"Look up at me, Please Baby." His voice changes this time as it comes out into million of times sweeter like honey. He actually begs because it hurts him too. He wants to see what your eyes are holding at this moment.

Your grip on the gun loosens more as your hands start shaking and the gun drops to the floor and you back off.

Stop it. Please STOP IT.

You hear the voice in your head as your breath gets heavier and heavier.

My father died in front of me.
He is the one my father was saving.

"Stop it. Will you please?" You mumble. "Y/n... Are you okay?" Jimin asks as you are stepping back from him after dropping the gun. You don't know what he is seeing, your whole body crouching and your eyes wide open in fear.

Your hands, your legs, they are shaking and your breath is so heavy that you can barely breathe. His expressions show that he is worried. He knows that nothing is alright but seeing your shaking like this threatens him.

"Look up at me, Please baby."

"AGHHHH, PLEASE STOP. STOP IT FOR GOD DAMN SAKE. STOP IT." You feel manipulated by his words as they ring repeatedly in your head.

You screamed and cried your lungs out to say those words and you finally broke down on the floor covering your ears with your palms.

In a second of minute, your whole past showed up in front of you. The blood, your father, the gun shots, his uneven breath, you crying out, your mom getting to the operation theatre in the emergency and your uncle and aunt being shot in front of you.

You feel dizzy, It doesn't make sense. This is not the time for your trauma to come and show up. Everything seems blurry, you barely notice that Jimin is running towards in panic and his muffled voices what is he even saying.

It all feels hazy and like a nightmare but this nightmare doesn't wake you up in light but it makes you go in deep slumber and it's all black the very next moment. You barely feel Jimin's touch, embracing you from back, you barely feel your own body if you're even alive.

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"Hyung!! Hyung, please help me. She is not waking up. Taehyung-ah, She's unconscious." Jimin cries as he sees you falling unconsciously in his arms. He shakes you holding your arm from back and calling your name.

It doesn't work so he calls out for his brothers who are watching astoundingly but they run to him as soon as they hear him calling out.

"Jimin, Calm down. Take her to your room first." Namjoon says as Jimin keeps staring at you. Tears fall down his eyes. He feels helpless. He doesn't know the girl who was aiming at him before, is now in his arms and struggling to even breathe.

He wants to save you. Even if you kill him after waking up, he wants you to stay alive. He quickly picks you up in his arms, his one hand on the back of you and another down your waist. Your head falls on his chest and your legs and hands hang freely in the air as he picks you up in bridal style.

"Y/n, Please Open your eyes. Speak to me. I'm sorry for everything. Y/n, Please say something. Why are you even unconscious?" He speaks to you when you are not even able to listen to him.

He quickly walks to his room going out of the basement while some of the boys follow him and help him to reach quickly to the room. Jungkook, the youngest one opens every door for him and Taehyung set the bed before you can lay down.

Hoseok runs to the kitchen and fills the glass the water to take it up to Jimin's room where you have gone. Jin goes to his room and search for his medical equipment kit. Yoongi knocks on Jin's door as he says, "It was in my room. Come."

Namjoon who is in the basement picks up Jimin's gun and eye out the room before going out. He locks it correctly and runs upstairs to Jimin's room where everyone is.

Jimin continues to rub your hands and feet so the warmth can wake you up. But you are just unconscious, unable to feel even someone's touch on you. Everyone arrives there as no one speaks but just Jimin who is keep trying to wake you up.

"Jimin, Jin is here." Yoongi says as Jimin sits on the edge of the bed from the stool. You're laying on the bed and others standing around in the room. Jin sits on the stool beside the bed as he checks your breathing first with the help of stethoscope.

"We need to call the professional. It won't work out." Jin says still focusing on you as he stands up emptying the table beside the bed sliding all the stuffs on it down the floor. He doesn't care of it but takes out a machine and put it on the table he just emptied.

"Hyung, What's wrong? What are you doing?" Jimin asks as his voice comes out strained and hoarse. His eyes filled with guilt, worries and concern.

