Nighttime.

It was nighttime and Taehyung hadn't thought this through. He got a sneak peak of getting to sleep next to Yoongi and suddenly he can't fall asleep to save his life. He closes his eyes but he can't drift off. He cuddled the pillow that Yoongi slept on, but the scent of Yoongi still lingered on it. It teased Taehyung to the point where he threw the pillow away and turned over to find another one.

Yoongi did tell him that he'd sleep in his bed only until the power came back on. Neither of them expected for it to come on soon. Moon-Seok had called Taehyung and Yoongi both multiple times to check up on them. When they weren't answering he decided to come check up on them. Turns out that a power pole had fallen on the mountain and it hadn't been noticed until Moon-Seok came up there.

He stayed for a while and apologized to the two for being stuck up at the lodge. He even gave them a generous amount of money— even if they didn't need or want it— so that they could go buy a bunch of food and snacks for their last two days at the lodge. A treat.

Taehyung was more excited about the food part than Yoongi was, even though Yoongi seems to enjoy food just as much as him. They decided that tomorrow will be shopping day and that they'll spend it all.

They were meant to get up early in the morning to make a list, but neither of them seemed to sleep well and ended up waking up at almost lunch time. Taehyung felt like he could just fall over and sleep again as he walked down the stairs to the kitchen. The lodge was finally warm and he was playing soft music from his lovely phone. Something he never knew he needed so much until he was without it for five long days.

Jimin called a billion times, wondering where his best friend was. He almost screamed into Taehyung's ear last night when Taehyung finally found service to call him and explained everything in full detail about the power. And he may have talked about Yoongi as well.

He couldn't help it.

Jimin is his best friend and the only other person that he can talk to about things. He was surprised at the few jokes and laughter coming from Taehyung. Taehyung didn't pay any attention to him when he mentioned it. He just kept on talking about the lodge stay.

Now, as he walked into the bright kitchen, he wished he could call Jimin again and tell him how beautiful this place is. It was nice before, but now that it has lights and warmth, it truly does feel like a stay. Like a vacation.

"Taehyungie." Yoongi called him from the dining table. Taehyung turned to see puffy faced Yoongi with a water bottle sitting in front of him and his phone in his hand. "C'mere." He softly patted the table. "I'm hungry. Let's hurry up and make that list. Want cereal."

Yoongi's pout as he opened the notes in his phone was adorable and Taehyung couldn't help but obey and sit down in front of him. The older still looked drained from energy despite how far from morning it was. His hair was slightly messy and his eyes were drilling a hole into his phone as he looked at it.

"Cereal on the list." Taehyung said. If Yoongi wanted cereal, so be it. Taehyung wants fruit. "Add strawberries. Oh, and add—"

"Tangerines." Yoongi mumbled as he typed onto his phone, saving his thoughts. Taehyung chuckled at the poor non-early bird.

"Cola." Taehyung wants cola.

He was slightly aware that this was the first time that he'd be going shopping with Yoongi. Maybe it would be weird. Maybe Yoongi would judge him for the type of food he liked. Maybe it would be awkward for both of them.

Some of their morning consists of doing just that. Listing off things within their budget and laughing coldly as they realize that they're only buying groceries for two days. They want longer than two days, but reality is reality and the power isn't going to go off again and leave them to stay at the lodge forever.

They eventually wrote down everything in Yoongi's notes and finally started to head for the grocery store. They couldn't walk because the mountain is too far away from any stores, so Taehyung called another taxi for them.

The store wasn't like the stores that are back home, so both of them wondered around for what seemed like hours just to read and translate some of the stuff there just for them to know what they were. Yoongi was reading his list and getting what they needed while Taehyung was looking at other things.

He wondered how it was going to be when he went back home. Wondered if Yoongi would actually ever call him. Pictured hanging out with Yoongi back home and taking walks like Taehyung usually does after work. Maybe he could take photos of him, even. Photos of Yoongi in Seoul instead of at the lodge.

Photos of Yoongi falling asleep on his couch instead of the couch at the lodge. Yoongi in Taehyung's house and photos of Yoongi cooking in Taehyung's kitchen instead.

He thought about how weird it would be to introduce Yoongi to Jimin. Like his two worlds clashing together. He knew that Jimin would embarrass him and knew that Yoongi would probably just start laughing with Jimin. On second thought, Jimin is too big of a flirt for Taehyung to want Yoongi to meet him. What if Jimin and Yoongi hit it off well?

