jungwoo was sixteen when he told him his secret;

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sitting down on the bed, facing each other, jungwoo stared intently at the taller male he is with while yukhei was looking back at him with a playful grin. it actually has been a while since the two of them had a sleepover. they just got a little bit busy with school and also has different group of friends to hang out with which made the two of them have less time to be with each other.

❝yukhei, i'm going to be straightforward with you.❞ right, straightforward. that word made jungwoo snort internally since he wasn't really straight to begin with.

the younger had no idea what was going on at all, which is why he had kept a smiling face thinking that jungwoo called him for a sleepover just to have fun. ❝is this going to be one of those segments where you confess—❞

❝what!?❞

❝that you fainted after holding a frog?❞ yukhei's voice lowered and not to mention how he flinched when he heard the older suddenly shout. ❝damn, what got you all hyped up?❞

heaving out a stressful sigh, jungwoo pinched the bridge of his nose. he should have known better that this was his dense bestfriend he his talking to. his bestfriend since he was five, just a little boy. remembering the past, jungwoo is honestly lucky to have someone like yukhei as his bestfriend, knight in shining armor, and his superman. despite of yukhei being a year younger than him, having them to separate rooms in school (but that didn't stop from yukhei in knowing what is going on in jungwoo's room), jungwoo still finds the fun in hanging out with him. lucas was a bit childish, which jungwoo doesn't mind at all since he'd also show his childish side with lucas for more fun, but that male would know when to act on his present age.

and since they've been friends for so long, jungwoo wanted to let yukhei know the secret he has been keeping for a year now.

which jungwoo is nervous as heck because of how everything could possibly change after this confession of his.

❝yukhei, i'm—❞

the younger cuts him off while he pointed a finger gun at him with his lips puckered, wanting to guess what he was about to say. ❝you're planning on adopting a pet dog.❞

❝no.❞ jungwoo answered, wondering why lucas even thought of that.

❝renovating a room full of plushies?❞

that's actually kind of cute but, ❝what?❞

❝wear a giraffe onesie and dive on a pool?❞

❝the heck? of course not!❞ at times like this, jungwoo would just want to know what's going on inside his head.

lucas clapped his hand, pointing a finger at jungwoo who was not having it as he finally had his final guess. ❝order a baby from a stork!❞

❝yukhei, i'm gay!❞

the younger was totally taken a back, not from the sudden news, but how jungwoo had to raise his voice at him. with a frown, he leaned back from the headboard. ❝and when did this all start?❞

lowering his head, jungwoo didn't want to see how his bestfriend would react. he might even leave his house right now, leave him alone and not call him a friend after this. ❝just a year ago, when this senior confessed to me.❞

never has yukhei felt so betrayed in his life. ❝and you didn't even bother to tell me?❞

someone confessed to him? and not to mention it being a boy. yukhei now had his jaw dropped in disbelief that jungwoo had kept this from him for a whole year. but the taller male would like to wonder from his thoughts as to why he felt like he was mad at a different thing. it was like he didn't mind at jungwoo keeping this a secret for a year.

he was more likely burning in anger in knowing that someone confessed to his bestfriend.

❝what happened to no keeping of secrets?❞ the younger tilted his head to the side and raised a brow at the older male who's frightened. he anticipated for his answer, hoping that he won't be disappointed.

having his fists clenched and eyes shut tight, ❝i was afraid you'd cancel me if i would tell you.❞

❝cancel—❞ yukhei scoffed, he can't even mention the word without having to make a noise in disbelief. ❝cancel you? excuse you, kim jungwoo, but there's no delete button in real life. i can't just cancel you.❞

raising his head up, jungwoo gave the younger a look. ❝i'm serious, lucas.❞

❝so am i!❞ it was the taller male's turn to raise his voice and moved closer to jungwoo. ❝am i not your bestfriend? why did you keep this away from me?❞

❝you'd get teased at for having a gay friend. also, you'd also be disgusted of me.❞ jungwoo answered with pure honesty, not wanting to lie or else he'll anger the younger more.

as they grew up, the people confessing their undying love for yukhei were rising. most of them were girls and jungwoo felt so small right next to yukhei, feeling like he's just a shadow. although, the younger didn't accept even one confession, he was too much of an angel to just leave them like that. yukhei would just settle one date and after that he'll be friends with those who would confess to him.

