My eyes don't hold that shine, I feel anxiety and my heart is cracked; torn and exhausted of this everyday cycle. There's so many times where I think have i made the right decision? What if he uses me, breaks my heart and leaves? I feel so cold, I just want to hide away in my blanket; listen to sad songs and cry loads to lighten my heavy heart. I'm visually impaired, I hope my children aren't disabled and don't have to face what I did. Everyday you feel like a burden in this world, you want to be independent but you have to depend on your family. It's mentally tiring every day thinking these silly thoughts. I do try to think positive, but the negative ones overpower the positive.