《 My nerd 》[KSJ]

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"How are you going to graduate if you keep this up?" Your mom was enraged today. Just how long would she put up with your attitude anyway?

"And now you will compare me with that son of a- I mean Seokjin." You couldn't help but roll your eyes at his name.

"Are you seriously forgetting all your manners I taught you till now? And even if I don't compare you to him, he is still always ahead of you. I'm not telling you to compete with him, Y/N. Can't you listen to me once, and get his help?" She sighed defeated after watching your unchanged expressions.

This was not new for her, but the fact that now you had no time to play around was bugging her. You had to do something and get your grades up no matter what as this was the last year of school.

"Even if my life was on line, I will never go to that nerd for help." You spat without any mercy and left the room while your mom kept calling you back but you never turned around.

"Y/N, I'm not done here. Listen to me." Your mother yelled at you from the stairs but her next words made you stop.

"If your grades don't go up by the end of this semester, I'm taking away your monthly allowance. No arguments. You're not even eighteen yet, so you better do what I say." She crossed her hands confidently.

"What? Mom, you can't do this to me." You took a couple of steps ahead towards her but she stopped you.

"Enough. This is final, now go and think what you're going to do." This time, she was the one who walked away without listening to your pleas.

"Argh! Fuck it." You muttered, kicking the stair case on your way out of the house.

You were mad at her and frustrated. Without thinking, you made your way towards the main street.

When you just turned the corner around your house, you saw jin. He was walking towards you, probably coming back from his cram school.

What a nice timing! The sight made the blood in your arteries boil with rage.

"Yaah! Kim seokjin!" You yelled out. He stopped to see where tho voice came from, while he adjusted his specs. You ran upto him.

"Huh?" He questioned, confused.

"This is all because of you. Why do you have to study till your butt is sore from sitting on the desk for hours?" Your voice was so loud that some people walking on the streets looked at you weirdly, but did you care? Nope.

"What?" He was still confused.

"I am suffering because of you." You emphasised each word while your hand trembled in a fist.

"What did I even do?" He said, more to himself than you in a small voice.

You couldn't control your breathing as you weren't thinking straight, so you decided to just go away from him before your anger gets the best of you.

You walked away, bumping your shoulder on his biceps in the process.

"You-" You hissed, looking back but diverted your eyes quickly. "Did he always have such tough muscles? Moron!" You said to yourself, while walking down the street.

Meanwhile, seokjin shrugged and made his way in his house.

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"Yaahh!! I can't take this. What do I do? Beg him to help me? NEVER!" You yelled in her face. Poor Lisa.

"Shut up and listen. You gotta stop being like this and go to him like a good girl, if you don't want your mom to cut your allowance." She smiled sweetly, but you knew it was nothing but sarcasm.

"I hate that skeleton of a man-" You stopped mid sentence, remembering the moment when you bumped into him.

He is not a skeleton. At all.

"Huh? What now?" Lisa asked, confused.

"Nothing. I just hate to admit that he's better than me. And why does mom have to take his side all the time? Even on the monthly gatherings, all they do is praise him for this and that. Talking about how handsome he is! And how he can do anything! Blah blah! I'm tired of it." You finished off venting and glanced at Lisa only to find her eating peacefully.

"Bro, what the fishing bag?" You looked at her in disbelief. She almost looked apologetic and stopped eating now.

"Okay, I'm sorry. But seriously, why do you hate him so much? Just go and ask nicely. He will help you for sure." She patted your shoulder, this time genuinely.

You sighed. She was right after all. Jin was not a dork like you were. He would help you... wouldn't he?

~

You finally decided to give it a go. That's why you're here standing in front of his house.

"Y/N? Why are you standing there? Come inside." His mom called out. She was watering the plants in the garden.

"Um, hello auntie. Is seokjin home?" You asked hesitantly.

"Yeah, why do you need him?" She asked out of pure curiosity but your mind was already having doubts about all of this.

