I don't really know what this feeling is, it's like everything is getting to me. Fear of the future, my studies making me fatigued. It's like I've lost the light inside me. Worried if I'll be able to be a good enough wife and about trying to keep on top of my studies. Someone talks about the responsibilities of marriage but that just makes me scared. I try to stay happy and excited but I am just so tired right now. There are times where I wish I could just hide away from everything.