Emptiness. That's all I felt at the moment. The holes in the cloud that have way to the light of the sun was the exact condition of my heart. Just difference is, there is no light coming from it. Just the darkness of my saddened heart and the desperate cries that it begged to be loved was heard. Could anyone hear it? No.

The figure infront of me remained unbothered about my state as she peacefully layed there not aware of what was going on around her. She was just having her time of her life relaxing. It hurt to know that nobody really cared to pick up the pieces that were breaking from my eyes like a decaying plant. The hands which held mine and provided warmth are now ice cold as they have been spending days in the tiaga.

"Is this really necessary to make me suffer this way?" I asked the figure.

She did not bother to reply as her focus was completely on her visions. I sighed as I looked at the cold and crinkled hands.

"I didn't mean to ill talk about you today though" I confessed

"It's just you know, how I have to act infront of her. In a way thank god your not here or else I would have been smacked on the head by you which isn't something I really like" I said as I chuckled looking down

I looked up at her and I couldn't control my tears. Tears strolled down my cheeks giving a cold touch to them as they travelled down to my neck.

"Come back..." I whisper my voice begging her

"Please come back..." I said leaning my head against her hand.

"I am sorry I couldn't protect you b-but please come back" I begged as my voice cracked.

I couldn't take it anymore as I left the room whilst wiping my tears which fell continuously without a break. As I was walking down the corridor of the hospital when I bumped into someone. Someone familiar. I looked up to see Y/N looking at me with an annoyed expression which soon changed. I realised it was because of my state. I hurriedly rushed passed her as my heart started to clench at the sight of her. I rushed inside my cabin without looking at anybody else and locked. As soon as I entered, I fell of my knees crying.

'Why does fate have to be so cruel? Why does it take away the people we love the most'

I stared as I saw Jimin leave. The moment his eyes met mine I felt my heart clench. For some odd reason, I felt guilty for some odd reason as if I had a fault in this.

'Is it because of the incident earlier?' I thought to myself

"But he isn't so sensitive about such things. I wonder what Mr. Park said to make him so upset" I mumbled to myself.

"Hey Y/N! You alright?" I suddenly got asked which diverted my attention to the person beside me.

"Huh? Uh yeah! Yeah I'm fine" I responded frantically as I suddenly got contacted.

I looked back again to see his figure but it had disappeared already.

"Shall we go then?" Hoseok asked to which I nodded as we began to walk to the ward. In the back of my mind a question kept on lingering.

'Why was he crying?'

We soon reached our destination and I turned to Hoseok.

"Thanks for accompanying me Dr.Jung" I said with gratitude visible in my voice.

"It was no bother. Also you can drop the honorifics you know. Just call me Hoseok. Only if your comfortable that is" Hoseok suggested to me suddenly

I looked at him with a bit of affection visible in my face. I highly appreciated the fact that  the man considered other people choices and respected them. How he asked before doing something and gave the person before him an option and not just impose a decision on them. That's what you call a true gentleman. He was one of them. It really attracted me to him.

'What am I thinking?' I mentally scolded myself.

"Yeah sure I guess. You can call me Y/N from now on" I replied with a smile.

"Okay then. Bye Y/N. See you around" He said making me nod with a smile. He turned away to leave and so did I.

"Oh! Y/N!" He called out for me suddenly making me lightly flinch. I turned around with a raised eyebrow to be met with his nervous expression.

"Yes?" I asked urging him to speak.

"I-Umm" He began to fumble as he scratched the back of his neck.

"Would you-?" He began to fumble yet again.

"Hoseok is everything alright?" I asked feeling a little anxious from his behaviour.

"Yeah just.." He paused looking down

"Then?" I asked.

"I just wanted to ask if your free tomorrow night?" He asked looking at me. I titled my head thinking about my schedule to see no important work for tomorrow night.

"Yeah I am. I don't really have any important task to do tomorrow night. Why though?" I asked looking at him again.

"Then would you like to have dinner with me?" He asked as he thrusted his hands inside the pocket of his doctors coat.

"We had dinner together at the cafeteria so many times. What's the fuss about?" I said lightly chuckling not understanding the fuss.

"No like a proper dinner in a proper restaurant" He said  gesturing with his hands.

"What is that supposed to mean?" I asked completely clueless about his proposals.