"Her breathing is so uneven. Quickly call the Doctor. I can't treat her." Jin almost yells out as Jimin worriedly looks at Namjoon and nods to him. Namjoon nods back and goes out of the room calling the doctor.

Jimin holds your hand as he stares at you, your weak body, your pale face and dry lips. He is filled with fear, the fear of losing you. Especially losing you the day he met you. Taehyung approaches him as he gently lays his hand on Jimin's shoulder.

"She will be fine. Don't worry." Taehyung says as Jimin watches Jin, putting the oxygen mask on your mouth and press the button of the machine he puts on the table before. Jin turns to look at Jimin as Jimin gives him the most pitied look.

"It's because of shock I think. Rest, the Doctor will tell." Jin says. Jimin bites his lower lip before pressing his lips in. He looks down as the tears fall down his eyes and he says between his sobs, "It's all because of me." His voice comes out muffled but members still manages to listen to him.

They all come and embrace him while Taehyung hugs him closely. "Don't say something like this. Be strong my brother." Hoseok says as he rubs his back. Jimin's hand is still holding yours tightly.

"Hyung, She needs your strength. Don't be like this." Jungkook says it as Jimin nods. Namjoon comes into the room as he says, "Doctor is here." Everyone steps back to look at the man in his forties as he seems someone familiar.

"Mr. Kim Namjoon told me about the situation." The Doctor says. "Dr. Choi." Jimin stands up and approach him. "Don't worry, Mr. Park. She will be fine." He says as Jimin nods and take him to you.

"Her breathing was uneven so I put the oxygen mask." Jin says. "Very well Done, Mr. Kim." He says as he starts from taking your temperature to your blood pressure.

"How did you get him so quickly?" Yoongi asks Namjoon while doctor is doing his work. "I drove there myself and told him about the situation on our way to here. Fortunately, he wasn't on any treatment." Namjoon replies.

"Even if he was, You would have made him leave it." Yoongi says while smirking as he walks away from him. Namjoon glares at him, talking casually about it.

"Is she taking a lot of pressure?" The Doctor asks. "I don't know. I just met her today." Jimin replies as he is on the edge of the bed again.

"Mr. Park, Her blood pressure went low. And as Mr. Kim told me about the situation earlier you both had, It's Vasovagal Syncope I think." The doctor says. "What?" Jimin raises an eyebrow in confusion.

"This can occur when a person experiences a stressful event including the sight of blood, emotional stress, physical trauma, emotional trauma or pain. Your heart slows down and pumps less blood, so your blood pressure drops. Then, your brain doesn't get enough oxygenated blood, and you faint."

"She must have a lot on her mind at the time she fainted. This may not be the first time as she survived this. The person can even stop breathing for 2 minutes straight if he/she gives up on the fear they try to face. Don't let her be in a situation like this."

Jimin is stunned listening to the doctor. He doesn't know what your past was, what you have been gone through.

"Mr. Park, You know what trauma is. It's not only that scares you, they provoke you to die. In that case, your will power seems to fail because your mind stops working. If she has something like this, then you guys need to talk to her or don't talk to her at all. Her brain and heart are sensitive, you need to take care of her."

The Doctor says as he continues with his treatment. He tells Jimin about some exercises you might try and nutrients you should take. Of course It won't help with the trauma but will better the strength of your brain and heart.

"Doctor. I don't know what she is going through. We have been away from each other and just meet. I know asking her what it is won't help but how can i even know what she fears the most? What her trauma is about?" Jimin asks.

"I am understanding you Mr. Park but you can't force her to talk it out. Be patient. Tell her about yourself. I know you also had the quite same experience. It may sympathetise her. Or, You just have to find it out yourself by observing her." The doctor says and Jimin's face hangs down as he scans your face.

"Are you sure It's about her trauma? I mean, She really can have it. But does she have acted that way before because of it?" Jimin asks. He still wants to find out more about you.

"What do you think else? She was determined to shoot you but then she drops the gun and screams 'stop it stop it'. You asked her about her past, Didn't you? Her father died in an accident but she said he was murdered." The doctor raises an eyebrow at Jimin.