Should you really go to him?

"I just need some help in studies." You let it out, defeated by your own brain.

"Oh! Sure. He's just sitting in the living room. Go ahead." She resumed her work and you made your way inside; Internally screaming, cursing yourself for being dumb, panicking, thinking of a cool way to ask for his help and what not.

"Hey!" You said normally, but that sounded annoyed.

"What is it?" His eyes, focusing on you but his hands were busy peeling the apple.

"About... that, earlier.." You couldn't bring yourself to say the exact words.

"What?" He stopped peeling the fruit and turned towards you. "Oh, now you need my help? In studies, right? Aunt sana told me-" He was cut off by you.

"H-huh? I need your help? No way." You looked away from him, not meeting his eyes.

He looked confused, and you embarrassed. Never have you ever had to ask him for help and you being you, couldn't even look at him in the eyes.

"Why? Your mom was talking about your grades and then-" He was again cut off by you.

Poor seokjin! Justice for seokjin!

"That's none of your business, glasses." He was a little taken aback but not much stunned as he knew you well. He unknowingly fixed his glasses, because of the name you used.

You couldn't keep standing there so you sprinted off, outside where his mom was watering the plants but you paid no mind to what anyone had to say.

His mom came inside to find jin sitting alone like nothing happened.

"What happened to her?" She asked.

"Who knows?" He shrugged and continued eating.

~

"It's been two days already and the next class test is in 3 days only. You sure that you don't need any help? Stop being stubborn already, Y/N. No one's snatching away your pride." Lisa twirled the pen between her fingers.

"I'm not doing it because of the stupid pride. I already lost it when I was born as a dumbhead." You rolled your eyes and she snorted.

"Come on! Are you shy to talk to him?" She leaned more towards you, her voice was low which made you widen your eyes.

"Shy? And me? No way! Why would I?" You laughed it off.

"Of course there's a reason. First, he's a little too handsome. Second, he's a little too taller than you. Third, he's a little too smart-" You couldn't listen it anymore.

"Yaah!! Are you my friend or his?" You breathed heavily due to her words.

"Yours, of course." She slammed her hand on your shoulder. "But, you-" her eyes were piercing. "-need his help." She sighed.

"I would have helped you long ago if I was smart enough plus your mom has already told you to ask for his help only." She shrugged and sipped on her strawberry yogurt smoothie.

"I can't-" you were just starting to speak when...

"Hey, seokjin!!" Lisa yelled, making you startled.

"What? Where?" You panicked internally, trying not to make it obvious.

"Oh, hi!" He walked up to your table.

"Are you here to study, too?" Lisa asked him. They seemed to ignore your existence and you felt thankful for that.

"Yeah, my mom has some friends over and it was noisy so I decided to study at the café." He glanced at you, but you were looking down.

"Oh, I see. Okay, leave all that. Can you help Y/N with studies? No- actually, can you be her tutor? And last thing, can you keep her company? I need to go now." She spoke in a speed of lightning which had you blinking your eyes in shock.

"What the fuck, lisa?!" You stood up, not caring about your environment.

"What? Calm down." She made you sit down again, before apologising to the others sitting around you.

"Seokjin, you should sit down too." She gestured him to sit beside you and he did as he was told.

You internally cursed at her for doing all this.

"So, do you agree?" She asked him, ignoring you again; this time you were not thankful.

"Yaah-" She put a hand on your mouth to shut you up, and her eyes were fixed on seokjin, desperately asking for an answer.

"Um, okay... I don't mind." He said without changing much of his expressions.

~

So, that's how you ended up sitting in front of him, studying as he teaches you.

Inside, you were dying to murder him and runaway. But, you couldn't since he was never rude to you.

"Now, add this to the next equation and you'll find your answer. Can you do that?" He adjusted his glasses and looked up at you.

"Yeah, I guess." You said, quickly looking away from his eyes.