Why does that even matter to Tae?

  Taehyung didn't noticed that Yoongi was reaching for something on a high shelf at first. He was too busy thinking about other things. But when his eyes landed on him, he felt his whole body refresh like an app as he saw Yoongi on his toes and his hands holding onto the shelf. Yoongi sighed and stopped reaching before he looked back at Taehyung with his eyebrows raised slightly and a small pout, as if he was asking for help from the younger.

  It was the last box of the cereal that Yoongi wanted and it just happened to be high on the shelf. Taehyung just smiled down at Yoongi and the cute pout on his lips that he wished he could kiss away and make him happier.

Why does he keep thinking of that?
Kissing Yoongi.

He can't do that.

  Instead, he picks up the cereal and places it in the shopping cart. "There you go." He simply smiles at Yoongi. The older nods softly.

"Thank you."

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  Yoongi looked up at Taehyung from the other side of the couch. Taehyung stared back at him, the deep brown color of Yoongi's eyes completely putting the man in a trance. He barely even noticed that Yoongi looked away from him and cleared his throat.

  "It's our second to last day here, you know." Yoongi suddenly said. That brought the younger from his trance— the mention of the countdown for how much longer they have. Two more days. Basically one and a half at this point. "We should do more stuff together. We can play video games now or we could binge watch something." Yoongi pointed to the hallway, which had another room that had a big TV and a sectional couch inside of it.

  Taehyung hummed as he thought about the hallway. It had a door at the very end of it and the door went to the outside jacuzzi. They hadn't looked at it much, but Taehyung  wanted to drown his body in the warmth all of a sudden. He'd been tired of being cold and needing to cuddle everything for warmth.

He just wants to relax and be cozy.

  "Or we could chill in the jacuzzi." He saw the smile on Yoongi's lips form after he spoke.

  "I forgot about that." Yoongi's eyes were wider even though he was smiling. "You want to?" He asked, his voice raising a higher pitch than normal. It made Taehyung's stomach swirl.

  He bit his lip thinking about being in the water with Yoongi. He thought about the day he walked in on Yoongi in the bathroom tub and he remembers his thoughts when he saw the water dripping from his skin. The thought of that day sent shivers down Taehyung's spine because he was setting himself up to see it all except the naked part over again.

This time, intentionally.

  He remembers how he freaked out at the sight of Yoongi in the tub. Not merely because Yoongi was naked and hiding himself, but because Taehyung hadn't had physical contact with anyone else or even seen anyone else naked before like that. He remembers thinking how pretty Yoongi's skin was and how he was suddenly going lightheaded from it. He remembers how he couldn't stop thinking of Yoongi at night after that. It was weird.

  "If you want to." Taehyung has screwed himself over for sure. He's screaming inside as he thinks about being in the water with Min Yoongi. He's not sure he'll make it.

  "Let's go." Yoongi smiled a simple smile that made Taehyung want to pull his hair.

  He watched as Yoongi stood up from the couch and made his way to the steps.

  Taehyung was suddenly fragile. He felt his body sink into the couch even more instead of standing up and going to get dressed like Yoongi was. His bones felt like paper and his skin was like quick sand. His mind was swirling with too many different scenarios.

  Too fragile. Like glass.
  He could break any moment.

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  They both decided to wear shirts into the water since the jacuzzi was outside and the sun was starting to set. It was getting cooler and cooler as the night approached. Taehyung was still worried about going into the jacuzzi with Yoongi, but he tried his best to focus on other things instead. The sunset. The sun looked like an egg yolk being drowned into the woods that surrounded the lodge. The trees. They were also an easy distraction because of the occasional squirrel or bunny he'd see run across and shuffle into them. The lights.

Taehyung found a plug-in for the pretty yellow lights outside and he plugged it up right as Yoongi stepped outside. It surprised both of them when the lights instantly lit up the outside and shined against the wet wood and the water of the jacuzzi, which Taehyung had also turned on a while ago, before he got dressed in his swimsuit and t-shirt to get in with. The lights were shiny and pretty.

  Probably too pretty for the night.

They had little flowers across the wires leading to the actual lights themselves and it seemed like a movie scene once they came on. The whole entire lodge was lit with them.

"Should've gotten some drinks." Yoongi placed his phone and speaker down on the little table outside. First of all, Taehyung does not want drinks. It's the least thing he'll need tonight. Sometimes he can do crazy things when he drinks enough. Sometimes he can do crazy things without drinking though.