The doctor sighs as he studies Jimin's confused and worried face. He quickly tore a paper from his notepad and write some priscriptions as he stands up and say, "Let's talk for a minute in private." The doctor nudges his head towards the door.

Jimin nods as he goes out with the doctor. "Jimin, You need to know a lot about her. That's the only way you can know about her past and maybe as she said Mr. Woo Bin was murdered, she can be right. You need to think a lot about it, dear. Understand what I'm trying to say."

"I know, Dr. Choi. If he was murdered then there can be surity that they're the one who killed my parents." Jimin replies as look back into the room at you.

"You need to take care of her, Jimin. Remember what your father used to tell you?" Dr. Choi says. "Hm" Jimin nods looking down. "When Mafia loves, He learns to protect. He learns to be kind. He even protects her smile." Dr. Choi says.

"I know, Dr. Choi but I was so out of my mind when I saw her like this today. Never have I ever thought that we will be meeting like this. I don't know what she has gone through and everything but we were enemies there and I couldn't even take it at all." Jimin says.

"I understand, dear. Do you remember what you used to tell me when you used to visit my clinic with your father? You were this small, just 11 or 12 years old." Dr. Choi says lifting his hand and telling your height by his palm.

Jimin looks closely at him. What does this old guy wanna say at all? He knows him. He has worked with his father for more than 20 years. He knows a lot. He has been a family doctor of the Park and Kim family. You know him too but it's too bad that you are unconscious at this time.

"Doctor, If you go to check on Y/n. Make sure to tell her that I miss her a lot and One day, I will tell her the truth that I care for her. Doctor, She eats a lot of snacks. Please, tell her about the side effects. She never listens to any of us."

Mr. Park, Jimin's Father smiles widely listening to him while Dr. Choi nods with everything he was saying. They both were seeing a kid talking like a big guy he will ever be.

"Anyways, If she says that she feels nervous for her class presentation then tell her to eat chocolates before going for it. Tell her that she's so small to perform best in her academics and yeah, One more thing..."

"What it is?" Mr. Park asks. Jimin looks at his father and feels nervous before saying it out. He quickly pouts. "What is it lil boyfriend material? You can tell." Mr. Park embraces his son and asks.

Jimin turns to Dr. Choi and says with a pout, "Can you please tell her that Boys are not good so she stays away from them?" He looks at the Doctor with puppy eyes and asks to listen to him.

Dr. Choi and Jimin's father, both laughed at Jimin's words. "Look, You guys are laughing. That's why I was nervous. Appa, This is serious." He whines.

"Fine. Fine. Fine. Dr. Choi, You heard him right?" Mr. Park asks as Dr. Choi nodded with a smile. "Will you come with me next time I go to see her?" Dr. Choi asks.

"Am I allowed to?" He looks at his father. His father shook his head in disappointment. The sad boy looks at the doctor again, "No, She asks lots of questions and I know I can't answer them. I don't want to hurt her. Please, Tell her all this for me." The boy says.

His father hugs him as he was about to cry. "Oh dear, Don't be sad. You know what, She even jumps a lot around in the house. Do you want me to tell her not to do this because she can hurt herself." The doctor asks.

"No, She won't listen. That's what she does with her will to make herself happy. It's only me who can stop her." The boy says, when his eyes are filled with tears and lower lip curved outwards. He is small but maybe not so mature. But He is understanding.

"I remember." Jimin says and Dr. Choi smiles and says, "So, Mr. Park, You're the only one who can help her and stop her. She has come to this world. You better stop her or support her." Jimin nods.

"I'll tell Namjoon Hyung to drop you back home. Be safe Dr. Choi." Jimin says as he bows to him and goes back into the room. It leaves a smile on Doctor's face and he sighs with satisfaction.

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Meanwhile, You see yourself dressed in a white as you walk over the clouds over the stairs. The place was so Angelic. All you can see is white.

Is there where Angels live?

Am I dead?

"Y/n..." You hear a familiar voice. You turn to the voice only to see your father sitting on the white bench cover with green soft and green twigs and leaves. He is still the same.

Small eyes and wrinkled face, His long black hair he used to like a lot. His plain lips that are same as yours. He is wearing the same shirt and suit he was wearing on the day he died.