❝what century do you think we are living at?❞ yukhei still felt like he didn't deserve this kind of treatment. for a year, one fucking year, jungwoo hid the fact that he's gay. ❝and mark is also my friend at school, he's gay and you don't hear me complain.❞

but he knew very well that he's not mad at jungwoo hiding his true colors, it was about how he came to know about it when a senior confessed to him.

❝wait,❞ jungwoo recognized that name. ❝he is?❞ which got him so shocked since he remembered that boy being straight as heck the last time he went out with yukhei and the younger's friends.

❝actually, he just came out this year.❞ yukhei said while making hand gestures. ❝but that doesn't change the fact that you hid this from me!❞

and also the fact that jungwoo didn't say a word about a boy confessing to him.

jungwoo looked away, not expecting to get this kind of reaction from his straight friend. ❝you're not mad? disgusted?❞

❝like i said, what century do you think—❞ by this time, yukhei was tired of repeating it over again. he wasn't mad at jungwoo for being gay, he was mad that he kept such thing from him. ❝it's okay man.❞

❝then, i'm still you're bestfriend?❞

what kind of question is that? yukhei chuckled as he nodded his head. ❝you're still my bestfriend.❞

but deep inside, something sparked yukhei in wanting to be more.

he has been thinking about it for a while. the reason why he would reject every confession was him not to be committed in any relationship and have less time for jungwoo. having different group of friends with the older is already enough for yukhei to manage his time. he didn't want to chop his remaining time with his bestfriend.

little did he know, he had different reasons as to why he would always reject the confessions, why he would always find his bestfriend pretty at times, why he'd always make an effort to make jungwoo smile, and why he didn't want them to be separated at all.

even though the answer is at the tip of his tongue, yukhei would like to just keep it to himself.

❝also, yukhei,❞ jungwoo settled himself right next to the younger and snuggled to his arm. he didn't put any meaning of it, he has already been clingy towards yukhei ever since then. ❝my parents still doesn't know about this. you're actually the first one to know.❞

not knowing that his actions are starting to change in yukhei's perspective after his confession.

with a look on, yukhei snapped his head to the older beside him who's pouting. ❝what!?❞ he should actually feel honored that he's the first one to know. ❝when are you planning to tell them?❞

having teary eyes, the older raised his head up to look at yukhei who's staring at him with a lot in mind after seeing that adorable pout of his. ❝what if they disown me?❞

yukhei buried his face down to his palms before facing his bestfriend and cupping his face, squishing his cheeks while doing so. ❝woo, they are your parents—❞

❝not all parents are supportive.❞

❝i actually don't know what they would react after knowing this but,❞ stopping from squishing the older's cheeks, yukhei smiled while caressing them softly. ❝i just know they'll still love you. it will take time for it to sink in but they can't disown an angel like you, okay?❞

❝you think i'm an angel?❞ jungwoo's eyes sparkled when he heard yukhei's compliment.

"an angel that crawled out from hell." the younger snorted. he didn't want for jungwoo to find out what he had just said, knowing he'd get a good beating from it. sure, he does look like a good boy but yukhei had grew together with him to know that he's not all that good.

❝i don't know what you just said but i'm going to think it's something bad about me.❞ jungwoo actually guessed right. yukhei just laughed when the older male raised a hand and motioned it to hit him. ❝yukhei?❞

❝hm?❞ still having his hands cupping the older's face, yukhei hummed in response.

jungwoo raised his hand and placed it on top of yukhei's which is just resting on his cheeks. ❝can you be there with me when i tell my parents about it?❞

he didn't actually have to ask him for that, yukhei will still do it. ❝i'm always and will always be right beside you in everything.❞ the younger said as he leaned forward and settled a soft kiss on top of the older's forehead. staying still for a couple of seconds before pulling away with a small smile. ❝don't forget about that.❞

seriously, does he deserve someone like yukhei? ❝thank you.❞

the two sat there in silence with yukhei resting his forehead on to the older's until he had realized something that made him gasp, catching jungwoo's attention.

furrowing brows, jungwoo questioned his actions. ❝what's wrong?❞

❝i j-just kissed you!❞ yukhei stuttered, making a big deal about it after remembering the older's confession just minutes ago. ❝i s-sorry, i wasn't taking consideration of—❞

with a small laugh, jungwoo leaned forward and surprised the younger with a soft peck on his cheek, like what jungwoo would always do casually. ❝it's okay yukhei, your kisses will still remain the same for me. everything you do still won't change for me even though i just came out of the closet to you.❞

but what if, of course yukhei won't say it out loud, but what if he would want everything to change?

like being someone more to jungwoo than just being bestfriends.

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