"Would you like to go on a date with me?!" He said abruptly making me look at him surprised. A look of realization flushed over his face as he understood what he had just said.

'A date?' I thought to myself

A vision suddenly went through my mind.

••

"Would you like to go for dinner with me?" He asked

The brown haired boy looked at the brunette with nervousness visible in his tone. The girl gave a shy smile as she looked at him with hesitant expression.

"What do you mean?" She asked trying to push his button. She knew exactly what he meant but she wanted to hear from him directly. The words. He spoke fast with excitement pouting out.

"Go on a date with me!"

••

My mind played vision in my head as I looked at Hoseok who was speaking frantically while moving his hands up and down in gestures of explanation.

"I-Its fine if you don't want to! I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable-" I cut him off

"Yeah sure." I said as I looked at his form suddenly freezing upon hearing my words.

"Wait seriously?" He asked

"Yeah I mean. Why not?" I asked titling my head.

"Okay! okay then!" He said nodding as he tried to stop the smile coming out.

I smiled at his activities. His actions were indeed funny. I just kept on smiling while looking at him.

"So I will pick you up tomorrow at eight?" He asked

"Sounds good" I said crossing my arms over my chest.

He looked around for a while and spoke. I continued to look at him.

"Alright. See you tomorrow I guess. Have a good night" He said smiling at him which I returned.

"You too"

He turned around to leave as he bid farewell. After he left ,I entered the ward to check on all the patients that were there. I started to check the patients on by one as my time went by.

I drowned myself into the loads of work not caring about anything else around me. I just wanted to get rid of all the pain I was feeling right now. Might as well go to the psychology department and meet one of the doctors for help.

I checked my next patients to see one of the cases severely needing an operation. The patient had a tumor in her brain which had widely spread all over and can only. I called my assistant into the room. She came in.

"Yes sir? You called for me?" She asked

"Yes Jia, please send a copy of these reports to the team. Let them analyse it and then call a meeting later" I said giving the papers to her.

"Okay sir" She said as she left the room without another word.

What I really appreciated about my entire team is that, they were professional. None of the team members ever had tried to bring anything to the personal level unlike the workers of other teams, that had tried to do so. Fatigue took over me as I realised I had overworked myself. I decided to take a break as I walked out of my cabin. I had been feeling really down today as nothing but stress has taken over me.

I walked through the corridor and was greeted by few people. Not a lot of people were in the hospital now. Night had already fallen so it was pretty much empty as a lot have gone home. My eyes fell upon the window to see the consequences of the approaching typhoon already showing its affects. The trees looked as if they would break any moment considering the very heavy wind. I saved myself a seat by the window which was left by the distance of the window from the wall. I looked out as few memories rushed down my memory lane.

••

The rain was heavy but not very heavy. The girl walked out of the house in excitement to get wet in the rain. She started to jump up and down. The boy looked at the girl in utter fascination. Her beauty even when she is drenched in the rain was unbelievable.

"Baby you will catch a fever! Come back!" He called out for the girl who was dancing in the rain

"Who cares about the fever?! It's not like the rain will come whenever I call it! Don't be a buzz kill babe just come and join!!" She replied back as she began dancing in a comical way.

The boy only chuckled at the girl who was having the time of her life. She called out for him to join her and without any resistance, he happily got wet in the rain drenching his hair and his clothes as he walked to her. She was still dancing. She suddenly felt herself spin around as she bumped into a hard chest. She looked up to the see the boy looking at her with loving eyes.

"Oh look who is here! My man is!!" She said as leaning back still in his arms feeling the rain.

The began to waltz in the rain, enjoying every bit of it.

"Hey you two come back! You guys will fall ill!" An older woman suddenly called out.

"Join us mom!" The girl said as the couple danced away making the woman look at couple with an affectionate look.

The couple kept on having fun without any care in the world while they were watched lovingly by the elders of the family

••

The run down the memory lane bought tears to my eyes. I closed my eyes to reminisce the moments I had spent so blissfully. The smile. The happiness the presence. Her

Everything seemed as if it was yesterday despite the loss of the unbearable years of pain. Suddenly voice spoke making me jolt up from my train of thoughts.

"Dr. Park are you okay?"

Isn't quarintine supposed to be the time where I have all the time in the world so I can get more creative write better? But why do I feel so lazy and uncreative? Prolly my imagination got Corona. That bitch is everywhere😒😒