"Appa!!" Your throat starts hurting as you speak out the word which took you years to call him. The urge to call him and he listens to you. "Dear..." He stands up as his eyes filled with tears and he walks forward to you.

"Appa. It's you." You feel something struck in your throat but you walk to him quickly and hug him. It feels so surreal, feeling his body around you once again. You feel the need to just leave yourself to him. He always protects you.

"Y/n, Dear. What are you doing here?" Your father asks. You break the hug while sobbing and looks around. You wipe your tears which just fell. You take the place in surprise.

"I don't know Appa. What is this place?" You ask. "You don't know? How did you even come here?" He asks. "I don't know Appa. I just..." You remember the situation you were in and how you fainted.

"Am I dead? Because of panic attack I had?" You look surprisingly at your father. "No, Dear. It's not possible. Tell me what actually happened." He asks.

"Appa, I... I met Jimin and You know... I actually... hating... I don't know. I was, Appa I'm a Mafia now just like you. Do you know? I didn't know about you but then, I suddenly find it out. I... shocked... panicking that day. Eomma, She's in coma...I'm working with my enemies. Appa, Jimin, he's actually a mafia. I depressed... Uncle and Aunt die in front of me and..."

"Y/N... RELAX DEAR." Your father raises his voice and hugs you again. You are so into your stories trying to tell him everything that has happened in once and it just took your breathe away. You hyped up and breathe heavily and he hugs you to calm you down.

"I know, I know you have gone through a lot. Calm down my princess. I'm sorry. It's because of me." He cries out and you sob into his embrace.

"Mr. Woo-Bin, Is she Y/n?" You hear some other very unfamiliar voice. Your father breaks the hug and looks back and so you. You see the pair of couple standing in front of you. You feel like you have seen them but you don't know them at all.

"Yeah. She's Y/n, My lovely daughter." Your father confirms them. The lady looks at you with a gaze filled with love and care. She walks to you quickly and palms your face, "Oh My God! She has grown up a lot. She is a million times more Beautiful now."

You look at them with an unknowing gaze. Your puffed eyes can't recognise them or remember them at all. The man behind the lady comes over and pats his wife's shoulder. He looks at you with a wide smile and tug a strand of your long black hair behind your ear and soothes your head.

You unknowingly look at them filled with love for you. "Do I know both of you? It seems like you know me but I'm confused." You say.

"Do you remember your neighbour, the aunt who you used to call you every time she baked a cake? You were so small then." The lady says and you confusingly look at her.

"Do you remember the uncle who let you play in his opera room with his son. You used to play all the instruments and jumped around in the room?" The man says with a smile.

You look from him to your father. "Do you remember, Jimin?" Your father asks and you quickly nodded and then realisation hits you. You look at the couples again. They are dressed so casually.

The man wearing a black suit with a white shirt underneath and the lady is wearing a long maxi dress of blue, pink and white flower prints. She is so beautiful and you can now tell that Jimin looks like her in many ways. Jimin's eyes are same as this lady before her.

"Jimin's Parents?" You ask in your low voice. They nod. "Are you... Are you dead too? Like my father?" You hesitate before asking. They nod and you gasps out loudly palming your mouth.

"Jimin's parents died?" You step back in shock. "It's ok dear. We know our son is doing fine. He has you." The lady says. "How can you trust me? I am only hating him." You say breaking into tears.

"You have the right. You also have the reason. I know how hard it is for you as well but just don't leave our son alone. His whole life is about you. He has been living for you." The man says and you look at both of them.

You have a lot of questions but feel the time is skipping. You think you're dead and can't go back to life, to him. "What is this place? Can't I go back now? Am I trapped here?" You ask.

"No. No, Dear. You can't be trapped." They say. "So where I am? How can I meet you? Appa, Answer me. What's going on?" You ask.

All confused and filled with questions. So many things to ask, to tell. But how? It feels like you're running out of time and It feels same as you have a lot of time. You can stay here just for so long or It will just disappear in seconds.

Appa, I'm dead. You're just not telling me. Can I stay forever with you now?

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End of Chapter-18

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