A/N: This chapter is in Joshua's P.O.V.

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She laid lazily on the bed with the brown blanket has the only covering she had on, her thighs and chest were exposed. I stared at her for few seconds and when she caught me staring, she fondled her breasts and took off the blanket.

"Come, join me on bed."

My mind travelled back to the first time I met her years ago. It was the day I ran away from home, I had angered father and was too afraid to face his wrath. I was only seven. Running into her was my greatest joy then, she hugged me and took me in her car, promising to keep me safe. Yes, she kept me safe and became a mother to me but barely six months after, her lips said the same words she just said.

"Come, join me in bed."

I shook my head, trying to shake off the echo of her voice in my head. That day, I had joined her in bed. She undressed me and with a reassuring smile on her beautiful face, she trained my hands to become a female body inspector.

The feeling was foreign yet sweet. I was scared but I had no choice. It then became our daily ritual.

She was my first love. I fantasized about her daily in class, I never got enough of her. And when I was ten, she made it official. We had a sexual agreement. Since I was seven, I'd been her sex slave.

I wanted terribly to feel strong hatred for her when I was old enough to understand what was going on between us but I couldn't.

I never talked to her about being used, I was afraid she'll leave and I knew I would never be able to handle her departure from my life.

Years passed, I watched in pain as I became a mere sex toy to my first love. I watched her fall in love with others, I was her pill whenever she was heartbroken. She vented her anger on me sexually. I never had the voice to protest, I saw what heartbreaks do to her and I would never want to experience that. Then... I was given my final assignment -- to be Karleen's driver.

At first it was the foresighted feeling of freedom that made me want to explore love but fate always has its own way. I found myself loving the target...

A hand on my soft bulge interrupted my train of thoughts.

"What are you thinking about?" She asked, pressing her body on mine.

I looked away, begging my junior not to get hard but junior couldn't resist this woman. I haven't trained junior for such a difficult task. "Where's she?"

She unzipped my trousers and found her way into my boxer. "C'mon let's talk in bed. Who are you talking about?"

"We're not going to bed together, Sarah. Where's Karleen?" I spat.

She stroked me, deliberately giving me a hard time. "Are you sure you don't want to go to bed? Josh?"

"Don't... Call me that. Where's Karleen?"

She stroked junior faster. "Why should I know where she is?"

I threw her hands away, shocking us. "I'm serious, Sarah. Where's she?" I yelled.

She narrowed her gaze. "You yelled at me because of her? Wow. She's in hell."

"Answer me while I'm still asking nicely. I know you know something about it."

She laughed sarcastically. "Are you threatening me? I really don't know where she is. I warned her off after dinner. That's the last time I saw her."

I frowned. "You warned her off?"

"I told her to stay away. You're mine."

I closed my eyes. "Why are you doing this to me?"

"Because you fucked up, J. Loving someone else asides me is your crime. And you deserve to be punished by me."

"You're a crazy bastard. You now know how it feels to see someone you love in love with someone else... Congratulations. I've felt that way half of my life thanks to you."

My words caught her off guard. "You never told me. God. Joshua, you never told me. I thought you were fine with it."

It was my turn to laugh sarcastically. Trust me, I did it well. "Fine with it? You never cared about how I felt, did you?"

I cursed my mind for quickly traveling bat to the past when she'd have group sex with me and some guys. Watching them touch her killed me a million times in a second.

"I wanted to care. No. I cared. I just couldn't show it."

"Why?"

She languidly covered her large breasts with her hands and I wondered if she was feeling shy standing before me nude. If she was shy, it's a first time and I hoped it meant a good thing.

She looked away, unconsciously turning her backside to me. "It was an assignment."

"Assignment? From?"

"The Dread."

Then I suddenly remembered it was Christmas.
Hello Santa, thank you for dumping this revelation on me.

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A/N: Merry Christmas from Joshua and Sarah. 😂 It's Christmas here.

LhoneSatrrh.