( warning: mentions of sex and sex in this chapter also PTSD related things)

i open my eyes slowly as my darkened living room comes into view.

my tv being the only light source right now, i reach to turn it off until something shifts beside me.

"stop moving..."a husky voice says.

i smile softly before turning over to face the source.

"we need to get up sleepyhead." i say stroking his cheek.

his grip on my waist tightens as he pulls me closer.

" five more minutes."he mutters.

i sigh as he nuzzles into my neck.

"budoooo, move!" i whine as  he shifts to lay on top of me.

he groans before lifting himself up over me.

i smile at the sight.

his black hair is messier than usual, his shirt is missing showing off his toned body, and his sweatpants hang loosely on his hips.

"like what you see?" he asks with a lazy smile.

i chuckle before nodding my head.

"but we need to get up." i say sitting .

he sighs before standing up.

it's moments like this that make me feel like moving to the other side of town with budo was the best choice.

but that doesn't change the fact that i miss everyone.

my mother.

taro.

...

yeah that's about it other than hanako.

everyone else is dead because of ayono.

i shake off the dark thoughts trying not to trigger my PTSD.

next thing i know strong arms wrap around me and lift me up.

"b-budo!" i shriek clutching onto him as he places me over his shoulder.

"come on, beautiful woman of mine. we are going to shower together!" he shouts before jogging towards the bathroom of our house.

"b-budo p-put m-me d-down!" i exclaim my words shaking with every step he took.

he only chuckles as he nears the bathroom.

i sigh in defeat as he places me on the counter.

my face heats up as he stares at me.

"what?" i say biting my lip nervously.

"your too cute." he exclaims before putting a gentle kiss on my lips.

i blush even more.

"i'll go get our towels and clothes, you can start the shower." he says before trotting out the bathroom leaving me a blushing mess.

i jump off the counter and start the shower and wait for it to warm up.

while i wait my mind drifts back to the thing that makes me wish i didn't leave akedemi high in hopes of him coming back.

nemeko.

it's been 3 years.

you still haven't found me.

are you even trying?

heh... i wouldn't blame you.

i moved to the other side of the city and accepted budo's love confession even though i know i still love you.

stupid, i know.

even after all these years i'm still that clueless schoolgirl that you saved from death.

the schoolgirl that fell for a criminal that would never love her back.

that schoolgirl who couldn't even protect her self.

that schoolgirl who let others die.

that schoolgirl who didn't even care for the dying girls.

that schoolgirl that left her childhood  best friend.

that..

pathetic schoolgirl.

who still is pathetic no matter how hard she trys to hide and run from it.

"hey, y/n you okay?" budo says snapping me out of my trance.

"y-yeah! just thinking." i say with a soft smile.

he smiles widely before removing his clothes.

my face instantly go red as i turn away.

i know he's my boyfriend and all but... damn.

he chuckles at my reaction before nudging me.

my blush darkens before i hesitantly remove my clothes.

i feel him staring and cover my self.

he wraps his arms around me.

"hey, your beautiful. don't hide from me." he says staring into my eyes.

i slowly remove my hands and he gently pulls me into the shower.

i shiver at his touch as he starts washing my back.

"why so nervous? we've done this multiple times." he says curiously.

it's because was thinking about how i'm in love with someone else.

" i-i don't know." i say staring at the faded scars on my legs.

he sees this.

"hey don't pay those any mind. your still beautiful and not even ayono can change that." he say encourgingly.

i smile at his words before turning to face him.

he returns my smile with a goofy one .

i giggle and give him a kiss.

he deepens it and things get heated from there.

~time skip ya nasties! she didn't smash btw. were saving that v-card for papi nemeko.~

i sit on our bed putting on my heels while budo searches for his car keys.

"did you look in the couch?" i ask while he looks on the dresser.

he looks at me with a wide smile.

"no i didn't! i'll go look." he exclaims before rushing down the hall.

i chuckle before standing to get my jacket since it's raining.

i shrug it on and then budo come into the doorway holding the keys.

"what would i do without you, beautiful." he says smiling at me.

i smirk before walking over to him.

"let's gooo!" i say pulling him to the garage.

we get in the car and open the garage door.

the rain taps lightly on the window as we pull off into the darkend streets.

we drive in silence as the rain continues.

the radio plays softly as we contiue our drive to budo's parents house.

yup! that's our destination.

back on the other side of the city

he already met my mother.

now it's my turn to meet his mother and father.

i hope everything goes right.

~ le time skip because i'm lazy~

budo opens my door and i step out the car staring at his childhood home in awe.

he chuckles my reaction before tugging me to the front door.

he rings the doorbell and my anxiety shoots through the roof.

he rubs my arm to calm me down and it surprisingly works.

