Star Pov

I left Marcos house with tears in my eyes. It had to be done, even though it hurts. I want Marco to like me for me and not over jealously and think I'm some rebound. As I arrived home my mother looked at me as I started to cry "Mommy.." she rushed towards me and held me tightly "It's okay sweetie. It's going to be okay. I assure you darling, it will get better.." she kissed my head as I held her hearing her heart beat steady. "Will it?" I said barely "Of course Star. There will be a guy who will be there for you always. You just have to be patient honey." I nod as she wiped my tears away "Come on. Let's get you washed up and watch some movies and eat ice cream like before" I giggled "Thanks mom." She smiled as she held my face.

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All night my mother tried to cheer me up and tell me I'll get over it and that there will be someone good for me. I just thought about seeing Marco at the set. I mean my heart still beats fast when he's near but I can't fall for him. I think it was best for me to stay with Tom. Or maybe Kai? Ugh I should just not think about relationships now. I groan as I make it on set see a few people. I waved and smiled as I entered my dressing room. I sat in my chair and took my sunglasses off as I looked at my mirror. I looked tired and defeated. And really down. I hate feeling this way, especially over a boy I really liked. I lowered my head as I heard a knock

"Come in!" I said as I rubbed my face to wake up. As I turned it was Marco, the last person I wanted to see. "What are you doing here?" He looked terrible "I wanted to apologize for my weird behavior yesterday at my house. I shouldn't have expected you to just agree to it. I guess I wasn't right in my head." Marco lowered his head as I tilted my head to the side. "Marco I don't want you to feel like this when I know I'm the reason for it. Also I don't want to accept your feelings knowing you just got out of one. It makes it seem like I'm desperate and you need someone there to fill Jackie spot." He nods as he rubs his eyes "I'm sorry. God I hate myself for even doing that to you." I shrug as I rolled my eyes. "Star I just want us to be normal again." I sigh "uhm that's not gonna happen for awhile. I think it's better we dont talk for a while until it's okay." He nods. "Yeah, I get it. I totally understand your choice but we still work together." I nodded "I know but its professional Marco." He nods as he sighs deeply. "Well then I'll let you be. See you out there." I nod as he leaves and I wanted to cry. Why aren't I happy that he's free? Isnt that what I wanted? To be with Marco? But somehow I'm not. Maybe its timing or maybe I'm losing feelings for him. I shake the last thought because how can I if I would literally do anything to make him happy. "Star you're needed on set." I look up and nodded "yeah in a minute." He walks off and I clean my face and put make up before heading out.

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'Stella you're an idiot! Why did you kiss marcus?!' I say as I pace back and forth as I looked at cousin venus. 'I thought you liked the kid?' I groan. 'I do! But he has a girlfriend and me doing that is really messing up the vibe.' Venus sighs as she walks towards me. 'Look, stella you're a cool girl and very caring and maybe you should confront Marcus about this. It'll help you get over it.' I sigh as I looked at her. 'I can't! Venus don't you get it? He has a girlfriend. I don't want to go over there and call him out.' She laughs 'then suffer. Also Ryder asked if you wanted to come out to a party tonight.' I gasp 'Ryder? The hot friend of yours?' She laughs 'yeah. My hot best friend. Come on, let's go have fun while you get over the kiss.' I nod 'fine. Maybe I need a distraction.' *knocking* 'stella can we talk?' I look and see Bryan 'Yeah? What's up?' He looks confused and maybe upset. 'Why didnt you tell me you and Marcus kissed?' I blushed and went mute. 'Uh..i..Line?'

"Cut!"

"Star? What happened? You were doing good." Tom asked as I shook my head. "Nothing I'm just not focused." He tilts his head. "Are you sure?" He held my face as I gently pushed his hand. "Yeah, I'm fine Tom." I sigh as I forgot Tom and anyone else doesnt know me and Marco kissed at my house. Why was I thinking about the kiss? It happened a few days ago. "Hey" I jump seeing kai as I blushed. "Kai!" He chuckles as he hands me water. "What happened? You usually never mess up." I shake my head. "I'm not sure. But I got this. Just lost focus that's all." As I put the water down the director came towards me. "Star? You alright?" I nodded "yeah I'm good." She nods as we start the next scene which is Marco's part with Alex.