"Try." He said and focused on his own notebook.

He has to study, too. Remember?

You were almost going to dig a hole in his skull by the pen but controlled yourself.

Even you couldn't understand why you were so annoyed by him. What is it about him that just doesn't fit right in your head? You looked at him, trying not to be so obvious.

What's so special? His eyes that always seems hidden behind his glasses? His flow-y hair that seemed to bother his eyebrows all the time? Or his perfectly sculpted nose that annoyed you to the core? His ruby like lips, that seemed to mutter only math equations all the time? Or his god like forehead that barely made any appearance but when it did, your heart also did a flip.

What the heck? You need to concentrate. You reminded yourself over and over.

"Are you done?" He asked, looking up from his copy, suddenly making you feel guilty for staring at him without his notice.

"Uh, not yet." You started fidgeting with the pen and he sighed.

"Try again, I'm watching you." He sat back properly, looking at you and you had no choice but to obey him.

"See! You can do it." He praised you after you were done solving the question.

"Indeed I can." You scoffed and grabbed the cup of your smoothie to take a sip.

You heard a small chortle which got your attention.

"You're wasting the food." He said and leaned forward, brushing his thumb along the lining of your lower lip.

This was nothing. What triggered you was the fact that he put the thumb in his mouth, licking it clean.

"What the actual fuck-" He was taken aback by your sudden outburst as he looked up at your standing figure.

"Huh?" He asked.

"No, how could you do that?" Your voice was never near the definition of politeness. He looked around, the others were being disturbed and giving you a weird look.

He panicked and picked up the books quickly while you stood there confused but soon he grabbed your wrist, running out from the café and in the alley. Fortunately you were sane enough to grab your bag with you.

"Yaah! Kim seokjin!" You yelled but he didn't listen.

Was he laughing?

He kept running even though there was no need to do so which made you laugh, too.

After a while, he finally stopped, panting for oxyjin.

"What was that?" You said, half laughing half panting.

"You were yelling like a madman, I had no choice." He finally calmed down.

"Madman who?" You said in a stern voice and he cleared his throat, coming back to his usual self.

"No one. Now, where do we go?" He asked.

"Huh? Wasn't that enough for the day already? I'm tired." You said but his phone rang indicating the incoming call so he picked it up.

"Mom? Oh? Okay." Just three words and he hung up, turning towards you.

"My mom said they're going somewhere out and the house is empty now. I mean, we can go there to study now that it's peaceful." He slid the phone back in his pocket, waiting for your answer.

"Your house?" You said with wide eyes.

"Yeah. Why are you so shocked?" He asked innocently.

"I'm not?!" That was more like a question but he thankfully decided to let it slide.

~

"Your room hasn't changed a bit." You said looking around.

"You mean I'm still the same, right?" He asked with a little smile on his face.

"No, I meant you're boring." You said without any emotions in your voice and his smile fell. But he was used to it.

"Wait- why are we in your room? Shouldn't we study in the living room?" You asked as the thought suddenly crossed your mind.

"It's too much of a bother to bring all the books and stuff to the living room, all of my books are here. Um, is this not okay with you?" He asked, putting his bag aside and making place for both of you to sit on the floor, where the small table was situated.

"Uh, I'm okay with it." You were too tired to help him bring everything downstairs so you just agreed on it.

"Make yourself at home." He gestured you to sit down on the cushion and you did so.

You settled down, getting the books out of your bag and on the study table, while jin was rummaging through his closet.

He pulled out a tank top jersey, and began to unbutton his shirt making you panick.

"Yaah! Yaah! What are you doing?" You asked, covering half of your eyes with your fingers.

"Um, changing the shirt since I practically ran a mile so it's sweaty." He said while his hands were halfway through the shirt, it was half undone.

"Do you have to do it in front of me?" You asked, peeking through the gaps of your fingers.

"I'm just changing the shirt, not being naked in front of you. I'll turn around if you mind it." Why was he talking too freely with you today?