  The first thing he noticed about Yoongi was his pretty legs and the fact that his swim shorts were short as hell. They were black and his big shirt was beige. The shirt hung loosely on him which made him look smaller. His dirty blonde hair was a little messy like earlier, but he still looked good like that. Looked carefree and absolutely beautiful. And Taehyung wondered if Yoongi really was carefree like that.

"You can use my speaker."

Taehyung suddenly realized that Yoongi was already stepping up to get into the jacuzzi and that he had just been standing there like an idiot watching him. Yoongi looked content with the warm water as he sat down, so Taehyung just shrugged and walked to Yoongi's speaker to bluetooth his phone to it.

He played soft music and finally made his way to the jacuzzi, his heart suddenly pounding faster than normal. It wasn't merely getting into the jacuzzi with Yoongi that was making him freak out. It was the way he'd see Yoongi in water again. The water dropping from his pretty skin, tracing a line down his slim body. Or Yoongi playing in the water like a kitten getting distracted by the simplest things. Or the way Yoongi smiled so happily at the warmth and the relaxation he received from it. Like he needed to be relaxed and cared for.

Taehyung sat down on the opposite side of Yoongi, not needing to get any closer if he didn't have to. Yoongi was playing viscously with the water and Taehyung tried to just watch and relax like Yoongi was doing.

"You want to go under?" Taehyung asked.

Yoongi finally made sudden eye contact with him. Taehyung blinked, his big eyes suddenly glued on Yoongi as he just stood up and walked to the middle of the jacuzzi, his eyes never leaving Taehyung's. Taehyung followed him. He felt like it was the obvious thing to do.

"Count to three." Yoongi was looking up at Taehyung with his pretty eyes shining from the dull decorative lights around them.

  Taehyung did as he was told, watching Yoongi the whole time he slowly counted from three.

  Three: Taehyung watched as Yoongi's smile appeared, because Taehyung had listened to him instead of making fun of him for wanting a countdown. He felt happy whenever Yoongi smiled, so he just smiled right back at him.

  Two: The sun was disappearing, but neither of them cared. They had their lights. It was enough for them. Just enough for them to see each other. Plus, the jacuzzi had LEDs.

  One: Taehyung felt the sudden need to hold onto this little number. Like the countdown was a stumble in their life. Like everything would end at the count of one. And maybe it would. Maybe the world could end right here, right now. But Taehyung would be glad to be able to spend his last moments right here, searching the most beautiful pair of eyes he's ever seen. Sharing this moment with Yoongi.

They held eye contact until they were both suddenly closing their eyes and pulling themselves under the warm water.

  It wasn't such a big deal, but Taehyung didn't want any of this to end. He didn't want the end of the world just yet. He felt that as he dove under, so he reached his hands out under the heated water and felt for Yoongi. He wanted to keep him here. Yoongi's cheeks, he believes is what he captured. He kept them underneath the surface. He never wanted to let go. If they go back up, what if it all ends? What if it was all a dream? He held tighter as Yoongi started to go up for air, but he followed him.

When they came up, Yoongi was almost gasping for air. The cold air made both of them shiver, but it felt so nice. Yoongi was out of breath from being under water and his eyes were still closed because his hair was in his eyes. But Taehyung was still holding onto his cheeks softly, wondering how it would be like if he was the reason that Yoongi was out if breath. Wondering how it would feel.

Wondering if Yoongi would feel the electricity. Wondering if he himself would feel that. What if Yoongi wanted that to happen? What if they both wanted the same thing? Maybe Taehyung hadn't been the only one wanting to do it.

He pushed Yoongi's wet hair out of his eyes and got a short glimpse of those pretty, confused eyes, and Yoongi's forehead that he rarely ever sees before he dives straight in.

  Straight into Min Yoongi's lips.

  Taehyung leaned his whole body in to press his lips needily against Yoongi's. Something he'd wanted to feel for a while— and Yoongi's lips were soft, just like he'd imagined. Yoongi wasn't fighting back and so Taehyung wasn't going to stop. He didn't want to stop kissing at Yoongi's upper lip. Didn't want to take his hands away from Yoongi's cheek or Yoongi's hair, which he hadn't noticed he had ahold of until he was pulling Yoongi forward.

