🍃Flaws of a wife🍃

         🍃chapter 18🍃

The naming ceremony happened just as it was planned,the celebrations was held at our house seeing how big the compound was.I suppressed all of my negative feelings and tried to cheer up,Mahfouz also tried to cheer me up by making me take care of all the necessary arrangements to be done,that way I was kept busy.I took care of every single arrangement from decorations to catering services.Mahfouz  spent a lot of money in the arrangements,we hired the best there was in every aspect and everything turned out great.

Everyone who came complimented the decorations as well as the food served and also the entertainers that came and every single credit went to me.I beautifully got dressed up in a super holland embellished atampa that complimented my skin a lot cause it was a light color.The makeup artist that I hired to do home service for Zulaiha did my makeup after she had finished baking Zulaiha's face.I went with a simple makeup with uncarved brows and it turned out great.

A dj also came through and that brought about music and dance,all that came through enjoyed themselves and later after Maghreb Mahfouz also came along with his few friends.I also enjoyed myself and tried as much as possible not to be affected by what people had been whispering about me.I turned deaf ears to all the negative rants and ignored them paying zero to no attention to them.I danced to my heart's content cause dancing had always been one of my hubbies and my husband also didn't disappoint cause he sprayed money all over me as I danced.

After the ceremony was over,professional cleaners were hired the day after and they cleaned the house to perfection as if an event was never held.Mahfouz personally thanked me for making the event a success without putting forward that it wasn't my own child's naming ceremony.

As days went by,I tried my very best to get close to the new born baby.Just as it had became my daily routine to check up on them(Zulaiha and the baby)everyday,after I had finished making breakfast for Mahfouz cause he slept at my side yesterday,I dished up everything for him on the dinning table since he was still sleeping.I took a mini khaskha veil and place it on top of the Ankara straight gown that I had wore before I left to go see Zulaiha and the mama.

I met Zulaiha with two of her friends that I noticed were her closest of friends cause this wasn't the first time that I had met them.I've seen them couple of times since before she had given birth and I've been seeing them more often lately.For some reason I hated the energy between those two friends of hers and I personally felt a married woman shouldn't keep those kind of friends.The first one's name was safiyya and I noticed she was more cunning while the other was named ruky.

I greeted them one by one before I sat opposite to zulaiha,safiyya was the one carrying the child.I waited for her to give me the baby but to my surprise she made no effort to give her to me.I became a little upset but I maintained my calm smiling warmly.

"Can I have the baby."I asked softly bringing forward my hands.

She didn't reply nor did she gave me the child but rather she called Zulaiha's maid and asked her to back the baby.

"You know this days Zulaiha you shouldn't be trusting people to be around your kids,especially the one that have been married for several years but wasn't able to give birth,people nowadays are very wicked so always stay alert for the safety of your baby."Safiyya said directly to Zulaiha.

I needed not to think twice about what she meant and am sure she was referring to me.I've never been insulted like this in my entire years of living.I felt humiliated and abused.I was seated numb for a while,how could a woman abuse a fellow woman liked that,now I agree when people say "a woman's worst night mare is a fellow woman".I thought fellow women would understand my pain since our parents had always said "ciwo 'ya mace na 'ya mace ne".Now I realize all of our problems are mostly cause by our fellow women around us.In fact a man has never made me felt ashamed or humiliated for not being able to give birth but my so called same gender had always been on my nerves and that feeling heated different and also hurts different.

I couldn't help the tears that started flowing from my eyes,never had I felt so humiliated and insulted like this ever in my life.I wiped up the tears that were falling and left Zulaiha's part.I broke down immediately I entered my parlor,I couldn't help it anymore and I felt it was better to cry it all out.Atleast I would fell some relief.

I didn't even noticed Mahfouz that was sitting there on one of the couches in the sitting room.I felt his hands on me raising me from the ground that I fell onto.

"Subhanallahiii what happened,why are you crying this hard."he said hugging me tight as he tried to console me.

"I.....it's ....no..t my fau.....lt I couldn't...gi..ve bi...rth."I tried saying stammering in between cries.