Something about him felt different. Or was it just you? To think about it, this was the first time that you actually tried to make a normal conversation with him. He's not that bad.

He silently turned around, and shortly after, the shirt became one with the floor- just kidding -and his back was in front of your eyes, naked and smooth. You gulped the saliva down your throat, not believing your eyes as the guy standing in front of you had a really sexy back, with them damn wide ass shoulders, and you never knew about it till now.

Get a grip! You had to remind yourself.

"I thought I was making you uncomfortable so I turned around." He looked back at you, the t-shirt still in his hands. "You don't have to peek like that, if you had told me, I'd just turn around and-"

"What the heck are you implying?! Shut up!" You yelled and he chuckled as if enjoying it.

Wow! Is he really the seokjin you know?

After the embarrassment you just suffered, you didn't dare to look up at him and he quickly came back, now changed in a new t-shirt.

You glanced at him only to get another shock of the day.

"Yaah? What is this behavior? Why is that t-shirt so..... slutty? Look at the neckline! It almost looks see-through. Change it. Since when did you start wearing these?" He looked stunned for a second there but once you realised what you had just said, your hand flew to your mouth, covering it in shame and he suddenly had an amusing smile on his face that was not familiar to you at all.

"What's wrong with it? I think this is just fine." He looked down at his t-shirt, trying to keep his voice innocent.

"Isn't it?" He said in a low voice, not caring about anything now.

"Who are you? You're not seokjin, are you? He'd never do such thing." You said, eyes wide in horror.

"This is seokjin only. You never saw my this self, doesn't mean that it doesn't exist." He laughed at your seemingly red face.

"And, you! Your this self..." He scooted closer to you, tucking a hair strand behind your ear. "The shy one, no matter how much you try to hide it, doesn't mean that it doesn't exist." He smirked.

He freaking had the audacity to smirk like that?!

"You-" You flinched, scooting away from him.

"Okay, okay. Let's continue studying." He sat back on his place and opened the books.

"Aren't you gonna start? Or...." He asked you, smiling slyly as you weren't moving.

"I'm doing it, I'm doing it. Argh!" You said in a loud voice and started your work.

He chuckled and focused on the book meanwhile your heart felt like burning, whether it be because of the rage caused by his intimidating behavior or the nervousness you got upon seeing his bare chest almost all the way visible right now front of your eyes, you couldn't decide what caused that feeling.

What is he doing to you? Why is it happening? Why now?

"I swear to God, Y/N-" He slammed the pen on the table with force but not much enough to scare you. "If you keep looking at me like that, I can't stay still and do nothing." His eyes threw daggers at yours and you felt submissive.

This is not like you at all; but you were determined not to give in to him.

"What, huh? So what if I'm looking at you? What can you do?" You could feel your breath quickening as you speak. Not a good sign!

"Don't act like you don't get it. You're not that naive, I know." He said, brushing his tongue smoothly over his lower lip as he sighed while running a hand through his hair.

"You know what? Why don't you make it clear now?" You said, eyes not leaving his for a second.

"Seriously?" He didn't believe at first.

"I wanna see what you can do." You said, your face stoic but your low whisper like voice was enough to make him go for it.

"As you say." He said and grabbed your collar, pulling you closer as he didn't waste a second before smashing his lips on yours.

You were surprised to know that you didn't feel bad about it at all. If anything you were craving for it. It felt like you could kiss him all day long.

Well, well!

His lips fit perfectly on yours like puzzle pieces and it felt like heaven on earth. He left a slow smooch on your lower lip before detaching himself from you.

"Should we continue?" He asked and your ears turned red.

"What? I'm talking about the studies." He smirked but all you could do was hide your face on his shoulder.

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This took way too longer than I expected to finish. And it's... a bit lengthy ☠️
So yeah here you go roamforpeace <3
I hope you like it !!!! Sorry for the delay~