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'Marcus you idiot! Why did you kiss stella?! She's your best friend and on top of that you have a girlfriend!' I kept pacing back and forth in my living room as the doorbell rang 'Coming.' I opened the door to see Alex 'Nina!' She looks at me strange 'Hey, can we talk?' I nod as we sit on the couch. 'Do you love you stella?' I chuckled 'As a friend.' She shook her head 'No. As like more than a friend. Like you like her like me?' I blushed 'Why are you asking me this?' I said as I held her face. She moved from my touch. 'Marcus I'm not stupid. I know when a guy likes a girl. You look at stella like shes the love of your life. You never really look at me like that.' I sigh as I looked down. "Nina, I gotta be honest with you and you can leave me if you want. I kissed stella at the concert. I truly and dearly am in love with my best friend. It took me some time to figure it out and I feel terrible that we started dating and can't even make you happy.' Nina looked at me and started to cry. 'I kinda figured. Just promise me you won't let her go.' She held my hand 'I'm sorry Nina.' She smirks as she wipes her face. 'Its fine. Just don't miss the opportunity with her before it's too late.' Nina kissed my cheek as she walked towards the door. 'So are we friends?' She smirks 'Yeah. Friends. Take care.' She walked out as I looked at the closed door.

"Cut!"

I watched as Marco did the scene perfectly. I guess he really is taking this professionally. I'm the one who isnt. "Nice work guys." I say as Marco nods softly as he walks off set. I held my arms as I try to be okay. "Next scene is with Ryder and stella and venus." We nod as we get ready.

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'Hey! You guys made it!' I smiled as Ryder came and hugged us. 'You know I never miss a party' venus said punching his arm as I felt out of place. 'Stella? You good?' I nodded 'yeah just thinking' venus whispers as he nods. 'Oh. Its boy trouble. Well here it's a place to chill and forget. So here take this and enjoy' he gave me a red cup as I looked at it. 'What's in it?' 'Its booze but shh. Just drink and I won't tell anyone.' He laughs as venus and him chugged theirs as I thought about it. 'Screw it!' They cheered as the night carried on. Now I was alone in the back as Ryder came towards me. 'There you are. How you holding up?' I blushed 'I feel dizzy. And annoyed.' He raised a brow. 'How come?' I placed the cup down as I looked at him. 'Well for starters I'm drunk *giggles* also I'm in love with my best friend. I thought it would be okay but he has a girlfriend who pretty and nice and I betrayed her by kissing her boyfriend.' I tilt my head 'I love him. I really love him and I just wish I could just be with him. He means so much to me. I thought coming to this party will help but it just made me realize all I need is Marcus..' I wiped my eyes as I felt Ryder hold my wrist as I looked at him. 'He doesn't deserve a girl like you stella.' I looked confused as he closed the space and we kissed. I pushed him away 'Ryder? Why did you kiss me?' He sighs 'I like you stella. You don't deserve to be sad or be angry about Marcus. He's not worth it. Give me a chance to make you happy.' He held my hand as I pulled away. 'I can't love you Ryder because you are not the man I love. I'm sorry but I'm going home.' I ran off stage.

"CUT!"

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After shooting I was in a better mood but I noticed Marco look a bit down. Maybe it was kissing scene with kai. But it felt like it could actually happen. The way he said it and how I reacted felt like I was in Stella's view. I shake the thought as I started my way out as I waited for my ride. Marco came by as he waved. "Later star." I waved as he disappeared as I sigh. It's weird that we don't go home like we used to. "Hey! You good?" I nodded as I see HP "yeah. What are you doing now?" "Bar. Can't bring you squirt. Later." She left as I felt a hand on my shoulder. "You okay?" I see Tom and nod. "Yeah. I will be."

A/n finally updated the book. Its been ages and I hope you enjoyed. This book will end with 15 parts and that's it. No more and then the book is finished and i hope you are alright with that. Anyways bye!