Sometimes your heart feels heavy, you just need to let it out. Your eyes burn as the tears burst like a dam. I try to stay patient and not lose hope, but it's so hard. Most days I don't want to get out of bed, crying at night staring at the ceiling and walls. Nothing makes sense, nothing feels good without you. No hunger, no thirst my eyes dull searching for you always. It hurts so bad that all I can do is cry and try to remind myself after hardship comes ease. I try to keep myself occupied, but still my mind and heart visit those memories of us together. I just want to scream to express my pain but instead I hide my mouth with my pillow so no one hears me crying. I yearn to be in your arms again, to kiss you and not have to miss you. To go on long drives with you, for you to hold my hand and be my light in the dark. For me to put my head on your chest and hear your heartbeat giving me peace and lulling me to sleep. You teasing me, me getting upset so you placating me and telling me you love me. You covering me with your blanket of love and warmth so I never feel cold.