Today is beautiful jummah, I read fajr Qur'an and zohr and I felt so much peace . Plus I got to hear my jaanu's  voice after so long. It's funny how I'm so tired but wide awake at the same time. Allah sent mercy through the rain and it's like for now washed away is my pain. When he doesn't ring I don't feel peace and happy, it's like Allah put love in my heart for him . This is true love as it is qadr and I have to wait patiently for him. When I see him next year insha Allah, that will be the fruit of my patience .