"it's okay they'll love you." he says with a smile.

i nod and turn my attention back to the front door.

the door opens to reveal a young maid.

"welcome mr.masuta~" she says seductivly.

budo gives her a nod of acknowledgement before casting a smile at me.

i return it as we enter the house.

the maid give me a jealous glare before leading us to the kitchen with a fake smile.

"mr. and mrs. mastua, your son has arrived." she says boredly.

an elderly woman and man turn to face us with curious faces.

the woman gasps when she sees me.

a wide smile explodes on her beautiful face before she rushes over to me with open arms.

"hello! you must be y/n!" she exclaims squeezing the life out of me.

"y-yes." i let out a strangled answer.

"m-mom! your squeezing to hard!" budo exclaims.

his mother is surpisingly strong.

"oh my! sorry,親愛 なる" she say embarassed.(親愛 なる= dear in japanese)

i chuckle.

" it's alright, mrs. masuta."i say with a smile.

"please call me kiyomi!" she says holding my hands.( shoutout 

" okay,kiyomi." i say.

i see where budo gets his kindness from.

" and call me Akio. it's nice to meet you y/n" budo's father says with a warm smile.

this is going well!

i smile as i sit with kiyomi drinking tea and talking about things, not noticing budo's absence.

~  time skip get ready for a big  O O F~

"i'll go get budo!" i say as i go towards the stairs.

"okay!" kiyomi responds before continuing to set the table.

i get up the stairs and make my way down the maze of hallways.

where could he be?

i peek my head into every door i pass trying to find him until i come across the last door.

i near it and hear loud moaning coming from inside.

i tense as i slowly turn the knob.

i open the door and my heart shatters.

BUDO HAD THE MAID BENT OVER AND WAS FUCKING HER!

"~ooh god i missed you, claire." he moans throwing his head back.

"~ i see that y/n still- ha... i-isn't- uhh... giving you s-sex." she says between moans.

"yeah, s-she's pathetic." he responds with a smirk

i gag and catch budos attention.

"s-shit! y/n!"he exclaims pulling out of the maid.

tears that i didn't even know were there fall down my face.

"y-you... i-i can't belive you." i say with a shaky voice.

i turn and run down the hallway surprisingly finding my way out.

"hey 親愛 なる, what's wrong?" kiyomi asks after seeing my hurt face.

i just shake my head before running out of the house.

budo calls after me but i run faster away to the only place i can find comfort and know budo won't find me.

taro's house.

the rain soaks through my dress. i stop and take off my heels  so i wouldn't hurt myself and continue sprinting ,this time faster.

the darkened streets of my childhood bring more tears to my eyes as i pass the playground where i met taro and osana when i was younger.

my bare feet splashing in puddles as continue running.

i pass akedemi high and feel my ptsd being triggered.

this slows me down a bit as i near the spot where ayono first attacked me.

my breathing starts to quicken as i come closer to the alley.

i trip and fall scraping my knee.

i hit the ground splashing water and hurting my elbows.

i try to calm my breathing as i shakily turn my head to face the alley.

i stare into the dark alley as i feel the bad memories claw their way to the front of my mind.

the moon.

the stars.

the pain.

the running.

and her.

ayono.

i scramble to get up and force my self to run not wanting anymore of these haunting memories to continue.

but they do.

i just keep seeing her sadistic grin.

it taints my mind.

i sigh in releif as i reach taro's house.

i bang frantically on his door hoping for him to answer.

i see the house lights flick on and the door opens and i'm met with his grey eyes.

they widen in shock at the sight of my wet, bleeding form.

i let out a sob and throw my arms around him.

he closes the door behind me and holds me close.

i continue to sob into his chest as he rubs soothing circles on my back.

the terrifying memories continue to cloud my mind as i sob my soul out.

"ssh, it's okay y/n. relax" i hear taro say trying to soothe me.

my sobs slowly turn to sniffles.

and I relax.

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Ight,before you all attack me for my little cheater budo idea i'd like to say i had to find some way to get you to be avalible to nemeko sooo...yea! and also i didn't know the names of budo's parents so i made them up and i also would like to clear up is that in the begining you and budo were sleep on the couch. i will emphizise SLEEP because were all dirty minded here.

i did shoutout biggbumbitch because she and i made up the name kiyomi for something else and i just borrowed it for this chapter. yup! this is the last you'll see of the masuta family.

i would also like to say i know nothing about PTSD so if i got somthing wrong my bad i'm not familiar with the subject.

alright! thank you for reading!

i love all you nuggets,

writer_chan101