let go.

She wanted to continue hugging him but also tell him how much he means to her.

The hug did last more that it should,making her cheeks red as she pulled away.

"I am sorry."

She cleared her throat,rubbing her arm embarassed.

"It's fine!"He ruffled her hair,giving her a toothy smile."Besides,you were the last one!"

She looked over to him,feeling her heart heavy from beating so fast.

Her hand reached on her back pocket,pulling out the white envelope.

He noticed her hands were holding something,making him smile since he loved receiving anything from the fans.

"You have a letter for me?"

She smiled,shifting her gaze towards him as her fingers slightly gripped at the letter.

But then.

Then it dawned on her.

The realisation hit her once she actually realised that everything was indeed real,and not another dream.

He was indeed standing in front of her and she was holding the letter with her feelings written inside.

What am i thinking?

He can't just fall in love with me by seeing me neither handing the letter to him.

This isn't a fanfiction where everything comes true.

No.

This is the sad reality.

Her eyes lowered on the floor,almost tearing up.

Vincent noticed the change in her mood,looking over to her with a worried gaze.

"Are you okay?"

"I am sorry."She softly mumbled,a small hitch in her breath."Forget about it."

And then,she turned around and started running.

His eyes went wide.

"Wait!"

His feet started taking him after the girl,trying to keep an eye at all costs on her running figure.

He bumped into the others,not recognizing them for a bit as he was that focused.

"Vincent,hold up,what is going on?"

Mike questioned him,holding his hand but the male yanked his hand away.

"I need to find her!"

He pushed through the others,not stopping his running as his friends were left behind confused.

He stopped when he turned the corner,noticing her sitting on a bench.

He hid on the corner,watching her as she was trying not to cry,looking at the letter in her fist.

"What i was thinking."She huffed,standing up and walking towards a trash bin."Stupid girl."

She passed by it with the almost crumpled letter,throwing it towards the trash bin but it missed,landing on the floor.

The girl walked out of the building,as Vincent approached the spot she was,picking up the crumpled letter.

He sat himself on the bench she was,carefully removing the paper from the envelope.

"Hey Vincent!

   My name is (Y/N) (L/N) and i am your biggest fan since your channel was at his early days.I don't remember when i subscribed,but i think it was a bit before you hit 100k subs!I am so happy for you and the others because,you have come so far.Thank you so much for making me happy and i know you get that a lot,but it is true.You have helped me through my dark times,you have made me laugh when i was completely emotionally destroyed.I was depressed and suicidal but your videos have helped me.Your goofiness have made me smile again.And also,i know a lot of your fans have told you this but,i love you.I really do.I know it sounds crazy,and maybe you are weirded out but you mean so much to me.I have been through a lot and you were always the one that made me happy.You put a smile on my face and that,and many more,have made me fall in love with you.I know,obviously,you don't feel the same.I know you see me as another one of your fans.Hell,you maybe have a secret relationship and now things are awkward for you.I may be another fangirl for you,but this fangirl wants to be by your side,make you happy.I want to be the one that will wake you up in the morning when you have overslept.The one that will sneak some breakfast and coffee when you are working and need a break.I want to be in this crazy,fun, and loving relationship.I heard you were considering a pet.I would love those times as well.It sounds so normal,but i know i won't be the lucky one by your side.I know i won't be and the fact that i have feelings for you it kills me.It kills me to know that i don't have a single chance with you,yet,i keep loving you.I am sorry if this is a waste of your time and maybe made you uncomfortable.I know you won't do anything about it and it's fine!Just remember that i love you and i will never stop supporting you!Thank you so much for everything,Vincent.

See you in your next video!"

He exhaled deeply after finishing the letter,having a small smile along his lips.

He folded the letter,carefully sliding it inside his pocket as he stood up.

~~

During the days in PAX,(Y/N) didn't come across with the youtuber ever since.

It was the last day,and she was making her way towards her hotel room,since the convention was pretty far away from her house.

All that walking around made her feet hurt,as she pressed the elevator button.

She stretched her body,hearing a few crack sounds as the elevator arrived,walking inside and pressing the number of the floor.

The elevator stopped at another floor first,opening its doors.

She looked in front of her,yelping at the sight.

It was Vincent.

Just a few feet away from her.

He lifted up his gaze,noticing her as he gasped.

"You are that girl from the Meet and Greet!"

Her hand slammed on the floor buttons,trying to close the doors but he got inside the moment they closed,making her frown.

"(Y/N),right?Why did you leave like that?"

She swallowed hard,avoiding his gaze as she had a distance between them.

His eyes focused on her,seeing how she was avoiding him and not talking.

"I guess,you couldn't handle your feelings?"

He pulled the letter from his pocket,and she noticed it from the corner of her eye.

"How did you find it?"She gasped,with a cracky voice,trying to snatch it from his hand but he lifted his hand higher.

"Next time,check if you actually threw something."

Her cheeks warmed up,as the elevator doors opened.

"Oh look,my floor."He looked over to her,having a small smile."Do you want to hang out in my room?"

She raised an eyebrow,as she couldn't help but blush more.

"I will take that as a yes!"He softly hummed,gently grabbing her hand and guiding her down the hallway.

"You really don't have to!"

He chuckled,opening his hotel room door and walking inside along with her.

"Look,(Y/N),i read your letter."

Her eyes went wide,seeing him sit on the edge of the bed.

She gazed away,rubbing her arm.

"I am sorry.I know you don't feel the same and the whole thing it's simply stupid."

She found herself sitting down next to him,lowering her head.

"I am such a dreamer,i need to wake up and live this cruel reality.Why it has to be like this?"

Her hands rested on her lap,which have been cupped by his large ones.

"I understand your feelings and your words have really touched my heart.I don't mind giving it a try,but i almost know nothing about you.Maybe we can start from the beginning and work our way towards it."

She blinked surprised,looking over to him.

"Wait,what?"

He smiled.

"You heard me.Let's be friends and see how things go."

She gazed away,staring somewhere else in the room as she was trying to process what he said.

Friends?

With my hero?

"I am not saying no to your whole confession,i actually find you a pretty girl.But i bet you are something more than just looks,i can feel how amazing you must be!So."

He extended his hand,as her eyes shifted to his open hand and then back at his eyes.

"My name is Vincent.What's yours?"

His toothy smile made her blush,but also smile,as her hand wrapped around his large one,giving him a somewhat firm handshake.

"The name is (Y/n)."

And from that moment,something unique started.

Something that everyone would believe it is just a story of fiction.

A friendship that maybe with time,it will develop into something more.

All because of the letter that had her feelings written all over it.

But at least she knew,that everytime he would laugh.

Everytime he would messily play with his semi-long dark purple hair.

Everytime his voice would give out that soothingness.

Everytime she would learn something unique or personal about him.

And everytime he would smile.

She knew.

She knew she was falling in love with him all over again.

And she knew,his smile was helping her smile.