Life is so hard. Everyone's words like a knife. I just don't see the point of anything anymore. Feeling like I have hitten the most lowest score. The one who is meant to motivate me isn't even here anymore. I miss her so much. Everything just causes me pain and it's like I am so alone. Every path feels unknown. Darkness all around. No light to be found. All I can do is pray to my lord to make things better by doing dua. Surely all these tests will lead me to jannah (heaven).