  It didn't take long before Yoongi started to kiss him back just as much, if not more. Like he had been waiting just as long as Taehyung had been. Taehyung felt Yoongi moving them backwards and he didn't stop when Yoongi pushed him back into his seat and he didn't stop Yoongi when he crawled into his lap, feeling him sit and press his body into him.

Taehyung pressed his lips harder against Yoongi and pulled him in by his tiny waist, feeling his tummy collide with his. His hands were big on Yoongi's body, but he felt like they were meant to touch Yoongi in any way possible. Like he was a blanket and he wanted to be all over Yoongi. He wanted to drink up Yoongi like iced water after a workout.

He let Yoongi place his arms on his shoulders as he started sucking on Taehyung's bottom lip as slowly as possible— completely different pace that Taehyung had set. He instantly melted and sighed contently at Yoongi's kisses.

Yoongi wasn't sure why Taehyung had suddenly kissed him, but he found it in himself not to care for the moment. He let everything slide right past his mind for a good moment and he just kissed back, loving the soft yet dominating feeling of Taehyung against him.

  Taehyung was kissing at his top lip— but when he suddenly stopped was when Yoongi whined— a little too needy for the feeling of Taehyung against him. But Taehyung moved his kisses to the older's jaw, letting his hands roam up and down Yoongi's sides slowly. Yoongi loved the tingly feeling in his body from every small movement Taehyung made.

Yoongi tried hard not to whine when Taehyung started kissing his neck, feeling his soft lips tickle at his sensitive skin. Fireworks were going off all in Yoongi's mind. He didn't know what to think, so he didn't. He just let the feeling overtake him and his body.

  Taehyung started sucking onto Yoongi's neck, bruising his milky skin with red marks. The older tried his best to keep still at the feeling but he wanted to rock his hips in such a needy way that he started to question how long it had been since he'd felt this way. Suddenly, Yoongi was feeling teeth brush agaisnt the skin on his neck— and he felt Taehyung bite into him.

  Yoongi let out a small breathy moan accidentally at the amazingly painful bite. Taehyung hummed in response as Yoongi tried to cover his mouth from any more noises.

He never knew that he could like biting so much, but he had never had anyone do this to him like this. He'd never felt this good doing anything with anyone else. The feeling of Taehyung's teeth sinking into him and marking him up felt nicer than he thought it would.

Taehyung pressed his thumb into Yoongi's inner thigh. He hadn't even noticed that Taehyung's hand had moved there at first. The gesture shot a strange feeling throughout his whole body. One he hadn't felt in a while. One that used to feel normal to him. A feeling that he had lost sight of. One he doesn't want.

He started to panic when he really noticed where Taehyung was taking this. He shifted back a little bit and Taehyung moved away from his neck, looking up at Yoongi. Yoongi didn't like the coldness on his neck now, but he didn't know what to do in the moment.

He wanted to kiss Taehyung. Really liked the touches and his skin against his. Already missed the feeling.. But he's scared. It was all too much for him. Too overwhelming.

  He noticed the promising look in Taehyung's eyes. But he also sees lust. Lust. What he's used to seeing, of course. That feeling. He's used to his body being used with his past experiences. He suddenly felt drained of all of the energy in his body. Like Taehyung had just sucked out all of his precious energy and threw it away. He's used to seeing lust filled eyes with people besides seeing love filled eyes.

  Of course.

Taehyung leaned forward and left a soft kiss right onto Yoongi's lips. It felt like his promising look was turning into promising kisses, but Yoongi didn't trust it. He unhooked his eyes from staring back into Taehyung's and Taehyung found the need to place his hand on Yoongi's cheek and lean forward to place an even softer kiss on Yoongi's lips once again.

"Are you okay?" Taehyung frowns as Yoongi grabbed his hand and forced it away.

Yoongi's heart clenched as he fell back into the water, leaving Taehyung to sit there all alone. He felt like he could just let his body sink into the water if he really wanted to. He doesn't know what to say as he starts to get out of the jacuzzi. "I'm sorry, Taehyungie."

  That's all he can think of.

Taehyung stands up in the water, watching in confusion as Yoongi starts to leave him.

"Ah, Yoongi, wait—"

But Yoongi was already wrapping himself in his towel and running back into the lodge. He didn't care how much water he was dragging into the lodge. He needed to get away.

He doesn't want to be used again.

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ty to the peoples who helped me proof read this like 4 times hhh

ALSO THEY FINALLY KISSED HELP

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