"Shhhhhhhhhhhh please stop crying like this,don't cause harm to yoursel.No one said it's your fault,we all know it's not your doing stop worrying yourself like this please."Mahfouz said trying to console me.

"She said I would cause harm to your child because I couldn't gave birth to my own,how could she think that of me.I wouldn't even dream of hurting your child."I said bitterly.

"I know dear,I know and whoever said that I very stupid enough to think of you that way."he said cleaning my tears as he led me to one of the dinning chairs and served me the fried chips and eggs that I made.

He stayed and fed me before I helped him got ready for work.He made sure I was okay again before he left.

I finished some of the remaining chores after he left and after I was done I called up bintu to ask her when she was coming back cause she's been gone for too long and had passed the initial date she told me she was returning.After I had spoken to her,her mother collected the phone and that was when she was telling me bintu was going to be getting married soon to one of her cousin's and that why she won't be coming back.I felt bad for bintu cause she has always wanted to study deep both western and Islamic studies.Her mother further explained to me that her uncles(her late father's brothers)made the decision and the girl wasn't really in support she just have no other option than to abide by their decision.I ended the call after I made sure I consoled bintu and asked her not to take any wrong path.

After I was done with the call,I surfed through my Instagram account and I kept seeing blogs posting one family portrait.Every blog posted the picture and it drew my attention and I searched for the story behind the picture.Through the caption and picture of the comment I learnt that the couple were married for about 8 years without a child,after all the medication and stuff and yet they couldn't give birth.They decided to adopt a baby from an orphanage and they did so.They got custody of a new born baby boy and they treated the boy as if it was their own child.Luckily for them both their families supported them and that brought happiness and joy to their lives and after 5 years of the adoption,they got blessed with their own biological twins.

I felt touched reading it,knowing how it felt and the experience was heart breaking.

But then I thought,since it worked for them it could also work for I guess.I could also easily adopt a child and also raise one like my own.This was like a way out for me also,I might not be lucky enough to also give birth later after the adoption but I could also get the happiness of raising up a child,I would get to bath and dress up the child just like every other parent and the child would even call me mother.Am going to get to experience how being a mother feels like,that incredibly feeling!

I couldn't wait for Mahfouz to come back home so I could share this thought of mine,honestly his opinion is what only matters to me cause I've made up my mind not to let other people make the decisions in my life anymore,I was going to do whatever fits my liking without thinking what people will say about it.I eagerly waited for Mahfouz by the door but unfortunately he called me up and told me he wouldn't be back for lunch that he was caugh up with some work.

Although I felt disappointed cause I was eagerly waiting for him to come back and share my thoughts with him.But then I cheered my self up,prepared his favorite food(pounded yam)and the I got beautifully dressed in one of my polka dots short dresses,I made my hair into a ponytail and sat in the living room waiting for Mahfouz to return.

Moments later,Mahfouz came back and I helped him freshened up before I served him his food,I sat next to him smiling warmly as he ate.

"Spill it."he said still eating his food.

"What."I asking giggling and at the same time rolling my eyes.

"I know you have something to say,and you've been smiling for ages since I came back definitely there is something going on in that mind  of yours so spill the beans."he said still focusing on his food.

"I see you're enjoying the food."I said trying. To change the topic.

Cause suddenly I was nervous,I didn't even thought about weather or not Mahfouz would welcome and accept my idea of adopting a baby,beside now he had a child of his own so am sure chances of him accepting my idea would be very slim.I was too excited earlier that I haven't even thought  about it.

"Yes indeed I am,you still haven't told me what's going on with you."he said this time around sipping the coconut juice that I had made.

"Promise me first,promise to seat and think about what am going to tell you,do not make a decision in a haste please."I asked pleadingly.

"What is it sarahhhh."he asked eagerly this time,I could feel it in his voice as the suspense was killing him.

"What do you think of me adopting a baby girl."I blurted out looking straight into his eyes to read his expression but unfortunately his face displayed what I was afraid of.......

Okay beautiful ummah I know it's been a while.

Am so sorry guys I've kept you waiting this long 🥺

I've seen all of your messages and comments asking if I was alright and I should update soon☺️I really appreciate you guys ❤️❤️❤️

Here is the update though.....

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Happy reading 🎊.